LOG # 454
1 mile run with hubby. Had a good time.
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- Glad you’re okay. Good on you for the situational awareness and being not only prepared, but willing to use force.
Would recommend the next time a guy is being too friendly on the street: look him right in the eye and shout assertively “I don’t know you!”. Should freak him out and any witnesses will know it’s not a domestic dispute when you open a can of whoopas.
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Pretty sure your husband murdered that guy and disposed of his body. Good on him.
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All that pain you’re working through is going to make you a blessing when it comes time to empathize with and help others.
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Thank you. It means a lot to see encouraging words like this. I will admit that it’s been shoved into the back of my mind for the most part though. Probably not the best thing to do. My husband mentioned recently that I should mention that to my therapist. To which I kind of shrugged off.
Ha! I wouldn’t run it by the capability he (hubby) has the ability to do that. If anything I think he just kicked his ass. Or scared the daylights out of him.
Its funny you mention that. I recently spent the weekend with my mom. She asked if I was okay, and said I looked “tired”. She doesnt really poke or prod me anymore. Most times I come to her in my own time, if and when I’m comfortable enough to. But she kept mentioning I should really focus my studies on psychology and dealing with behavioral and mental stuff.
Sorry to ramble, but lately I’ve been thinking about going back after my first degree and perhaps getting another major. One for the medical field, just to bring in steady income, but the other for things like this. I’ve got piles of papers, books, and articles about Eating Disorders. But I have yet to come across anything that isn’t similar or exactly the same to information that’s been around since the 90s.
In essence I’m…kind of disappointed. Why aren’t there more techniques, guidance practices, therapy options, or things that can help and even prevent susceptible individuals from stuff like this? I just think the medically accepted forms of treatment need to progress. Those are questions I’ve been asking myself lately. I just think the typical practices and methods are…outdated for lack of a better word. And it bothers me that a lot of individuals are more or less given a pill as a means of “fixing” things like this, Hell, mental health issues in general. Medication does have its place, but again, medication just quiets the darkness. It doesn’t shine the light on it and tell it to get the hell out. Only we ourselves can do that. Well, that’s what I believe. And maybe one day with enough knowledge, clinical practice, and understanding I can help at least one person who feels like theyre not strong enough to come out things like this.
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In the process of slaying your own demons you’ll learn that you’re not the only person battling that thing. If you can help other people slay those demons too (help mankind solve its problems) you’ll be rewarded financially and more important you’ll find fulfillment in helping others that you didn’t get from fixing yourself.
I suggest taking notes about it as you live it. You don’t have to publish them now or go be an internet personality. But those notes could be your NYT best seller when you’re the foremost expert on cutting edge treatment of eating disorders.
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Update:
Been a good while.
Things are a lot better. I don’t eat nearly as much as I used to, but my weight has stabilized at 167. Looking good, but more importantly feeling good.
Just been doing what I can with my dumbbells and bands I have at home. Almost the end of the semester, and while my grades aren’t the best, I’m just continuing to push through and hopefully pass all of my classes.
Once the semester is over I won’t be taking as heavy of a course load come January. Two classes max. I want to work a bit more and get back into my usual groove at the gym.
So far so good. Pictures may or may not be coming. Idk.
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Glad you are feeling well. How’s training going ?
Mostly just the bare minimum to maintain. DB complexes just to keep some sort of work capacity going. And a walk here and there.
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Happy Thanksgiving everyone!!!
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And to you and yours Cyber
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Same to you girl.
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Same to you.
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LOG # 455
Getting back into the groove, since I’ve been absent from training for a few months now.
Didn’t go heavy. Considering my body told me what it was willing to put up with this morning lol.
Squat:
Bar x10
Bar x10
135 x6
135 x7
135x8
135x8
Rows:
135 x7
135x8
135x8
135x9
Push Press:
100x4
100x4
100x5
100x5
Accessories:
Hams:
40x8
40x8
40x9
40x9
55x7
Hypers:
BW x12
BWx12
BWx10
+25lbs x7
+25lbs x8
Hanging leg raises:
X12
X12
X10
X15
Not bad for a new start.
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So I got good news guys!!!
So I ended up switching my major (yet again) to a B.S. in Psychology. Come to find out a lot of my Biology credits can transfer over to amount of hours needed towards my Psych degree.
After meeting with my advisor, I am only 15 credits away from finally graduating!! Yay!!
This year really taught me a lot, and I can no longer keep ignoring my calling to go into Psychology. I want to really delve into Behavioral stuff and Mental health therapy because these last handful of months have really shown me just how important it is to respect the complexity of our minds and emotions.
A lot of people overlook simple yet crucial things that help us feel better, function better, and process ourselves and the world around in a more efficient and healthy way. And I just wanna help people. I just care. Like a lot. lol.
So I’m excited for next year, and making my way to med school. 
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Excellent news. Looks like 2020 is going to be a great year.
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First of all congrats on your decision.
Second… RIP to your balance sheet for the next ten years. Ouch the debt. Good luck.
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I kind of have a plan to avoid debt as much as possible. Granted I know how expensive med school is, but I’ve found a great med school that’s also in the downtown area of Houston.
The institution does support financial aid, like my current Campus does, so I’m just gonna Keep doing what I have been doing and using the yearly federal grants to make my way through med school.
Grants don’t have to be paid back, and since I’m young, fall into the lower income range, don’t live with my parents, and am married they do give me quite a bit of money to use for school.
This semester I received around 28 grand for all the typical expenses. However I don’t know if I’ll get more or less when I get to med school, but if I can at least cover my classes, I can cover a decent amount of textbook costs out of pocket, with the help of my husband.
I’m reeeeeeeeaaaallllyyyyyyy trying to use the loan option as last means option though.
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LOG # 456
Incline bench:
135x3
135x3
135x3
135x3
135x3
135x3
High rows:
135 x6
135x6
135x7
50x7
50x8
Triceps:
40 x5
40x5
30x7
30x8
30x10
Push ups:
x5
x5
x6
x7
x7
10 min swim
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First day of Deep Water. Obviously the shit is taxing, but that’s the point. Everything hurts, but again, it’s expected. Only thing I didn’t expect was for this program to completely stop my current monthly cycle. I kid you not, I came home from the gym, showered, and boop. No more bleeding. It’s been a good 3 hours since the gym and just, nothing. Like absolutely nothing. Have yet to determine if this is good or bad? We will see.
Only movements I didn’t calculate an RM for were the presses, and the narrow grip. Since I’m fairly weak in those movements it made no sense to even try them with any considerable weight on them. So I just used 65lbs across the board for those three movements. Weight will go up as I get stronger.
Everything else I’ll list with the RM I calculated for myself.
LOG # 457
Week 1 Day 1
Deads-135lbs
Squat- 165 (calculated from 315 max. This isn’t my all time highest number for my squat 1rm, but since I’ve been absent from training, this number is a lot more accurate In terms of how strong(or not strong) I currently am.
Since it’s pretty straight forward I’d rather just post the workout as written.
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LOG # 458
Midnight swim. Couldn’t really sleep.
Roughly 2,000m. Wasn’t keeping track of time.
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