A lot of good points in the replies. Try going off cycle for a while. So you’re done with PCT and just normal no gear or peps or pro hormones. Then get a gf. Then she would be attracted to the normal you not the cycling you or pct you. Then go on and see how it goes. Alternatively you could see prostitutes like I do and eliminate the entire problem.
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