[quote]Oleena wrote:
I hate using the term atheist to dedcribe myself because there is so much hate for the word, and we are generally viewed as a cold-hearted, sarcastic, snobbish crowd by god-fearing religions. Many god-fearing people think that we will not even begin to consider Christianity because the devil has hardened our hearts and that’s just the way it is. But I’m forced to use that word because I saw a comedy skit a while back that perfectly describes what I think happens when you die (basically, you go back into the earth and become fertilizer and that’s that).
I used to really love being a Christian. It took me 8 years of not getting answers from the people I’d viewed as religious authorities to even say that I didn’t believe in it anymore. I wanted it to be true in the way that you want your favorite fairy tale to come to life and suck you up and take you away from the cruel world.
I still secretly wish I could find someone to answer the question I posted above in a way that is neither contradictory to the written word, nor a slap-stick “God knows best”.
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wow Oleena - It brought me to tears (literally) to read your comments here. I have dealt with so many people over the years that endured some of the worst spiritual abuse and lack of honest responses in the name of Christianity - I am so sorry for that, and I apologize for those who should have known better and taught correctly the faith of Christ. It breaks my heart to hear personal statements like yours.
Your question is obviously born of some heart-wrenching personal experiences and I would love to tell you that everyone gets to go to heaven and live happily ever after. But that is not the case.
We each (with no constraint by original sin - this is important) choose to break the law of God according the truth revealed to us individually and will have to give an account of that choice (and much more) at the judgment (if it were all cut and dried - there would be no judgment day) - i have a quote I like to use - I wonder who will be more surprised, the “christians” who don’t make it into heaven or the “heathens” who do - that takes a bit of explaining - but now I am getting off track to your question.
Would I choose to bring 10 children into the world if I knew 9 of them would end up being punished for their sins for eternity? No, I would rather condemn myself to hell to save all 10 of them - but if that were not allowed by God, I do not believe I could choose to bring them into the world at all.
HOWEVER - do not extrapolate my answer to God and try to make Him into the evil character of this narrative. None of those punished can blame God for their punishment - they did not have to sin and they did not have to reject God as revealed to them - they make their own decisions and bear the consequences of those decisions. He will judge each person individually based on their level of understanding, amount of revealed truth, their willful decisions, their true faith in God and their response to their own level of revealed truth.
I cannot answer for God’s motive in allowing people to live, allowing them to choose and then treating them according to their choices - but it seems that the greater burden lies on the individual not on God - because He has done everything short of violating our free will to make it possible for everyone to go to heaven.
Please understand, I do understand the weight of your heartfelt uncertainty and the powerful emotions behind your question, this answer is based on my feeble understanding and poor ability to communicate the truth.
I hope my answer was clear . . .