Todayās been very stressful for me. I feel like my brain isnāt absorbing information as efficiently. The stuff were learning in physics just isnāt clicking for me, where doing Uniform circular motion stuff and Its just not clicking, for the satellite motion stuff we have to take two formulas set them equal to eachother and then solve from there with what we can, which typing it out makes sense but its not clicking into my head when I do it. I just need to do more practice.
And my Precalc homework is stressful. Its so many questions, and I swear some of it we NEVER learned. Weāre doing stuff with logarithms, and I get most of it, but the one was asking to find the graph with two points, and we never learned that in class (or somehow I missed it?), I looked in the book on how to do it and I was like okay, but then to do the problem I needed to do that wouldnāt work because I would be taking the Natural Log of ZERO. UGH.
And then thereās like no time to do stuff. I can fix this though! I can come in afterschool to have a space where I can just get work done and study. On Thursdays it would actually give me more time because I wonāt be taking the bus ride home (about 20 minutes from leaving school to getting back), then only having time to use the bathroom, eat a little, and get some stuff in order, then take the 20 minute car ride to the college. If I stay after though, I would eliminate the bus ride and have an extra 30 minutes to get work done. So Iām going to do that on Thursdays now. Maybe Wednesday too. Monday and Friday I canāt really stay after school. Wednesday next week I need to remember to bring earplugs so I donāt have to deal with the nonsense on the after school bus.
I HAVE NO CLUE HOW IM STILL PASSING AP EURO!!! I HAVE NO CLUE I NEVER STUDY AND I FIND IT DIFFICULT BUT I STILL HAVE AN A (with a curve but its still a high A)
Friday I have my Physics test for uniform circular motion, and then Thursday next week is the math test. Homework, and then physics practice is more important than studying for the math stuff for now.
I donāt have ANY free time for the most part other than on the weekends.
I could start planning out meals, and prepping them for the week maybe. Would just need them for Tuesdays and Thursday at minimum, so I can take them to school.
I think Iāve come to the realisation that the reason Iāve liked working so much is because it distracts me from the fact that I am lonely and have LITERALLY ZERO SOCIAL LIFE. I have a few friends I talk to in school but thatās it. I canāt even handle a social life probably because I have no time almost. So I donāt know.
However, today I did talk with the girl who sits near me in Physics. For like an hour. And it was a real conversation. It wasnāt one that I start, we talk for a little, and then ends. I start, talk a little, ends, Over and over, like how it is with some of my other classmates in other classes. But this time, I started the conversation by saying about how I wish this school had a Chinese class, then we talked for awhile. Then we got a decent breaking point in the conversation, and then I put in a new topic, and it continued, and she of course added in stuff. It was great I rarely get to have good conversation like that other than with family and whatnot, and even then a lot of the time especially with dad he does a lot of the talking, I just say a few things that keeps it going.
I should get to bed soon.
Didnāt get all my food in today, have like 500ish Kcal and 60g protein. Argh.
