In the past 2 months Ive went from 162 my lowest to over 190 pounds. Why? Because I’ve been binging every single day. Everyday I try to make up for yesterday’s binge and I end up starving myself so much by the time I get to my next meal I have difficulty controlling myself I keep making excuses for why it’s okay to eat more. I usually binge once but sometimes it’s twice in a day. Sometimes I’ll do good and eat only 2000-2500 calories which I’m able to lose weight on provided I exercise and for the binging I’ll eat 3000 to 7000+ calories (I just stop caring and tracking after 4000)I used to have a really good workout program at my best I had a 8 pack I was basically pure muscle and now I have a slab of disgusting fat. I hate myself right now and I want to get back in shape before my first semester of college. Advice would be appreciated and don’t hold back at all feel free to shame me it gives me motivation
You’re probably a better person than you currently think. Show yourself some love by practicing good self care and use daily affirmations for a nice boost. Engage in positive self talk. Use that inner voice to be your own best friend.
I mean, if you really want…
…You’re a fat fucking worthless piece of shit. I fucked your girlfriend/boyfriend/wife/husband/life partner last night and afterwards we sat around looking at photos of you and laughing at how fucking disgusting you are. Then I pissed on your cat. Little bitch just sat there meowing and took it.
Nothing you want will ever happen for you and you don’t deserve it to. You know I’m right.
Look at yourself! Fucking look! You’re so fucking disgusting.
There’s no point to you. Do the human race a favour and set yourself on fire.
this is probably the more productive mindset…
Yeah, I don’t mind doling out the “even your mother hates you” approach but that’s usually only in person when I can see their pain.
Aye, and really you need to know the person so you can use their deepest insecurities against them.
Exactly. What good would it do if you bust out a “I’d kick you in the face but I don’t want to get crap on my shoes” if the dude is as handsome as the sun is shiny?
Hell, he’s almost guaranteed to be better looking than me and my stalagmite like teeth.
Do you only have lower teeth? Cause that’s fuckig weird.
Or, are there some stalactites?
I read this and I started dying from laughter thanks for this haha.
Gorilla Mindset
@Yogi1 probably has the best response, but ill take a slightly more serious approach. If we’re being honest, you just need to sack up and get back to where you were. Sitting around talking about hating yourself on the internet is a lame ass form of self punishment when you could be punishing your body with weights and a restrictive diet. You obviously know that you have to eat less crap and workout more, so go do that.
Tough love?
Quit being a bitch about it. Suck it up and do what you know you need to do! You binge because you’re weak minded. Have some discipline in your life. Quit fk’in starving yourself to “make up” for a binge. That shit obviously doesn’t work.
And to be real. Unless you’re really damn short. 190lb isn’t fat. You’re just young and delusional.
To quote a great sage: “take that pity dick out of your mouth”
Quit feeling sorry for yourself, quit being a bitch, man up and work hard. Otherwise life is going to fk you in the ass
Cheers
Do not attempt to starve your body into submission early in the day. It creates binging in a lot of people. A lot. This strategy does not work for you. Change that.
The food you binge on? Get it out of your house. People who are prone to irrational/ addictive behavior with food usually can’t handle moderation. Yet. Maybe never. If you’re a recovering alcoholic, you stay out of your favorite bar. If you’re on a diet, don’t move next to an ice cream stand.
If you’re bored, tired, or lonely… Or whatever other emotional state you’re filling with food. Start thinking about being with people, or doing some other activity that makes staying home and binging less likely. If you’re around other people, you’re less likely to engage in the embarrassing pig-in. That’s when you’re at home eating alone so no one sees your shame. 
Break that habit by getting out on a walk, or going somewhere like the library where food is not allowed.
Set yourself up for success, where you don’t have to try so hard.
True story- I know a woman that was (is) a big over eater. She started going to OA, had a gastric bypass, slimmed down, ran a couple of 5K’s then epic relapse. She married a guy that was morbidly obese and going to culinary school as his second career. Blew past her previous weight like it was standing between her and a Krispy Kreme.
I believe it! Wow.
I think a lot of us attempt will power, but do nothing to make the need to have will power less of a thing. Remove temptation.
Kind of like if you’re married, don’t spend a lot of time alone with someone who looks like a hot fudge sundae. This is not rocket science.
Yeah. Habit can often trump will power. In my younger days of rocket like metabolism I enjoyed a lot of license with what I ate and when. Now solidly into my 40’s those habits come back to haunt me on my regular route through the grocery store. Those boxes of donuts on the end cap have to stay on the shelf.
Gone are the days of downing a box of donuts and a half gallon of milk because I’m hungry and “it doesn’t matter what I eat.”.
What’s your history of extremes with food & exercise?
How long have you had extremes with food and exercise? 7,000 calories is extreme.
Are you obsessive & compulsive about stuff?
It sounds like you’re missing a few things & trying to find it in food.
You may well have a mental health condition like depression & your body is trying to get more tryptophan through carbs to make serotonin, or you’re low on dopamine or endorphins & your body is seeking that through sugar.
Sugar is addictive as fuck! It’s also one of the few substances that keeps giving you a dopamine hit, your body doesn’t stop responding to it.
People also develop addictions to escape their emotions as well.
Have you looked into mental & emotional health?
Behaviours like the binge eating are often just a symptom. If you address the actual cause, it’s much easier to stop the symptom (binge eating).