This is my first post. I feel like I’ve been riding a roller coaster since starting testosterone replacement Nearly one year ago. I originally suspected my testosterone perhaps may be a bit low since turning 40. I was noticing a general sense of fatigue, low motivation, anxiety, and just overall not feeling well. Libido was good. Therefore the primary care doctor I was seeing said it was.” Damn, near impossible to be low testosterone” . I decided to get it, checked on my own, regardless of his advice.
Total testosterone was 198
Free testosterone 8
E2 16
SHBG 12
I returned back to my doctor with the lab results, and he suggested I get on testosterone cream, and that injections were only for bodybuilders. As you can imagine, doing some of my own research, I decided not to go back to that doctor ever again. I made my first big mistake and went to a wellness clinic. I was placed on 200 mg once weekly with 1 mg anastozole the day after injection.
For 2 weeks I felt invincible . Then came the fall. I was all over the place with mood, water, retention, aching joints and restlessness. After 6 months of trial and error I decided to take this more serious and go see a new doctor at the university I work at.
I was put on my current protocol of 100mg once a week and no AI.
Labs 6 weeks out from there :
Total test : 577
Free Test: 158
E2 : 32
SHBG : not tested but assuming low .
To be honest, I still don’t feel great. I have many days of restlessness, fatigue, lost many gains in the gym, and any motivation to work out. Also experiencing weird but mild anxiety daily it feels like. I really don’t want to get off of Trt as I know so many people who are doing well on it. I’ve asked all of them what their protocols are, and they all vary quite significantly.
Any suggestions ? I’m at my wits end and ready to give up and accept a subpar life as this is becoming quite stressful. I asked advice on Reddit and omg the bro science was next level with suggestions to double my dose , take deca, it’s all in my head , etc.
My current thinking is to drop to either 40mg twice a week or do daily injections at a small dose. Please help! Thank you all so much in advance for your time.