Cheers bro!
Argh…all this vomiting…poor you!! Glad to hear the sleeping is better now, I always use earplugs now after suffering years of insomnia, they definitely do the trick.
I think Serge A. Storms has offered up some sound advice too… The risk-benefit equation of squats and deadlifting not adding up. Could you psych yourself up for the gym just once a week to hit some machines for legs??
Oh, and another happy belated bday 
Thanks Jo
Haha it’s all good, vomiting ain’t no thang.
Yes earplugs are godberry sauce! So much happier now I’ve bashed the insomnia into submission. I also do this progressive relaxation shit but the plugs are the key factor.
Serge is correct and I want to be sensible and follow his advice but I think I’m too stupid / stubborn. I get really mad at what cancer has taken away from me and I just want it back on my own terms. I think my sanity tends to be fairly precarious and petty things like seeing lots of healthy tanks at the gym just tip me over into misery. I know I should just toughen up and do what’s safest for me, and I may well end up back there but right now I can’t handle.
In other news I really enjoyed Gone Girl; watched it at a little independent cinema with some friends last night. And had 3 cheeseburgers for dinner.
BW stable at 81kg the last few days, calories 4000-4200.
17/10/14
Deadlift
10 x 3 x 80kg (ten sets of three)
Front Squat
5 x 60kg
5 x 60
5 x 60
5 x 60
Single Leg Calf Raise
15 x 20kg
15 x 20
It’s pretty lolz deadlifting with approximately 1/3 of my heaviest lift. Oh to be fat and strong again!
I’ll get there… the fat part anyway haha.
I picked up a crippled hitch-hiking stripper today. That was the highlight of my Friday.
Panzer, I’m so glad your sleep and appetite problems seem to be going away. I definitely sympathize with you not wanting to go to a gym. I hate gyms, myself. I came across an article at Elitefts you might find helpful. It’s called 6 Innovative Muscle-Sculpting Movements. It talks about using bands to replicate some machine exercises including leg extensions and curls.
[quote]panzerfaust wrote:
I picked up a crippled hitch-hiking stripper today. That was the highlight of my Friday.[/quote]
C’mon, man. Are you serious? Details! You can’t just leave it at that…what the hell happened next?
[quote]Serge A. Storms wrote:
[quote]panzerfaust wrote:
I picked up a crippled hitch-hiking stripper today. That was the highlight of my Friday.[/quote]
C’mon, man. Are you serious? Details! You can’t just leave it at that…what the hell happened next?[/quote]
Yes…this!
[quote]panzerfaust wrote:
Thanks Jo
Haha it’s all good, vomiting ain’t no thang.
Yes earplugs are godberry sauce! So much happier now I’ve bashed the insomnia into submission. I also do this progressive relaxation shit but the plugs are the key factor.
Serge is correct and I want to be sensible and follow his advice but I think I’m too stupid / stubborn. I get really mad at what cancer has taken away from me and I just want it back on my own terms. I think my sanity tends to be fairly precarious and petty things like seeing lots of healthy tanks at the gym just tip me over into misery. I know I should just toughen up and do what’s safest for me, and I may well end up back there but right now I can’t handle.
In other news I really enjoyed Gone Girl; watched it at a little independent cinema with some friends last night. And had 3 cheeseburgers for dinner.
BW stable at 81kg the last few days, calories 4000-4200.[/quote]
Godberry sauce…haha!
I have a deep-rooted fear of vomiting…like full on emetophobia - definitely a thang for me!
I saw the 3 cheeseburgers on your diary - nice work A few people have recommended Gone Girl…I shall get along to see it this weekend.
[quote]LiftingStrumpet wrote:
Panzer, I’m so glad your sleep and appetite problems seem to be going away. I definitely sympathize with you not wanting to go to a gym. I hate gyms, myself. I came across an article at Elitefts you might find helpful. It’s called 6 Innovative Muscle-Sculpting Movements. It talks about using bands to replicate some machine exercises including leg extensions and curls.[/quote]
It definitely makes life a lot more livable :). I’m just happy I don’t have to rely on pills to live anymore. I know this is me being stubborn, but in my view a life on pills is not a life at all.
Thanks I will look that article up!
[quote]Serge A. Storms wrote:
[quote]panzerfaust wrote:
I picked up a crippled hitch-hiking stripper today. That was the highlight of my Friday.[/quote]
C’mon, man. Are you serious? Details! You can’t just leave it at that…what the hell happened next?[/quote]
Haha sorry bro, I didn’t elaborate because that pretty much was all there was to it!
Was driving to work and it had just started raining, saw some skinny chick on crutches walking down a big hill with her thumb out. So I stopped to offer her a ride and asked her how she fucked up her leg. “Pole dancing”. I was like oh that sucks, thinking she was one of those pole dancing for fitness types… and she said “Yeah so now I can’t work at Dream Girls for a few weeks”. Haha.
Anyway she was pretty cool and it turns out we have friends in common so we’re now FB buddies. Before I got sick I’d been known to frequent the local strip joints. Not so much because I was desperate to see naked chicks dancing (semi srs), more because they’re licensed to sell liquor until 8am!! Plus after I got kicked out of every other bar, strip clubs would still happily serve me drinks haha.
Needless to say, my worst hangovers have been after nights which ended in strip clubs.
21/10/14
Bench
8 x 72.5kg
7 x 72.5
6 x 72.5
5 x 72.5
DB Row
8 x 35kg
8 x 35
8 x 35
8 x 35
OHP
13 x 35kg
10 x 35
10 x 30
Rack Chin
15, 12, 10
Bicep Curl
14 x 20kg
Skull Crusher
16 x 12.5kg
Today’s workout was one day late as I celebrated my birthday (late) with friends during the weekend, and had the mother of all hangovers which last 2 solid days haha. Stupid karaoke and beer pong! And tequila sunrises ugh…
Anyway I was still pretty blah and weak today but managed a few more reps or slightly higher weight here and there :).
I really enjoy this program thus far!
Bodyweight 81.5kg. I better watch that as I can feel some fat accumulation. I’ve read on other sites that you shouldn’t try to gain more than 1-2lb per month or you gain excess fat.
Under normal circumstances I’d probably consider leaning down a little before bulking - probably siting in the 12-14% range, without being an expert. But I am really hesitant to get any lighter. So I guess a bit of fat gain will just have to be accepted.
Any tips on bulking always appreciated by the way! I have never really cared much about fat levels in the past, but since I can’t train for strength I may as well try to look decent.
PS anybody want to try estimate my BF%? Trying to work out if I’m already too fat to bulk. Though I am underweight as farck so not that keen to drop any weight if I can avoid it.
I am wanting to add about 9kg.
Please note my gut looks SLIGHTLY fatter than it is, because of the hernia above my belly button where it kinda bulges.
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Weighing in the 80s while being as lean as you are is far from small, just saying
No, you’re not fat! You’ve got delt separation and your triceps and obliques are visible, so I think you’re right with your 12-14% estimate.
Given your body’s rebound from chemo, I would think you’d be in a good position to bulk. Since the medicine takes a lot of nutrients out of your system, your muscles should be ready to reabsorb what you’ve lost. Give your body lots of clean food and let muscle memory take over.
Sorry I probably didn’t word things correctly. And I ended up sounding like a skinny chick who asks people if she’s fat in order to get positive reinforcement. Hahaha.
I know I’m not tiny… just feel undersized for me. In a very short space of time I went from 210lb to <170lb and in my silly brain I should still be 200lb minimum in order to meet my mental/ego requirements.
Cheers Lifting_S. You raise a good point about my body being ready to get back into metabolic action. I had started obsessing over the idea that you shouldn’t bulk beyond 15% bodyfat but in reality I was well over that in the past, and didn’t hate myself. And I guess there’s no way of really knowing how I’ll respond until I try it. Trying to cut lean before bulking probably won’t be in line with what my body wants right now; which I believe is exercise and loads of nutrition. Good advice!
22/10/14
Squat
10 x 3 x 82.5kg (ten sets of three)
Stiff Legged Deadlift
8 x 60kg
8 x 65
8 x 70
8 x 70
Single Leg Calf Raise
20 x 20kg
20 x 20
Just doing the standard Increase weight 2.5kg each session kinda thing.
Bodyweight 81.8kg.
In other news I got a phone call from my nurse saying my surgeon is “very keen” to get my hernia surgery scheduled, and he will be giving me a CT scan in December to assess what needs to be done. She implied it could happen as soon as early next year, which would be awesome! I’m sure the recovery will suck but it’d be cool to have a core again.
Yeesh, bodyweight was 82.2kg today.
Was averaging 4200 calories a day for the last week or so. I did a quick graph and I’m probably gaining a lot faster than I want to. I no longer feel horrifically skinny, so I can stop See-Food-ing.
So, I re-did my TDEE and macros, and I will be hitting 3600 calories from now. Monitoring weight daily, if I fail to gain less than .5kg in any given week, I will increase calories by 100 until I do.
Goal is to hit 90kg some time in late Feburary, averaging .5kg gain per week.
I am totally aware this would be very borderline on being a dirty bulk, but I’m hoping to regain lost/dormant muscle and figure a relatively fast bulk makes sense given my recent history. Actually I am just regurgitating what Lifting_Strumpet said above. Haha.
Should be amusing to see the difference between the before and after photos!
Fingers crossed for no stupid health hiccups. Quite enjoying how things are going right now :).
24/10/14
Bench
8 x 72.5kg
8 x 72.5
8 x 72.5
6 x 72.5
DB Row
8 x 37.5kg
8 x 37.5
8 x 37.5
8 x 37.5
OHP
13 x 35kg
10 x 35
10 x 30
Rack Chin
15, 12, 10
Bicep Curl
15 x 20kg
Skull Crusher
18 x 12.5kg
Got a few more reps here and there, and increased the DB Row weight.
BW 82.2kg
Calories 3700, so went over slightly :S. Oh and I didn’t count the beer I am drinking as I type this. But it’s all good.
My daughter is here this weekend and just told me she doesn’t want to gain any more weight, as I look better how I am. Poor silly girl. She obviously knows nothing.
Just thought I’d pop in and out myself to the world as a chocolate addict.
I just can’t help myself - the stuff is amazing. If I’m happy, it solidifies my contentment. If I’m down, it brings me back up. If I’m bored, it brings excitement to my mind.
I’m not sure if I’ve mentioned this, but prior to my operation I had been lactose intolerant for as long as I remembered. I’ve never cared much for milk, but limiting my consumption of chocolate to only the dark variety really used to make me sad. And it gave family and friends a really easy method to protect their chocolate stashes from my bear-like raids.
NO MORE! Post-cancer Jamin is perfectly capable of eating a block of dairy milk chocolate with no obvious side effects - aside perhaps from a little fattening ;-). I have no idea how this new dairy-tolerant superpower was bestowed upon me, but I thank the gods.
Just ate half a bar of Cadbury black forest while I watched a Hell on Wheels episode. Hell yeah.
BW stable at 82.2. Will be lifting at some point today, methinks.
OOOOHMAGERRD CHOCOLATE!!!, hahah i’m happy for you that you can eat chocolate now