The pleasure is all mine.
Based on what you said, you either wake up already overstimulated or in a lethargic state.
Both are signs of high adrenaline activity, depleted dopamine or inefficient dopamine system and low serotonin levels.
My personal recommendation for you would be to completely stop drinking coffee right away. If you must have it, drink it 2-3 hours later and spread your one cup over 2 semi-cups. This is a neat trick to make drinking less coffee easier because by spreading it out you made it look like you can still drink 2 cups instead of one, even though it really is one cup of coffee.
Have a hearty carb rich breakfast (like oats and fruits with a shake of spirulina (disgusting but rich in nutrients) and whey protein or eggs on the side) to lower cortisol and adrenaline and take a short morning walk outside to gently reintroduce cortisol regulation in the mornings.
For preworkout, try eating a small apple or a teaspoon of raw honey or simply not eating instead of coffee. Youâd be surprised about your performance in the gym from naturally elevated levels of cortisol and adrenaline.
Also if you perpetually struggly with pre-workout anxiety you need to take a closer look at your training regimen and figure out what it is that causes the anxiety. Is it the intensity, the rep scheme, the doubt of not knowing if youâre training in the right zone, the exercises themselves, the idea that your exercise execution is not 100% perfect, the risk of getting injured, âŠ
Try to figure it out, stick to exercises that you know and control, focus on movements that you want to maintain, get stronger at or build a bigger body with. If squats are not your thing, go to hack squats or leg presses. Donât wanna deadlift because you fear you might break your precious lower back, donât do deadlifts. Donât make things too complicated, it will only decrease performance and lower the pleasure/motivational response that you get from training.