I’m home now - it’s our first free weekend, and that’s nice
The fact that my ankle is really bad and I have a fever now is not nice, it feels like I’m dying.
So what does this mean?
I cannot train at the moment because of the fever, and when I can, I probably can’t do any leg exercises or exercises that require leg drive or standing up. Hopefully it heals up fast, I’m sick and tired of waiting (pun intended)
That’s all for now, I’ll probably hang out in here a bit more now that I don’t have anything to do
Please don’t say things like that, I feel like I’m thirteen again
Yeah, it’s wrapped up at the moment and I have pain medication on hand if I need it. I can actually walk pretty normally at the moment because there is a lot if ankle support
I’m also not participating in anything that may make things worse (running, marching etc) so that’s a good thing recovery-wise
This is something I don’t like doing but here goes
I may have mentioned that lifting heavy and getting hyped up makes me feel alive - well, there is another side to that coin.
I was super pumped when I got my first chance to train earlier this week, after a full week of not training. The next day I rolled my ankle (but I was able to do some upper body work)
After that, I haven’t been able to train because of the pain and now, fever (which is going away, thank god)
So that’s two weeks and only one real training session. At the moment I’m feeling down. Not depressed, just down. One weird thing is that I feel like I’m not really even here - that sounds really crazy when written - I feel like I’m just hovering in this damn fog as the days pass. Think of it like an online game - you are not actually doing anything, you’re just there and your character does the things. It’s the same here - one day I noticed that I’m not actually putting any though into anything, even speaking, it’s all just automated movements.
I hate talking about stuff like this because it makes me feel pretentious, but on the other hand it’s the only way to deal with this stuff as of now.
As a side note - the ankle feels pretty good, I can walk without having it wrapped and I’m only experiencing minimal pain. So as soon as the fever passes I’ll be ready to train again, and that’s nice
Until then, I’ll have to figure out something else to do
Yeah man lifting really does make you feel awesome, and when you dont lift for a while everything feels so bland. Being in the military now it will be a lot harder to get in workouts and sometimes these things happen, i guess you have to focus on the positive side of things ,that with less lifting you have to train even harder and smarter to keep your gains and get further gains ! So you will learn even more ways to say not be sore for when you do Fitness stuff in the military etc.
Not pretentious. I get it. When training is integral to your life because it’s a part of you, not doing it for reasons you can’t control feels wrong. So you feel like a part of you isn’t quite there, and you’re just marking time until you’re whole again.
