When I got out of the hospital, I thought it would be safer to stick to the treadmill for exercise. And then this happened.
Finally I had enough. I said, “Forget it! I’m just going to go to McDonald’s and enjoy a nice hamburger.” And then this happened.
You seem to change height weight and race quite often SS.
LOL
super saiyan; you’re killin me with those hilarious gifs
So please, OP. STOP COMPLAINING!
[quote]super saiyan wrote:
Never had luck with girls either. I once tried to hold the door for a girl and this happened.[/quote]
ok that one is hilarious
[quote]The3Commandments wrote:
[quote]csulli wrote:
Are you Autistic or just trolling?[/quote]
Do you realize how irresponsible and screwed up a response this is to an anonymous internet post? I honestly can’t believe that someone would be either so stupid or irresponsible (just doesn’t care?) as to challenge someone on a post about suicide.[/quote]
Well sir see his quote below:
[quote]watermelon29 wrote:
You just forced a small chuckle out of me well done.[/quote]
It appears I cheered him up a bit. What have you done? Not even managed a chortle I suspect…
Also this:
[quote]watermelon29 wrote:
This title is not to be taken literally it is more of a way of attracting attention to my problem, it’s a misleading title, you may think that is unjust, twisted and selfish but I simply just need some people online to talk to, the internet is my best friend.[/quote]
[quote]flipcollar wrote:
You seem to change height weight and race quite often SS.[/quote]
Bulking, cutting, and tanning bro.
Have u tried DEADlifting
[quote]watermelon29 wrote:
Now now don’t get your panties in a knot and expect this to be some bitching thread where I moan about losing my Ipod, this is the real deal and I need some opinions.
My life seems to be one negative after another as a child I almost died in my mother’s womb when I was being ‘taken out’ my mother couldn’t finish the job well and simply, I almost died. When I was finally out I was also covered in a whole bunch of shit, born a piece of shit eh?
As a child I was always somewhat weird, odd, different and strange. I started speaking late and I was always very inquisitive and I always wanted to analyze and inspect everything with my own hands.
A few weird things I’ve done are:
Story #1
My father caught a fish and put it in a bucket so I grabbed it with both of my hands and stared at it and then I slowly brang it closer and the fish bit me on the fucking lips.
Story #2
When my grandmother had first moved in with us from a foreign country she looked at me in awe and said I was the most beautiful child she had ever seen, golden blonde hair and piercing blue eyes, but this little shit wasn’t all he was cracked out to be. She was smiling at me and saying ‘Hello’ and then she kneeled down and was looking at me with a big smile and then I suddenly punched her in the face as hard as I could, then she looked at me weird and suddenly laughed at me. She told me I couldn’t do that and I looked down and away from her while frowning and saying ok.
Story #3
I had found a cigarette lighter on the bench in the kitchen and I had lit all of my father’s clothes on fire, including the couch.
Story #4
I was at the beach and I saw an asian woman while walking with my mom and dad and I thought that for some weird reason this asian woman was my mother so I ran to her screaming ‘Mama!’ the woman found me cute and while my parents explained the situation she found it hilarious.
Those are just some of the stories.
As a child I was suspected of having ADD by my parents and teachers. I could’t learn anything and I was always cheating and I struggled with little kid mathematics along with doing weird shit but overtime this has gotten better though.
I have also self suspected myself of having Aspergers Syndrome, Dyslexia, Attention Deficit Disorder (ADD) & Short Term Memory Loss.
I’ve been called a retard so many times in my life and once in a blue moon I have been called a genius by my teachers, one told me ‘You are smarter than me’. I’ve been called a philosopher, I’ve been called insightful and I have been called quietly potent.
I don’t fit in with all the other kid’s, even my close friends, they are just sort of meh, no one can talk to me, not a single person, not even my family. This is because I most certainly have Narcissistic Personality Disorder and I fit the criteria well every symptom and cause I read is like I am hearing my life story and a reflection of myself.
Along with something else that has been bothering me I have been called ‘gay’ a few times and this aggravates me, I hang out with these kids who are closet homos and I just know it, I just know, you know how you just know a homo? I don’t like them either their flamboyant actions and beta personality’s make me sick, I hate them.
The thing that also bothers me is I don’t know if I’m a homo because I have had roughly six ‘crushes’ on other guys going through school, I actually don’t know if this is a crush or not though I think it is more of a mix of admiration and desire to want to know these people but I was pretty sure I was gay although because of one recent case where I thought I had this crush feeling was actually a desire to want to talk to this person he has a very dry sarcastic sense of humour, he is quiet and extremely intelligent and he seemed similar to me so that is why I was intrigued to talk to him (I don’t actually know whether I’m an idiot or whether I’m smart, I’m not bragging) I felt this crush feeling disappear after I had started talking to him and It didn’t feel homosexual.
The thing is that I have tried to accept being gay but it simply doesn’t work. I feel as if there is something else, I feel as if I am lying to myself it simply does not feel right, I really don’t know. When I have masturbated over guys it just sickens me I felt like I had lost all of my pride and self respect as a human being, I couldn’t eat anything for days and I was puking.
I have had a strong crush on a woman once although the woman was not technically a woman, the woman was a fictional character from a cartoon show called teen titans called ‘Raven’ that was the strongest crush I have ever had.
On the other hand I have never watched gay porn, I consistently perv at teachers, women and get the hardwood, vagina does not disgust me neither do any other things about the female body, in fact they attract me and I’m not very picky either.
To get to the point why I am having this thought of killing myself is because my life has been a downhill shitpile from the start I have always sucked at school, (with rare exceptions) always got bullied, always got into fights, gotten bashed quite a few times, never had any true friends or really friends at all, been hated by many people, parents were distant from me and they never taught me to stand up for myself and they always gave me shit for when I did and they said let him hit you and don’t hit back, I know there is something mentally wrong with me because people have pointed it out before online and occasionally in the real word, I don’t have these problems with fighting anymore although the other problems still remain but my parents have tried talking to me and they just can’t no one really can, I’m lonely.[/quote]
Dude if it is any help I am the biggest out of shape no friends depressive loser ever… by choice i became some shut in because I am weird. All I do is go gym, martial arts, work that is a shit minimum wage job and go on the computer.
I have literally just met a beautiful, funny self made woman who actually likes me. I told her I like trannies and that I have a man crush on javier bardem and she still wants to get freaky with me.
Weirdos are the best. NORMAL PEOPLE<TESLA
But if you do decide to kill yourself you should be allowed and for the love of god make it painless. gun is really only good way to go. Don’t do the I tried to kill myself, took pills, ruined my brain and kidneys and end up in a wheelchair only being able to move your eyes.
[quote]MattyXL wrote:
In forbes defense…I believe starting a thread about killing oneself to people he doesn’t know makes the whole situation questionable.
Thoughts of suicide voiced to loved ones and friends is a different story. [/quote]
You hit the nail on the head.
[quote]wasd wrote:
But if you do decide to kill yourself you should be allowed and for the love of god make it painless. gun is really only good way to go. Don’t do the I tried to kill myself, took pills, ruined my brain and kidneys and end up in a wheelchair only being able to move your eyes.[/quote]
I’m labelled the bad guy yet here we have someone actually giving advice if the OP so decides to carry out this desire.
You know what? I apologize to you OP and the other guy that got offended. I shouldn’t have gotten involved with this thread. It was a big mistake. If by some means the OP decides to commit such an act I don’t want to be involved with it.
Good luck.
[quote]super saiyan wrote:
[quote]flipcollar wrote:
You seem to change height weight and race quite often SS.[/quote]
Bulking, cutting, and tanning bro.[/quote]
Isn’t this a variation on Jersey Shore’s gym/tan/laundry routine?
[quote]wasd wrote:
But if you do decide to kill yourself you should be allowed and for the love of god make it painless. gun is really only good way to go. Don’t do the I tried to kill myself, took pills, ruined my brain and kidneys and end up in a wheelchair only being able to move your eyes.[/quote]
Well you shouldn’t have attempted murder. Suicide is illegal for a reason. You are murdering yourself. And murder is against the law.
[quote]wasd wrote:
But if you do decide to kill yourself you should be allowed and for the love of god make it painless. gun is really only good way to go. Don’t do the I tried to kill myself, took pills, ruined my brain and kidneys and end up in a wheelchair only being able to move your eyes.[/quote]
Is it? I’ve heard that can go bad too. I’m not sure what the best way would be aside from having someone else do it, then they can at least finish correctly if something goes wrong.
[quote]sufiandy wrote:
[quote]wasd wrote:
But if you do decide to kill yourself you should be allowed and for the love of god make it painless. gun is really only good way to go. Don’t do the I tried to kill myself, took pills, ruined my brain and kidneys and end up in a wheelchair only being able to move your eyes.[/quote]
Is it? I’ve heard that can go bad too. I’m not sure what the best way would be aside from having someone else do it, then they can at least finish correctly if something goes wrong.[/quote]
Yeah well, you simply cannot be on of the retards that sever both of their optical nerves with a bullet why totally missing any part of their brain.
[quote]forbes wrote:
[quote]wasd wrote:
But if you do decide to kill yourself you should be allowed and for the love of god make it painless. gun is really only good way to go. Don’t do the I tried to kill myself, took pills, ruined my brain and kidneys and end up in a wheelchair only being able to move your eyes.[/quote]
I’m labelled the bad guy yet here we have someone actually giving advice if the OP so decides to carry out this desire.
You know what? I apologize to you OP and the other guy that got offended. I shouldn’t have gotten involved with this thread. It was a big mistake. If by some means the OP decides to commit such an act I don’t want to be involved with it.
Good luck.[/quote]
Being told you are wrong is not being labelled the bad guy.
I shared my experience with you because I a similar assumption as you put forward and ended up being very much mistaken. My not taking this guy seriously in no way contributed to the outcome, but how do you think I would have felt if it had?
No offence taken or intended on my part.
[quote]csulli wrote:
[quote]wasd wrote:
But if you do decide to kill yourself you should be allowed and for the love of god make it painless. gun is really only good way to go. Don’t do the I tried to kill myself, took pills, ruined my brain and kidneys and end up in a wheelchair only being able to move your eyes.[/quote]
Well you shouldn’t have attempted murder. Suicide is illegal for a reason. You are murdering yourself. And murder is against the law.[/quote]
At one time it was illegal to free slaves. The law does not have a monopoly on right.
My body is sovereign and I should have the right to end my life if I choose when I choose.
I hope this dude turns things around. I was close to suicide and I got back on the right track and offer op my best wishes and love.
However if he chooses he has the right to end his consciousness.
Anti suicide laws are based on a judeo Christian and Muslim ideology and I am not religious so I don’t support religious law forced upon me.