I’m laughing at your frank conversations. I remember, as a child, finding out that I’d been an accident, so I asked my mother, quite bluntly, why she didn’t keep her knickers on. My childish mind didn’t quite comprehend the concept of sex for other than reproductive purposes. I thought she had, therefore, had sex by accident.
(And I guess she kind of did - I was conceived on a drunken birthday date - my mother had obviously been too drunk to put her cap in straight. Whoopsy).
that’s is awfully funny Nadia - and it tells me your kids are comfy enough with you that they are ok with asking those tough questions. That’s a mjpr plus in my book.
awesome for them, awful for you and funny for us 
You may find this useful. I swear, it’s worth watching all the way through.
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[quote]BEAR BORN wrote:
[quote]Nadia Comeandeat wrote:
Dare I say that it felt hard and that an inch or two makes a big difference?
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That’s what she said11!!!
Sorry.
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If you didn’t say that’s what she said I’d be worried about you. It’s a gift of mine to set up the “that’s what she said” response.
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This is fucking brilliant. You are my mentor.
Nadia Nadia Nadia! New 1 mile time: 8:44
I’m not telling you what it was the last time I attempted a mile a few days ago lol
I’d be honest about that part, too.
that it feels AMAZING (<–okay maybe underplay that some), but that 99% of the time it’s not worth the myriad of potential negative consequences (which can still happen even with all the safeguards), which is why waiting until you can take care of yourself (or another person) and some big problems is a good idea before making that leap.
alexus: It’s becoming increasingly obvious that my little girl is growing up, and that I’m not ready for it. Time is a mother fucker.
Kimba: I had an awesome and exhausting vacation. It was much needed. But I’m glad to be back. I love my everyday life too and all the striving that comes with it.
Cal: Kids have incredible minds. I love the way the think. I can see you as a child trying to figure out how your mom managed to accidentally get a penis inserted in her vagina.
Frenchie: I know. I’m glad my kids are comfortable with me. I wouldn’t have it any other way as awkward as it is sometimes. But, that’s my problem. I don’t want them to feel awkward.
Spidey: Ha, that’s hilarious. thanks for sharing it! Amusement park next to a dump is my favorite image.
Nikki: Nice running! that’s a solid pace. And I really appreciate the update. Keep them coming.
Cbear: You’re right. I will be honest about that part, but not yet. I’d like for my daughter to be confident in her sexuality. I wasn’t. And it took some time for me to figure out how to make sex amazing.
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Deload Training at the Jersey shore
running Wed 5 miles; Friday 4 miles; sunday 6 miles.
Lots of sun, swimming, and digging in the sand. I love to play. And my kids are at such a great age. Who will I play with when they are grown?
Training–decided to go back to the 3-5-1 variant of 5-3-1.
3-3-3 Squats
My new very extensive warm up: jumps; dynamic flexibility work, BW single leg work, hip rehab shit; balance stuff x 3 x took longer than I hoped.
Squats:
Barx10
65x5
95x3
110x3
fucked up and forgot to change the weight 110x12 fuck. Added weight. Tried again.
122.5 x 8. These got ugly. very deep. a little bit good morning-e.
My inner drama queen almost got the better of me and talked me out of my BBB sets. She said, “you’re dehydrated and jet lagged. What a terrible plan to start with squats on your first day back. You suck at programming.”
My inner bitch told her to fuck off and that there was no leaving the basement until BBB squats with 105 (thank you Nikki) got done.
They got done: 105x10x5 My legs were jelly. Supersetted with recovery prowler pushes. It’s best to keep moving to stave off dying.
Then I tried to front squat. I don’t know how to do these. Tried with the bar. Felt confused. Where do my hands go? Elbows where? How wide should my stance be? Watched Masch’s videos. Felt inspired. Decided they would be easier if I added weight. Tried 95lbs. Icky. Dropped it to 65. Think I’ll start there until I’m sure I’m doing them right. Am I doing them right?
Edited to add: There’s video of the front squats. And I went running. Only made it about 2 before I gave up and walked. My legs were done.
Your inner bitch is a little hard on you sometimes. Good on you for getting the squats done, but a run on top of that? That’s crazy!
I love the bikini!
OMG! I freaking love that bikini! And look at that tight little body. Gorgeous. Plus the magic hour shot…love it!
Congrats on the successful deload - I feel like I have to say this to your overachieving ass. lol! Nice runs.
UGH! 5x10x105 sounds like torture! Better you than me, that’s for sure. Good work getting that shit done, woman! Inner bitch is persistent.
Front squats looked good! And with your flexibility I think you’ll kill these. I love front squatting for their extra glute activation. My only recommendation would be to make sure that bar is settled high on the delts, almost to the point of choking you. And be sure to keep the elbows up nice and high (one of my problems), this will also help make a shelf with your delts so you can rest the bar better (you don’t need all your fingers under the bar either, I FS with just my three middle fingers). The stance I think can be whatever is comfortable, gets you ATG and keeps the back tight and upright - looks like you got that with no problem!
I hope you stick with the front squatting! I bet you’ll be putting up some big numbers soon, and the strength crossover is great! Might even be good for the gymnastics? Are you still going to be doing gymnastics in this cycle?
Nice work, hooker! Can’t wait to see what this cycle has in store 
Well if your kids are anything like me when grown, you’ll still be able to play with them lol
That is such a lovely picture, I love it.
I’m so happy that you did the BBB squats with 105.
Your whole squat day resembles torture so beautifully.
And your legs are amazing. starstruck
sun, sand and playing with the kidlets…sounds great! we were near each other shore wise
lovely front squats…ithinkyerdoinitrite.
with regards to the front squats there are 2 hand positions that I know of.
This is the Oly style (which hurts my wrists)
and this is the crossed arm which I use.
as for leg position- what ever allows you to hit proper depth. In my case it’s very similar to back squat.
Also that bikini is TOO CUTE!
woo hoo the vid finally played for me! those were looking pretty good! yes to elbows up more. i can grip my fingers right round the bar now - but took about a year to get that flexible with them. the bar should rest on your delts. i’ve even seen people squat holding their arms out straight in front of them like a zombie. it shouldn’t be resting in your fingers / hands at all or it will hurt your wrists.
looking really good, though. looked like you were having some awesome fun at the beach, too.
Your legs are hot hot hot! Holy hell woman. I’d wear shorts year round if I were you! Anyhow, from what I know I’ll second/third what everyone has said about keeping the bar higher on the delts and keeping the elbows up. This article is pretty helpful as well.
I also read an article that demonstrated using a strap to hold onto the bar, and focusing on not letting your upper spine round, but I can’t find that one. I’ll keep searching and get back to you. I like the warm-up too, looks like you’re hitting your new plan head on!
Great depth!
your legs are great too- and yes on the bikini.
your front squat form is fine.
a few things I find helping me-
I use the grip like maschy described with two or three fingers,
and I have to put my hands out a bit further and that helps keep the elbows up.
you guys have allot of of training equiment at home , must be nice.
kids on the beach sounds like so much fun.
Cal: My inner bitch was just sticking up for the geeky planner in me. Really, I thought alot about my training during my travel time. It would have been bad to not follow through on my first day. Of course, it could be that my inner drama queen was right that I suck at planning/training, but I’m not going to concede that point easily.
Masch: Thanks for the front squat help. Yes, I’m going to stick with them. They’re tricky little kinky fuckers. I totally choked myself on several reps. I’m looking forward to doing them with some real weight. And yes–I’ll be doing gymnastics this cycle too–for all my planning I ended up cutting nothing only adding shit! Of course.
Nikki: Thanks for the leg love and the squat encouragment. Really, I wouldn’t have jumped up to 105 on my BBB sets if you hadn’t suggested that I should. I appreciate the push.
Mim: Vaca was fun. Glad yours was too!
Frenchie and Alexus: Thanks for the fs help. The real trick for me will be bar/hand placement. Sounds like it will be a process to figure that out.
Lula: Thanks for the article link. Very helpful. I haven’t been very adventerous in the gym, in terms of trying out new things, but I’m excited about the FS. I have so much room for improvement–bring on the beginner gains!
Kmcync: Thanks for the FS grip tips. Re the home gym: my husband has been investing in it for several years now. What we don’t spend on gym fees we spend on gym equipment. We bought a prowler one year a GHR the next…and so it goes. Now we need more space!
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Life can knock you down in a day. That was yesterday. Today I got up early. Running. 6 miles. Pushed the pace through the middle three. Felt good. Mornings, no matter the weather, are always glorious. End of story.
I get to bench later.
3-3-3 Bench
My legs are fucking sore. Warm up x3 same stuff= jumps, rehab stuff, balance, flexibility work, single leg work.
Bench
bar x10
65x5
77.5x3
87.5x3
97.5x9 (+1 rep pr; I’m a whore; I need to remember to wear my belt when benching)
Super set
Row 95x8x3; 95x5x2
BBB 75x10x1 (too heavy); 65x10x1 (too light); 70x10x3 (just right).
Prowler 50lbs light quick trying to get my giddy up back
Pullups 5x2
[quote]Nadia Comeandeat wrote:
3-3-3 Bench
My legs are fucking sore. Warm up x3 same stuff= jumps, rehab stuff, balance, flexibility work, single leg work.
Bench
bar x10
65x5
77.5x3
87.5x3
97.5x9 (+1 rep pr; I’m a whore; I need to remember to wear my belt when benching)
Super set
Row 95x8x3; 95x5x2
BBB 75x10x1 (too heavy); 65x10x1 (too light); 70x10x3 (just right).
Prowler 50lbs light quick trying to get my giddy up back
Pullups 5x2[/quote]
Front squats are a tough one to get right the without direct coaching, I didn’t see the video but it looks like you’ve had solid advice thrown at you from many directions at once. Start them lighter than you think you need to and be ready for the soreness the first few weeks, they hit pretty damn hard and leave no quad untouched. A lot of people also get pretty nasty abdominal soreness from front squats the first few times so be prepared for that as well. Good luck miss, love seeing the PR’s roll out.