I have seen it but didn’t associate it with the SI. Thanks for the recommendation!
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30.10.
Pain in day to day movement is way down. Still achy and movement is impaired/ painful in greater range of motions. I’m still working around certain things. Not sure if I could get in a good deadlift start position yet. Hopefully the weekend will sort that out.
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31.10.
Today’s rehab consisted of lacrosse ball work on the hips. The McGill big three, air squats with a band around my knees and banded deadlifts (just a band).
Deads and squats weren’t going great, which is frustrating.
Lockdown essentials german style: fuck food and toilet roll, we need beer.
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He is doing the beer and barbels program.
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Precisely correct friends. Not in frame was the bottle of whisky. I am thankful to live in a shared flat this time around.
Tonight’s session was a 1 vs 1 beerpong tournament against one of my flatmates. I won by a long shot.
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Back is so so but definitely getting better. Minimal pain in day to day stuff is still but movement is still restricted.
Had a good warm up involving heat because I noticed yesterday that the combination of movement and THEN heat seems to make things a lot more mobile in my back.
1 oh squats
4 x 6 @ 35 kg
2 deadlift (slightly elevated bc I couldn’t get in position. Plan was 3 x 6 120 kg, from the floor)
1 x 6 @ 60 kg
1 x 3 @ 100 kg - nope, back not up for it.
2 x 6 @ 60 kg
1 x 8 @ 60 kg. From the floor, with belt. Just experimenting.
3 broad jumps
Skipped this because it is too slippery
4 strict one arm cdb press
3 x 10 @ ca. 25 kg
Notes:
- sitting back into squats is a problem, as well as the final part of bending over. It triggers the area and you can probably see on film that I try to make up for it by using more forward knee travel. I can’t reach depth that way but that’s not important right now. It got better with more sets bc I actively tried to brace hard af and sit slowly into it.
- sucks to not be able to deadlift if that’s all you can work on basically
- wanna say a special thank you to my physician for absolutely nothing.
- coach reckons I should focus a few more days on recovery and mobility and try again on Tuesday. So that’s what I’ll do. I cut the workout short here to not trigger anything and keep fresh for Tuesday.
- the deadlift motioon with light weights actually felt good on the back after some getting into it. That gives me some hope
118,1 (27.10.)
118,2 (28.10.)
118,0 (29.10.) I swear I’m eating more 
117,4 (30.10.)
117,4 (31.11.)
117,9 (01.11.)
118,5 (02.11.)
120 chest (0)
109 belly (+1,5) 
79 leg (+1)
45 arm (0)
117,9 kg weekly average (-0,4)
Curious: Are you measuring across the navel or lower abdomen?
Either way, I wouldn’t sweat about this too much!
Why? If you channel your inner Alsruhe and imagine that your torso is a soda can and you visualise a measuring tape around it, what would happen if you accidentally tilt the measuring tape a little so the bit in front is higher than in the back?
What would happen is that the circumference measured by the tape would be greater than it otherwise would be!
This measurement error is greater the larger the soda can is. Meaning that if your waist is 75 cm the discrepancy between the high point and low point of the measuring tape would have to be substantial before it results in a non-negligible measurement error. But the larger the waist the less those two points need to be out of alignment for there to be a measurement error.
Also, if you measure against the lower abdomen and you have some gas or a lot of vegetables passing through it might increase your waist circumference somewhat.
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Navel.
Oh yeah my measuring process is very inaccurate/ subject to errors. I use a standard tape measure and I don’t have help from a second person, so I don’t think my measurements are accurate at all.
Good point about being bloated. I don’t know if I particularly am but a measurement is always just a point in time result.
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I am having a particularly bad day. The whole week is just going to be university lectures online. That isn’t helping my mood at all. I hate those Zoom lectures. I can barely absorp anything and it leaves me sitting at home with my own thoughts, which are rarely pleasant. God damn what kind of person needs to always be distracted and simultaneously feels the need to flee most distractions I end up in, only to not be alone? I have the impression that most of my life is just me trying to distract me from myself to somehow get by.
Today was one of those days where I barely was able to get out of bed. Also I am grinding (rather biting down on) my teeth so bad that I am starting to really feel my anterior neck muscles tensing up over time as well as the muscles in my face. Every few minutes I start to notice how bad I am actually grinding my teeth and stop but end up doing it again immediately after. I am sure that is a pretty obvious sign of stress.
I just need to vent guys, sorry. I’ll calm down eventually.
1 deadlifts
3 x 5 @ 80 kg - from the thick mats (gradually trying to lift less upright)
2 x 5 @ 80 kg - from the floor with belt (also trying to involve my back more)
3 x 5 @ 80 kg - from the floor without belt. (I was pretty happy with these. They got more and more natural and normal. Also never braced this hard in my life for any lift with 80 kg, lol)
Going to attempt the real workout again tomorrow. If it’s a no go, I’ll stick with 100 kg and continue.
Notes:
- Lesson right now is, the more I try to shift back/ raise the hips, the harder on the injured area. I am gradually getting back to a normal dtart position. Good progress.
- I liked my approach today. I think it made sense
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I am glad to be done with college during now that everything is online. I did a handful of online classes out of convenience, but they didn’t have a video component. The virtual classroom thing would definitely not jive with me.
Definitely not my cup of tea. It also means twice the work because I have to be present and then later I need to actually read and understand the material 
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My mood did not improve much. Finished yesterday with a really weird but rather massive panic attack. Kinda like an over response of the nervous system. My blood pressure was at 190-200 over 90 for quite some time, I had a tightening sensation in my chest, arms tingling/ hurting, feeling my heart in my throat, pain etc etc.
I was kinda worried that this wasn’t all from the psyche. One of my room mates is a paramedic so that was useful. He kept track of the heart rate and blood pressure and we eventually decided I try and take a Lorazepam to see if it would get my blood pressure down. It did. It was still high but not as scary high and I started to feel better.
Now why do I say this was a rather weird panic attack? It is typical to spirale during a panic attack (symptoms worsening bc you’re freaking out about them) but there was no psychological component that I could connect to the physical symptoms. Like no thought spirals, no situation or curcumstance that could have been a trigger etc. More like a “overload reaction”.
My other room mate and long time friend was with me the whole time and said if I didn’t tell him something was wrong, he would not have noticed at all. I have yet to figure out if my ability to never show struggle is my biggest weakness or strength.
Anyways I am thankful that I don’t live alone and can rely to an extent on people to help me/ be there for me. I’m on the other hand down in the dumps that this happened. I was having all sorts of small anxiety bursts and attacks in the past few weeks but nothing as serious as this. It feels like a huge step back. Especially taking Lorazepam, haven’t had one of those in half a year and it was the fourth in total. I seem to manage the risk of addiction well.
I am still very afraid of losing the process I’ve made and falling back into the darkness. Not that I have ever really left it behind me, but I wasn’t 24/7 living in it anymore.
Finally, why share this here on the internet with semi strangers? Because I don’t anywhere else. I don’t write about me on any other medium, so it feels good to share here.
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1 oh squat
4 x 6 @ 35 kg
2 deadlift (doh first 2 with belt)
3 x 6 @ 120 kg
3 vertical jump (too slippery for broad jumps)
5 x 3
4 cdbell strict press
3 x 10 @ ca. 25,5 kg (I’m going to count the handle as 3 kg going forward)
5 wide grip shrugs
4 x 15 @ 100 kg
6 hollow holds
3 x 35 sec @ 5 kg plates
7 rode my bike a further distance than usual (visited my sister for dinner).
Notes:
- was in a mild hurry.
- deadlifts are getting better and better! Still feeling the area and I am not sure if I didn’t dare to apply much power or if my body is shutting it down as a protection measure. It’s fine though, I have time. Still, much less discomfort and no pain. I am on the right track.
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Sorry you’re going through such a painful time, do keep writing, I’m sure no one here will be able to offer much in terms of support, but at least it gives you an outlet and you know we’re all in your corner rooting for you.
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I know there’s little anyone can say or do but it does help to know people care, thanks Alex.
I know some people do in real life as well.
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