She lies to me and hurts my feelings for a week, even when I’m doing everything right.
Then randomly one day she says something “nice” to me and makes me feel like it was all worth it.
It’s my scale.
I’m in an abusive relationship with my scale.
Weight: 205.0lbs
Pull
Wednesday, Nov 20, 2024 at 2:07pm
Lat Pulldown (Cable)
“Pump Set, Top Set
3010”
Set 1: 140 lbs x 19
Set 2: 190 lbs x 11 [Failure]
Bicep Curl (Cable)
“Top Set, Backdown
3010”
Set 1: 140 lbs x 15 [Failure]
Set 2: 120 lbs x 12 [Failure]
Iso-Lateral Low Row
“2xFail
3010”
Set 1: 225 lbs x 17 [Failure]
Set 2: 225 lbs x 11 [Failure]
Upright Row (Barbell)
Set 1: 70 lbs x 21 [Failure]
Set 2: 70 lbs x 13 [Failure]
Lying Leg Curl (Machine)
“Regaining Strength, Uni. 2 Sets (2-3 RIR)
3010
(Weak side sets reps)”
Set 1: 55 lbs x 14
Set 2: 55 lbs x 11
@hevyapp
+15mins LISS
Okay honestly this was a good but hard session. Low energy and muscles tired quickly into each set. 10/10 would nap to this.
Conversation from this morning:
Daughter (8): you look like you’ve got Sarcoma.
Me: … wut?
Daughter: it looks like you have tumors in your legs.
Me: …
Daughter: because your calves are SO big!!
Wife: 
Me: 
Today I learned that my daughter knows more about cancer than I do.
Push
Thursday, Nov 21, 2024 at 2:17pm
Butterfly (Pec Deck)
Set 1: 175 lbs x 14 [Failure]
Set 2: 175 lbs x 9 [Failure]
Shoulder Press (Dumbbell)
“Ahren’s”
Set 1: 45 lbs x 16 [Failure]
Set 2: 45 lbs x 10 [Failure]
Hip Thrust (Barbell)
Set 1: 315 lbs x 16
Triceps Extension (Cable)
Set 1: 90 lbs x 22
@hevyapp
+20mins LISS
A smarter decision would have been to go cardio only today, but i was feeling it so here we are.
Went light on volume to compensate.
I fuckin sent it on hip thrusts, though… Fit chick doing them next to me gave me a once over so i had to let her know she wasn’t the only one all caked up.
This was also a bad decision.
Off Day Cardio
30mins LISS
The subject seemed to be popular when I last discussed it, so I’ll share.
I’m in the process of quitting adderall and defeating my ADHD. I’ve taken 40mg Adderall XR every day for the last 4-5 years.
This marks the first full week ive taken only 20mg daily.
I’ll be experimenting with Modafanil as a means to stay awake, hoping that I’m able to function effectively without literal amphetamines in my system.
Off Day Cardio
20mins LISS
Pretty sure Alexa just gave me the nudge i need to make an app.
Alexa does it fine, except when it doesn’t.
Ended up training with no carbs in my system. Total accident, will slam carbs when i get home.
Pull
Sunday, Nov 24, 2024 at 6:33pm
Lat Pulldown (Cable)
“Pump set, top set RIR1
3010”
Set 1: 150 lbs x 20
Set 2: 190 lbs x 16 [Failure]
EZ Bar Biceps Curl
“Fat Gripz, 2x RIR1
3010”
Set 1: 75 lbs x 17 [Failure]
Set 2: 75 lbs x 12 [Failure]
Iso-Lateral Low Row
“Underhand Wide, 2x RIR1”
Set 1: 225 lbs x 18 [Failure]
Set 2: 225 lbs x 14 [Failure]
Shrug (Smith Machine)
“1x RIR1
Yeet”
Set 1: 365 lbs x 17 [Failure]
Lying Leg Curl (Machine)
@hevyapp
+45mins LISS
Progress report incoming tomorrow; ive got everything except the 3pt caliper measurement, but pics are looking nice already.
Week 10 Check-In
Weight Avg: 207.2 (-1.9lb)
3pt Skinfold: 5.9 (same)
| Day | Weight | Cals | Pro | Carbs | Fat | Train | Steps | Cardio | Sleep |
|---|---|---|---|---|---|---|---|---|---|
| Goal | 2060 | 225 | 200 | 40 | - | 10,000 | >7.0 | ||
| Monday | 209.8 | 1955 | 228 | 200 | 27 | Off | 2257 | 0 | 4.0 |
| Tuesday | 210.9 | 1955 | 228 | 200 | 27 | Push | 5274 | 25 | 5.9 |
| Weds | 205.0 | 1955 | 228 | 200 | 27 | Pull | 5640 | 15 | 6.5 |
| Thurs | 205.4 | 1955 | 228 | 200 | 27 | Push | 6087 | 20 | 6.7 |
| Friday | 205.6 | 1955 | 228 | 200 | 27 | Card | 6394 | 50 | 6.5 |
| Sat | 207.4 | 1955 | 228 | 200 | 27 | Card | 4644 | 20 | 7.7 |
| Sun | 206.7 | 1955 | 228 | 200 | 27 | Pull | 6770 | 45 | 5.8 |
| Avg | 207.2 | 1955 | 228 | 200 | 27 | 5295 | 175 | 6.2 |
Weight good
Diet great
Training great
Steps need improved
Cardio great
Sleep needs improved
Abs, Calves, Quads, Hams, Low Back all showing good signs.
Getting sleep in order using 5-HTP. Sleep feels better, but waking up is harder - idk if that makes sense.
Energy has been low but I’m pushing through.
Still holding strength in the gym, though I’m watching my 2nd set strength dip noticeably.
Macros changing to
P 275
F 40
C 150
Push
Monday, Nov 25, 2024 at 2:33pm
Shoulder Press (Dumbbell)
“Ahrens”
Set 1: 50 lbs x 19 [Failure]
Set 2: 50 lbs x 11 [Failure]
Incline Flye Press
“Low incline, drop set
3010”
Set 1: 60 lbs x 18 [Failure]
Set 2: 45 lbs x 7 [Failure]
Set 3: 30 lbs x 5 [Failure]
Lateral Raise (Machine)
“Drop set
3010”
Set 1: 155 lbs x 13 [Failure]
Set 2: 125 lbs x 4 [Failure]
Set 3: 95 lbs x 4 [Failure]
Triceps Rope Pushdown
“Top set, backdown RIR1
3010”
Set 1: 110 lbs x 11 [Failure]
Set 2: 80 lbs x 14 [Failure]
Leg Extension (Machine)
Hip Abduction (Machine)
Set 1: 175 lbs x 23
@hevyapp
+30mins LISS
Ngl i really didn’t have much in me this session. Motivation low but my people need me.
Agreed, you running anything at the minute (assuming you B&C or TRT?).
Really not much tbh, but
Gear:
100 test
200 mast
(Need to increase gear tbh but I’m running low)
Metabolic aids:
25mg ephedrine pre wo only
600mg L-Carnitine daily
12.5mcg t3 (just started today) daily
*Semaglutide .25mg weekly (started yesterday) (not a fat burner, only an appetite suppressant to help me stay on a 2060cal allotment)
Other:
Tadalafil 5mg EOD (i dont have ED but theres hard and rock hard)
Adderall XR 20mg daily (prescribed, working towards cessation)
Fiber
Fish oil, 3g
P5P 100mg (for prolactin)
Bromelain 500mg
A metric fuckton of caffeine
That your year round doseages or the mast just whilst your cutting? How’s the blood pressure with Ephedrine, a metric ton of caffeine and Adderall? (Assuming T3 might have an impact as well?)
I dont have a standard protocol but if i were to go minimal effective dose, itd be 100 test 200 mast (or primo) 50 npp.
Just using what i have at the moment. Dropped the NPP because cutting.
131/71
Checked it 30 seconds ago, so post-training, and with all stimulants in my system.
Does fish oil upset your stomach?
Not sure, i take everything with food, though (except t3)
Thanks. It nauseates me, but I do take it with food.
I really should have stuck with cardio today but gym will be closed Thurs, so it was missing now and later or just later.
Slept like 4 hours, total zombie mode. Lowered volume significantly to compensate.
Pull
Tuesday, Nov 26, 2024 at 1:37pm
Lat Pulldown (Cable)
“1x RIR1
3010”
Set 1: 210 lbs x 13
Bicep Curl (Cable)
“2xFail
3010”
Set 1: 140 lbs x 16 [Failure]
Set 2: 100 lbs x 15 [Failure]
Dumbbell Row
“Uni. 1x RIR1”
Set 1: 110 lbs x 16 [Failure]
Upright Row (Barbell)
“1xFail”
Set 1: 80 lbs x 17 [Failure]
Seated Leg Curl (Machine)
Set 1: 85 lbs x 17
Set 2: 85 lbs x 15
@hevyapp
+40mins LISS
I normally train with a tank top on because sweaty and gun show, but today i trained in a t-shirt.
I also had a ton of people looking at me today. Like so many i thought there was something on my face.
Fuck, do i look bigger in a t-shirt than a tank top?
Push
Wednesday, Nov 27, 2024 at 2:25pm
Shoulder Press (Machine Plates)
Set 1: 275 lbs x 16 [Failure]
Set 2: 225 lbs x 12 [Failure]
Incline Chest Press (Machine)
Set 1: 315 lbs x 7 [Failure]
Set 2: 225 lbs x 8 [Failure]
Lateral Raise (Dumbbell)
“Meadows Partials”
Set 1: 45 lbs x 22 [Failure]
Set 2: 45 lbs x 15 [Failure]
Triceps Extension (Machine)
Set 1: 140 lbs x 19 [Failure]
Set 2: 140 lbs x 11 [Failure]
Leg Extension (Machine)
Hip Thrust (Barbell)
Set 1: 405 lbs x 13
@hevyapp
Depending on the type of t-shirt i 100% look bigger in a t shirt than tank top, its possible!
Yesterday - off
Kept diet good but not great. I got my protein in, kept fats very low, and smashed some carbs (mashed potatoes) so this is still very close to actual diet - but probably over 2k cals.
Update
A week and a half into 20mg adderall daily i got my modafanil.
I’m on day 3 of no Adderall.
I’m managing to stay awake fine, keeping my shit together, doing what i need to do.
Last night i hit the first of what I’d call withdrawal symptoms… started shaking, freezing cold in bed.
My bed is literally heated and i was under 3x the covers im normally under, and wife was being a furnace trying to keep me warm.
I just couldnt get warm despite being warm to the touch… i was shivvering uncontrollably for an hour or more.
Had another fit of it about 90 mins ago, but this one was shorter.
My appetite is weird. Hungry enough to make food, but disinterested after the first bite.
Anyways, I’m out doing cardio to just keep on keeping on. (30mins LISS)
Oh, and the scale only went up a half pound after yesterday, so there’s that.
No gym today, may hit it tomorrow pending how i feel. Was not expecting DT like withdrawal symptoms.
Yeah. That can be pretty intense. A friend of mine that knows a lot about pharmacology & whatnot said that the intensity and onset of withdrawl is closely correlated with the drugs half life.
So short half life- very fast onset, very intense.
Medium, long, etc.
Good luck.
