[quote]EmilyQ wrote:
[quote]orion wrote:
[quote]EmilyQ wrote:
So, here’s my nuttiness: Last Wednesday I fell asleep with my head on Hockey’s shoulder, as always. It was a work night for me and he’d been watching TV in bed. At some point he woke me moving around - maybe a dream, maybe feeling romantic, maybe feeling claustrophobic, I don’t know because I wasn’t awake enough to tell. I asked him to turn off the TV and fell back asleep. A couple of hours later he woke me again when he kicked out (not at me, though). I had to go to the bathroom and also find the remote control, because the stupid tv was still on. By the time I did that I was wide awake. At some point I decided that his movement had definitely been caused by claustrophobia and I reflected back to the 4th of July, when we and our smelly cooler went to a party. I’m physically affectionate, probably exceptionally so, so as always I committed what I think were very mild PDAs at the party. Maybe hand holding or leaning against, that sort of thing.
So in the middle of the night I started thinking that he’d moved away a couple of times during the party. Not dramatically, more unconsciously, and he’s done it before when we were with his family. At the time I’d asked, does it bother you when I touch you around your family? He said no, but maybe it wasn’t always appropriate. I can’t imagine I would do it at a bad time, and it’s not like I’m sticking my hand down his pants, but okay since I can’t seem to tell when that is maybe I shouldn’t do it at all. He said “NO, don’t NOT do it! Touch me any time you want!” So okay.
But then in the middle of the night I was back to assessing it, and then continued to do so during my run in the morning, which was long and aggressive. I decided that I’m like a giant annoying golden retriever, all bounding joy and affection, or maybe like a clinging octopus. I decided two things: one was that I would no longer initiate physical touch because it seems so unbalanced and also because really, who needs someone draped across them when they sleep and straddling them in the morning to talk about dinner and sitting so close to watch television that they have to occasionally apologize for having accidentally sat ON him? I also decided that we should wait to do expensive renovations on the house, because I’d rather be alone than be a giant golden retriever/octopus of unwanted affection and so don’t want to waste money we won’t get back out of the house when we break up.
I told him all but the very last piece as I was leaving for work (“so I’m not going to be grabbing at you anymore”). I worked a half day, then we had plans three hours away that afternoon. When I got home it was to big hugs and kisses. We had a really good talk in the car, and a lot more him-initiated touching.
So that’s all good. I’m still so crazy about him, and also still so afraid that something will go wrong or that he’ll change his mind, even though I believe intellectually that I’m a good catch and he’s lucky to have me.
He’s just really dreamy (internally; externally he’s regular). It still messes with my head. And then I get all weird and have awkward talks that make me cringe as soon I’m done having them. I spend my days telling people to be honest and to say what they’re thinking and feeling. But maybe that’s stupid advice. I can’t tell.
Mostly I’m feeling happy and lucky, though, so maybe it does work.[/quote]
Wut !?!
You grab his ass in public and shove you tongue down his throat.
He will be like “whaaaaat ?” and you will be like, “I could not help it!!!” and do the lip bite.
Woman who cannot keep her hands of her man is da sexay, he will so get used to it…
Spoil him rotten.
The lip bite:
How To's With Molly: The Lip Bite - YouTube
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Haha, I think you may be mistaking my life for a night at the hookup bar. I’m not sticking anything down his anything or grabbing things that oughtn’t be grabbed in public. I do those things privately. In public my biggest PDA would be a fairly chaste kiss.
However, his response both times it’s come up has been NOOOOO, KEEP DOING IT so it all seems to be fine.
He’s almost always the one who initiates actual sex, unless my kissing his shoulder or whatever as we’re waking up is the first move in that direction. Hard to say. Which I suppose it should be, right? Ideal is when no one is sure who started it.
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Do you like feeling desired?
Do you like it when he has to have you RIGHT NOW !!!
You know how often men feel like that if they always have to initiate because women are afraid of rejection?
Not often, just saying.
Plus, now that I am firmly in his corner because he convinced me of his alfalfaness, I want his life to be less trips to see your relatives theather performances and more spontaneous BJs.
It is not all about you E.