Also, to get back to the topic of how covid has affected me, or my family as you’ll see…
Yesterday my aunt passed away. Not because of the virus, so what does it mean that the virus affected me in this?
Well, my aunt (57) had been mentally ill throughout her whole life, and now had been living for more than 20 years in a facility where they take care of ill or old people. Like a nursing home but equipped to deal with mentally ill people as well.
She had done heroin for a lot of years in her youth, after her illness (she was bipolar) first manifested in her teens, so her body was already damaged. What did her in, though, was smoking throughout all of her life. Her lungs were fucked.
She died because of lung failure.
So back to the nursing facility: since the outbreak of the virus, that place has been locked down. Nobody can get in or out outside of the staff. On top of that, when she started feeling bad yesterday they called the hospital, and the response was that they couldn’t take her in because it wouldn’t have made things any better due to how overloaded the Healthcare system already is and how fragile she was.
The people at the facility weren’t equipped to deal with this, and it arguably wouldn’t have saved her regardless because her lungs were fucked anyway. She got close to dying in that same exact way a lot of times.
Nobody allowed in and out, though, also meant that none of my family was able to be close to her as she passed away. My mother is broken into pieces. She’s the one that took care of her the most during the last 20 years and they were so close. She’s desperate for not having been able to hold her hand one last time.
And let’s not even get started on my grandmother. I don’t know if there can be a greater pain in life than losing a daughter.
So yeah, this is how the virus has affected my family. It has made a tragedy marginally worse.
I’m okay, because due to her condition I had barely gotten to know her in my childhood. I have very few memories of her so I don’t feel the way I felt, for example, then I lost my grandpa a few years ago. But seeing my mom the way she is right now is heartbreaking.