I’m being aggressive because I’ve seen the consequences up close regarding benzodiazepine addiction. Not to mention the long term neurological impacts.
There is no answer to you’re question. You can’t fix it whilst cutting aggressively, taking “massive doses” benzodiazepines, sleeping inadequately. Oral glucocorticoids have more side effects than they do benefits in you’re situation. Corticosteroids are catabolic in nature, and prolonged use will fuck you up beyond belief. Even short duration use of corticosteroids without adequate monitering/weaning via medical professionals will induce a profound state of withdrawal… continue taking them too starve off withdrawl symptoms and you will actually acquire hypogonadism… while on the drugs you’ll probably notice weight gain (in the form of fat mass)… there are so, soo many complications associated with the use of glucocorticoids I can’t even begin here… it’s just such a terrible idea… I’m getting a cortisone shot into my subacromail bursa as a LAST resort in a few days, and even then, repeated injections will induce degeneration of the joint (granted there’s already probably fairly significant damage to the joint). Was going to use deca, but decided to try the cortisone shot first, if it doesn’t work out and the pain comes back it’s nandrolone time (ABSOLUTE last resort)… then as the absolute absolute absolute last resort it’s off to see an orthopaedic surgeon
You’re young, so I understand the notion of drug experimentation… but you’re using “massive dosages of clonazepam” every day, it’s already going to be a very arduous journey to get off that… get you’re shit together…
If you decide to use AAS to lower SHBG (bad idea) at a young age then you’d certainly strike me (you currently do lol) as one of the more impulsive, reckless types (similarly to myself)… But I’ll tell you this, without adequate knowledge regarding risks/rewards or insight to make certain decisions you’ll end up killing yourself or ending up in rehab.
Perhaps @zeek1414 can provide some extra insight here to deter you…
It’s not about having a different opinion… it’s that using Benzos nightly to sleep because “I’m cutting” then going way up to fucking massive doses is a stupid, stupid, stupid, retarded thing to do… You’re WILLINGLY becoming dependent to one of the hardest recreational drugs to kick (and it doesn’t take long to form a dependence, roughly 2-3 weeks for most… I assume you’re past that point). I’ve used temazepam before (intermittently)… I actually just used it to fall asleep on an 18 hour flight wherein I was cramped and my back reaaalllly hurt… but I’m not going to keep using it daily… I’m not stupid enough to be doing that, and tbh I shouldn’t be using it on flight in the first place, especially considering I don’t have a prescription
I’m not being passive aggressive to put you down… I’m being passive aggressive to TRY help you out before this spirals out of control (which it will). But the truth is, if you’re an addict, you’re judgement will be impaired, and you’ll (sometimes) be convinced you don’t have a problem even when you’re a full blown addict.