I confess that I just spent $13 on overpriced protein bars even though I have a stockpile at home…
Ostensibly, it’s motivation for exam week next week (I have a midterm every day) but in reality, There’s really no rational justification.
My Econ social credit has taken some pretty big hits lately
I’m about to pull the trigger on like $100 of low carb bread/bagels and another chunk of change on peanut butter.
There’s a rational justification: I want it.
You got this human thing Anna. You’re nailing it.
Sure, I could understand and don’t disagree with that. I think it would be an issue if a potential partner of mine were not at least slightly interested in being active, as that could clash with my lifestyle. Strength, whether that be mental or physical, or both, is attractive to me. I’m probably too naive to say much more on the topic though.
What is up with parents naming their kid “Ronin” these days? Heard it twice now. Would you name your kid “Deserter”?
Maybe they’re big time Jean Reno fans.
Obvious solution is Leon.
Or “Unemployed Bum”.
I have to confess that I’m pretty much a joke in this arena, too, then. Naive only gives way to baffled. It doesn’t deter me, though.
I’ve been debating on adding hotdogs to my diet but, they’re so low in protein (typical brands), that I may end up going with my initial mindset, which is deeming hotdogs as worthless.
Thanks to @T3hPwnisher, I currently have 6 packs of those, 14g of protein with only 120 calories is pretty damn good.
Crazy good macros on a hot dog. And not greasy as a result. Just had mine, haha
I have seen some correlation between SSRI’s and both appetite and weight changes. It really depends on the SSRI and the individual, as is the case with most drug side effects. Several current and former clients of mine have had issues with weight gain and hunger/eating more on Lexapro - so I definitely could see that being part of what’s going on in your situation. In regard to the exercise “break” - do you think that it has anything to do with the decreased anxiety? I know that for me (my anxiety has anxiety…) exercise is something that I’ve used and abused as “treatment”. When left to my own devices, it can go south pretty quickly. In your case, maybe you used the exercise in a less excessive way to “calm the demons”? Just throwing that out there as food for thought. Potentially, that could be playing a role in the food piece too - maybe less anxiety is signaling less need for control and as you well know given your profession, food and exercise can both be used as control mechanisms.
As a personal example, I was on Zoloft for several years and it, unlike Lexapro in your case, killed my appetite (which in my food and exercise controlling world was NOT a good thing…) but it also helped me lose some of the obsessive need to rearrange my life around working out and my irrational fear of uncontrolled food situations. So, different SSRI’s with different effects on appetite but the same results on the anxiety, control, and number of f**ks given fronts.
Sorry for the lengthy brain dump there and I hope that made at least a little sense. If not or if you’d like to continue this discussion offline, hit me up and we can talk.
@EmilyQ, @QuadQueen and others,
No intent to downplay or make fun of your professions with the following confession, just stating what anyone who knows me IRL would consider less likely than seeing pigs start flying.
I confess I signed up for online therapy (CBT) sessions, mostly for anger management.
Haha, probably. I’m a little different because I literally cannot feel anxiety but my temper can be explosive to epic proportions but I learned to control it while I was in the military 2 decades ago. I’ve never displayed it since then.
To illustrate this without giving too much away, I have a friend who has BPD with severe violent tendencies. He has always been bigger and stronger than me. Dude’s still on medication and doing other stuff to keep it in check.
This dude will FUCK YOU UP even if you’re a friend if you fail to see his gradual changes in body language and continue to say shit to piss him off. My wife has always wondered why he’s only afraid of, or at least acts like he’s “submissive” to me. I tell her it’s because I know exactly what triggers him so I choose my words carefully when we’re out in a group. She never bought that.
Last week, stupid shit due to several factos accumulated till I finally REALLY exploded for the first time in 20 years. She was around but she was only witnessing what was going on. Now she knows why the dude is afraid of me lol (what happened didn’t involve him either but she’s seen him go nuts before which is why I brought him up). She’s still rattled a week later.
I still had like 50% control of my actions. If I had completely lost it, I’d be in jail right now. That’s why I think I need CBT. I’m back in control but I’m not sure if it will happen again given the amount of triggers I’m getting lately so this is mainly a preventive measure in case next time I really lose complete control and end up in jail.
Anyway, regardless of whether I need something else, I already paid the full amount for a month so I’ll probably be making use of it even if anyone has a better suggestion. (Please feel free to do so).
I had to go to jail a couple of times and spend several years on probation & whatnot but it worked.
Actually I don’t recommend that.
I mean, I dunno. It took about 10 years and cost around 15k.
How much is therapy and how long does it take?
CBT-based therapy is one of the biggest reasons I’ve managed to avoid putting myself in the ground.
Go into it with an open mind (because, let’s face it, you have a tendency to be somewhat cynical and dismissive at times), and a desire to correct what you deem to be behavioural flaws.
Couple of hundred a month on an online platform. 4 online sessions and back and forth messages with therapist. Requires lot of stuff to on my end like daily logging stuff. I haven’t taken a look at all of it because I haven’t confirmed the therapist change yet so it’d not be right if the stuff was done by him and not a template the site uses.
I have no idea how long it’s suppsoed to last.
If you’re interested, I can give you keywords to find it on google easily. There are different pricing plans and live sessions can be increased by request for a “minor fee”.
Tell you what. They’re off today. I emailed them several questions, I’ll tell you what I know when customer support gets back to me.
But don’t you guys have lots of these professionals you can visit in person? I can’t do so because of privacy issues. @kdjohn and other professionals here should be able to give you more info.
Yeah, I know. Most of the things I dismiss are woo woo stuff actually but I get your point lol. CBT is accepted by the medical community so I’ll take it seriously.
Glad you solved your problems, man!
