You once posted this to my log
It’s clear that you need a goal, simply a different - more attainable one. When I fist started up in this forum, I found your log and read your first post… I didn’t believe you could do it. Then I saw the progress you made, and I realized I was wrong.
Your first goal was achievable, just not without risk to health. Now you need to find a goal that is achievable, except without having to sacrifice your health to get there.
Just my $0.02