Didnt you post the same question (albeit under a different title) a while back?
I didnt know Buddhists were constantly plagued by self doubt at every step. So much for inner peace, acceptance, tranquility and stability… OT I know now why the Advaita practitioners had no trouble with you guys lol
Point being, stop questioning everything you do and expecting everyone to justify YOUR goals. Just follow your heart and do what YOU want.
Be like Goku (from DBZ) … Im being serious. KNOW whats right/wrong for you and proceed.