I would have him log 3 days of eating before advising. Don’t want to alter the sample.
Yeah, I actually told him yesterday to log about a week of eating.
I thinks there’s something fishy with the economy. I feels like there is money that is NOT accounted for. At some point all the money that is made goes back to the government due to the repetition of taxes. But I feel like some of that money ISNT going to them, but is being withheld by the big companies.
It feels like a conspiracy, that’s actually true. Its hard for me to explain in the correct words.
I don’t think Ive updated whative had to eat all day other than breakfast
Snack:
5oz chicken breast
----Total: 234 Kcal, 5g fat, 0 carbs, 44g protein
Lunch:
1 empanada
2 slices banana nut bread
1 apple
1/2 tbsp sugar
1 tsp butter
1 tbsp panko crumbs
----Total: 735 Kcal, 36g fat, 94g carbs, 14g protein
Dinner:
1 double burger
18 fries
1 rc cola
----Total: 1127 Kcal, 56g fat, 109g carbs, 50g protein
Need 463 Kcal and 73g protein… Ugh. Tuna time, it seems.
Snack:
2 cans tuna
1 cup whole milk
----Total: 435 Kcal, 15g fat, 12g carbs, 60g protein
Days total: 2972 Kcal, 127g fat, 271g carbs, 187g protein.
Fine enough for me. I haven’t been having fruit/veg with every meal like I said I would… so I’m going to start doing that.
YouTube has been draining my time so I decided to block it. Its too much stimulation and dopamine.
Well, last night my ego got absolutely train-wrecked.
For awhile I’ve always had this idea in my head, even if I didn’t really know it, that I was this tough, buff, good-looking guy, but last night I texted my friend what the energy I give off is and he said derpy, so there ego crush #1, and then I told him to elaborate and he said I “Talked like a stupid dog” so now I feel like absolute crap and don’t want to go to school tomorrow. He is not even close to being wrong because when I think about myself from the outside perspective, I:
- Am really antisocial and some days literally don’t even speak to more than 1 person in school
- When I do speak, its rarely more than a complete sentence, if that
- When the rare instance where I have to speak more than a sentence, my ability to speak is nothing. It actually sounds incoherent, like a stupid dog trying to speak.
1 way I can fix this is by not talking at all (sounds nice but I know this is a bad idea)
or I could somehow fix this in a constructive way… How
Breakfast:
2 eggs
some bacon bits
1/8 cup cheese
----Total: 215 Kcal, 15g fat, 2g carbs, 17g protein
Snack:
Microwave chocolate souflle
1 cup milk
----Total: 969 Kcal, 45g fat, 131g carbs, 21g protein
Lunch:
1 fried chicken breast
----Total: 364 Kcal, 18g fat, 13g carbs, 35g protein
Ugh… Ive had too much crap today.
Snack:
1/2 pound canned chicken
----Total: 240 kcal, 4g fat, 4g carbs, 44g protein
very hungry right now… Might have an apple. Dinner is meatballs… beef… mmm…
Every teenager gets told this and none of them can implement it, but it’s still worth saying it.
The biggest issue is you’re trying to live for other people. You’re concerned about how OTHERS perceive YOU. Because of that, you’re trying to live your life so that others will perceive you the way you want to perceive.
The issue there is that, ultimately, the majority population isn’t WORTH seeking the admiration of. The majority is, by definition: average. The admiration of average people is not worthwhile. Seeking their approval is seeking to be average, because average people fear outliers. Sure, they may applaud them at ONE point, but they ultimately love to watch them fall more, reference how much people enjoy scandals of stars, and will enjoy watching a famous person have a complete and total mental health meltdown rather than try to get them help.
The biggest favor you can do for yourself is just live your life the way you want to live it and be the person YOU want to be, and then, whoever appreciates that: appreciate them back. That was how I met my wife in college, and any close friend I have now. Living authentically is living joyfully, and honestly far less exhausting than living for others.
And again, this is pretty much impossible to do at your age, when social hierarchy in high school seems like the most important thing ever, but this is what I consider to be an “adult superpower”. One day, you learn to just not give a f**k what anyone else thinks of you and get to go do your own thing.
It’s why I have a comic book character logo tattooed permanently on my body and wear dungeons and dragons shirts out in public: I want to be a nerd, and I don’t care if anyone else cares.
Id like to say I dont care what other people think either, but I know thats not true.
I try to not seek approval, but I often find myself not doing something I want because other people find it weird. That is interesting though, putting it that way.
I want to be myself, but I don’t really know who I am myself. I can’t tell if I am that I am or if I try to be someone else. I truly cannot tell. That’s very concerning to me.
I DO want to learn how to talk better though; It’s sort of a necessary life skill to have, and I DO want to be more social. I like talking to other people. Its what we are meant to do.
Dinner:
2 hotdog rolls
20 meat balls (mom made them so good. Knowing what’s in the sauce made me think it would be weird (chili sauce and grape jelly), but man its good)
----Total: 1113 Kcal, 53g fat, 100g carbs, 67g protein
Days total: 2994 Kcal, 135g fat, 274g carbs, 184g protein
Another less then 200g protein day. I need to step up my game.
ive been thinking. I want to completely maximize my strength/muscular gains while gaining a proportionally small amount of fat. I dont care if i gain fat at all. I want to gain the most muscle and strength I can so come senior year, I can cut down until Im shredded for halloween.
According to some calculations done on bcm.edu , my caloric intake is suitable for low-active individuals. I don’t think Im low active, I engage in good activity regularly. Should I eat more? I want to enable my body to become the best it can. I do not care about fat gain at all. It might suck for a bit, but as long as its not out of control I can deal with it.
I know people think its cool I have abs because everyone wants them. But Ive realized, having abs doesn’t really bring me joy. I’m not happy because “I have abs”. So one way I can stop caring what others think (Or make people who like me only because of my [lack of] physique known to me)
I know Im able to be disciplined. I lean bulked for nearly a whole year, and made consistant gains with it. So I know if I end up eating more, I should be able to keep it steady.
Most American high school students ARE going to be low-activity. You spend a lot of your day sitting at a desk. You aren’t working construction or farming or anything like that. As I recall, you’re not playing any sports in school either. Low-active should be about right. Keep an eye on the scale and see what it’s doing along with the weight room.
And remember: you’re not on the mass protocol yet. THAT is the time to focus on gaining. Right now, the goal is performance, so eat to support that.
Your right, yeah, I play zero sports. I probably sit at the desk more than most high schools (we have 4 90 minute classes a day, on a 2 day class cycle). Besides, the scale has been slowly going up with 3000, and is slowing down (I think it was from growing taller), so yeah. Weights have been feeling good. I hope I can do bench this week, stupid arm has been hurting today for whatever reason. I don’t get it. Calf feels perfectly fine nowadays, so squat is no issue.
I’ve been planning to be doing 170lbs on bench for this week 6, but I recalculated the weight I should be doing and its 166. I think Il do 165 rather than 170. I want the weight to be manageable.
25lb weighted pullups will be interesting, in theory I should be able to do that but… I don’t know. We will see.
Mass protocol. I will eat more at that time, not now. Thanks.
I feel like CRAP
AHHHH
I woke up in the middle of the night, my back was hurting so much. I went to the bathroom… im not sure if it helped. 30 minutes go by i think i finally get to sleep.
Woke up. Can barely get out of bed i was more energetic before i slept wtf. I was so tired. I AM so tired. My stomach hurts… hopefully eating something calms it down.
Back does still hurt. Still more tired that normal, stomach still hurting, eating didnt help. Schools gonna suck probably. Good thing my easy workout today will be maybe a bit of speedwalking. So i dont need much energy.
I remember I had a similar problem at 15-16 years old. I made a goal of connecting with as much people as possible. People I knew, not necessarily new people. My goal was just to say “Hi [name of the person], how are you doing?” and then continue on with the conversation. Sometimes, the conversation would end after a few seconds and I learned to be ok with that. My first goal was talking to them.
Then, the second goal was to get to know them. So I would mostly ask questions. If they ask, I would answer, but at first, I would mostly get the conversation back to them. People like to talk about themselves. By doing that, it was easier and easier to talk to them because I knew what they like, etc. and could talk about that. You learn to talk to people by talking to people. I made a lot of good friends that way I still talk to sometimes and got to know other people than my “main circle of friends”.
It’s normal at your age. Try new things all the time. Say yes to everything. You will get to know more about you that way. And what you like will change as you age.
That’s a good idea. There’s a kid who sits next to me in my math class. I think in total this school year we’ve spoken… 3 words to each other? At most? I think tomorrow Im going to ask him how he is. I know his name, and that’s it.
September 29 2025, W6D1 Light cardio day
Speed-walking is today’s workout.
I’ve been hungry (I think that’s what I feel in my stomach) all day. No matter what I eat Im still hungry. For some reason I ate a pop tart. Not great.
Breakfast:
2 eggs
1 cinnamon raisin English muffin
1 tbsp butter
1 banana
----Total: 499 Kcal, 22g fat, 58g carbs, 18g protein
Lunch:
1 wrap turkey cheese lettuce tomato
1 juice box
----Total: 510 Kcal, 16g fat, 63g carbs, 27g protein
Snack:
1 fried chicken thigh
1 fried chicken wing
1 cinnamon poptart (jeez… 400 Kcal? not eating them again
3 cups orange juice (bad idea… ugh, I actually only drank 2)
----Total: CRAP CRAP CRAP
----Total: 1020 Kcal, 38g fat, 134g carbs, 37g protein
Ugh… I’m tired of eating this crap. I’m not eating any more of it.
I think Im finally growing taller. That explains the inner knee pains, and maybe the ankle and back pain. 'bout time.