Feck, i still haven’t trained.
Going to overshare.
Frankly, I’ve been getting laid like tile and I’ve been on so little sleep that training simply wasn’t going to happen. Something like 14x in the last 6 days or some ridiculous nonsense, idk i lost count.
Not unrelated, I’ve quit porn and masturbation. ADHD tends to lend itself to either hypoactive or hyperactive sexuality… I’m the latter. For me, pornography, women, sexual release or anything sexually stimulating is a strong dopamine hit. ADHD is where something doesn’t work quite right with the dopamine feedback system. This means anything with a strong dopamine response has a high likelihood of causing addiction-adjacent behavior.
Things with large dopamine responses which I’ve been ‘addicted’ to:
Social media - check
Video games - check
Porn - check
Sexual release - check
Intense exercise - check*
Achieving lofty goals - check*
All but two of these are damaging (*) and I’ve managed to quit all of them except porn/release. Now I’m working on breaking that addiction. Goal is 90 days, but i never want to go back to porn that isn’t made by me. Masturbating needs to be reduced to a point where it’s not unhealthy.
Wife made a corresponding goal of sexual intimacy everyday for that duration as well. We missed one day in the last week where we both were living on 3hrs sleep, but we’ve made up for it.
Wife is happy. Lots of cardio has ensued since discussing it with her.
Married Man Sex Life Primer - 50% complete
Went to the beach yesterday with the family. I wont lie, I’ve been waiting to go to the beach since i got lean and it was worth it.
Fireworks tomorrow, maybe catching a rodeo if timing pans out.
Training
Planning to lift after hitting some triple time today.
Diet has been okay but needs to get cleaned up. I’m considering getting back into cutting again but don’t hold me to that. Weight is still around 205lbs.
Oh, and I’m back to TRT.
Toodles.