[quote]DBCooper wrote:
[quote]Chushin wrote:
[quote]DBCooper wrote:
In all seriousness, I’m pretty sure I suffer from narcissistic personality disorder. Well, I’m not sure I’m suffering from it, per se, but I’m almost positive I have it.[/quote]
Why do you believe that?[/quote]
I never admit when i’m wrong, I have a massively inflated sense of self, I fly off the handle at even the slightest criticism, I’m extremely vain, I fantasize constantly about unrealistic levels of success (the Oscars really did a number on me), I have trouble maintaining any sort of relationship with women for more than a couple months for the most part, I am easily turned off by the slightest shit from women, I find myself attracted to women almost solely on the basis of whether or not I would want to be seen in public with them, and while I can be extremely sensitive of people’s feelings at times I find that this occurs at a rate inverse to how it should actually be.
What I mean by that is that I am almost completely devoid of sympathy toward the people closest to me but I find myself feeling anywhere from deeply morose to overly ecstatic about the misfortunes or good fortune of people I don’t even know. I felt more elated after the Olympics than I did after the birth of my nieces and nephew, for instance. There were two police officers shot and killed in the town where my parents live and when they called to tell me about it today I was fucking pissed that they called during Jeopardy! and completely tuned them out.
I also find myself hating all of the things in other people that I am most guilty of myself. I hate people who are lazy and blame others for their problems, yet I do the same thing all the time. I hate when people can’t admit when they’re wrong and are complete assholes about letting everyone know when they are right and everyone else is wrong, except that I am extremely guilty of this almost every day. I suppose that’s more of a counteractive personality disorder than a narcissistic disorder, but I’m sure the two go hand in hand for the most part.
I’m convinced I have the next Great American Novel sitting somewhere in my head (several of them, actually) yet my greatest accomplishment as a writer is being the most popular writer for a now defunct local magazine that no one really read. I’m convinced that my taste in music, art, film and so forth is far superior to anyone else’s that I know. I think I have elegant taste in men’s wear, architecture, watches, women’s formal wear, hairstyles, shoes, jazz, cars and so forth, and I also think that part of the degeneration of American culture is tied to the fact that most people nowadays don’t appreciate the same things that I do.
I guess that just about sums things up for now. I could confess to more, but quite frankly, I don’t have it in me to really get a whole lot deeper here. Sometimes I think that people who have been familiar with my posts for a while now know me better than pretty much anyone in my actual life does. [/quote]
GULP…um, I think after reading that that maybe I might have that too.
