Emily's Playground aka Let's Process our Feelings III

Also, I have strong feelings regarding the T-Nation advertising…

If it comes into slices and looks all vanilla and strawberry based., it is not a “dessert pizza” it is a “cake” !!

A “cake” !!!

You hear me !?!

I have nothing against cakes filled with proteiny vanilla goodness. but the roundness does not a pizza make.

[quote]orion wrote:
Also, I have strong feelings regarding the T-Nation advertising…

If it comes into slices and looks all vanilla and strawberry based., it is not a “dessert pizza” it is a “cake” !!

A “cake” !!!

You hear me !?!

I have nothing against cakes filled with proteiny vanilla goodness. but the roundness does not a pizza make.
[/quote]

If it walks like a PopTart and talks like a PopTart…

Dunno, it might be worthwhile to some; for me, I’ll stay with whats been working.

*shrug

mf

[quote]MudFlap wrote:

[quote]orion wrote:
Also, I have strong feelings regarding the T-Nation advertising…

If it comes into slices and looks all vanilla and strawberry based., it is not a “dessert pizza” it is a “cake” !!

A “cake” !!!

You hear me !?!

I have nothing against cakes filled with proteiny vanilla goodness. but the roundness does not a pizza make.
[/quote]

If it walks like a PopTart and talks like a PopTart…

Dunno, it might be worthwhile to some; for me, I’ll stay with whats been working.

*shrug

mf[/quote]

And even if there were lots of cheese on it, it would still not be a pizza, it would be a cheesecake.

I shall work on a rule of thumb definition of what a “pizza” is now.

The world needs it.

[quote]LoRez wrote:

[quote]EmilyQ wrote:

[quote]LoRez wrote:
This + a bit of time, does wonders.

http://www.armandhammer.com/deodorization/baking-soda/Products/arm-and-hammer-baking-soda-fridge-n-freezer.aspx[/quote]

Oh LoRez. Do we seem as if we’ve only just fallen off the potato truck? In fact, one of the first things I did when I attacked the refrigerator on that fateful night was to shake the box of baking soda. From behind me I heard “Yeah, I shook the baking soda, too. It didn’t help.” That box of baking soda was immediately deemed contaminated and thrown into the overfull garbage, whose plastic tie would later break from the incredible weight of the combined pollutants.

The baking soda in the pantry - used for baking - was brought into play. Some of it was poured onto a plate so there would be two sources of air-cleansing smell-absorbtion. That, too, failed.

I later bought two new boxes of the above-linked items, one for the freezer and one for the fridge, and it still took days for the smell to go away completely. And this after the removal and washing of every single item in both compartments and a complete wipe-down of the entire system. It would never have occurred to us that the freezer would require cleaning, but the ice in our 4th of July cooler suggested otherwise.[/quote]
Ah, I see. I had the same issue with storing asafetida in the cabinet, then fridge, then freezer. Including the ice issue.

I suppose it’s been awhile since I’ve dealt with something quite so… potent.

Did you find a proactive solution to prevent/reduce the chances of stuff going bad in the future? Something like “if the meat doesn’t get used within 3 or 4 days of buying it, it goes in the freezer”? That’s pretty much what we decided on around here.[/quote]

Well, this is cooked stuff. Leftovers. We’re mostly good about transitioning to the freezer if we don’t cook raw meat in a timely fashion. It’s never gotten bad enough to smell!

The solution is generally that I toss stuff while he’s away if I think it’s gross enough, then jokingly refuse to discuss its whereabouts. The fish became an issue because he was stuck home all week, so I expected him to eat it or deal with it. Possibly I’ve conditioned him to expect me to act on stuff like that, since I’m here more and have a low tolerance for yucky stuff.

[quote]orion wrote:

[quote]EmilyQ wrote:

Though there seemed to be very little damage done, my “hamster” was active later in the week, so it must have stirred some insecurity. (Orion, I HATE that “hamster” thing, and I hate you for implanting the term in my head!)

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Just made you a little bit more self aware, you mental health professional you…[/quote]

What?? No you didn’t. You think I didn’t recognize when I was feeling or acting nutty before? I just didn’t have a miserable term attaching itself to those feelings before. Also, you yourself have said that I’m misusing it. Still, there it is, in my head.

P.S. I did not enjoy that video. Poor hamster!

So, here’s my nuttiness: Last Wednesday I fell asleep with my head on Hockey’s shoulder, as always. It was a work night for me and he’d been watching TV in bed. At some point he woke me moving around - maybe a dream, maybe feeling romantic, maybe feeling claustrophobic, I don’t know because I wasn’t awake enough to tell. I asked him to turn off the TV and fell back asleep.

A couple of hours later he woke me again when he kicked out (not at me, though). I had to go to the bathroom and also find the remote control, because the stupid tv was still on. By the time I did that I was wide awake. At some point I decided that his movement had definitely been caused by claustrophobia and I reflected back to the 4th of July, when we and our smelly cooler went to a party. I’m physically affectionate, probably exceptionally so, so as always I committed what I think were very mild PDAs at the party. Maybe hand holding or leaning against, that sort of thing.

So in the middle of the night I started thinking that he’d moved away a couple of times during the party. Not dramatically, more unconsciously, and he’s done it before when we were with his family. At the time I’d asked, does it bother you when I touch you around your family? He said no, but maybe it wasn’t always appropriate. I can’t imagine I would do it at a bad time, and it’s not like I’m sticking my hand down his pants, but okay since I can’t seem to tell when that is maybe I shouldn’t do it at all. He said “NO, don’t NOT do it! Touch me any time you want!” So okay.

But then in the middle of the night I was back to assessing it, and then continued to do so during my run in the morning, which was long and aggressive. I decided that I’m like a giant annoying golden retriever, all bounding joy and affection, or maybe like a clinging octopus. I decided two things: one was that I would no longer initiate physical touch because it seems so unbalanced and also because really, who needs someone draped across them when they sleep and straddling them in the morning to talk about dinner and sitting so close to watch television that they have to occasionally apologize for having accidentally sat ON him?

I also decided that we should wait to do expensive renovations on the house, because I’d rather be alone than be a giant golden retriever/octopus of unwanted affection and so don’t want to waste money we won’t get back out of the house when we break up.

I told him all but the very last piece as I was leaving for work (“so I’m not going to be grabbing at you anymore”). I worked a half day, then we had plans three hours away that afternoon. When I got home it was to big hugs and kisses. We had a really good talk in the car, and a lot more him-initiated touching.

So that’s all good. I’m still so crazy about him, and also still so afraid that something will go wrong or that he’ll change his mind, even though I believe intellectually that I’m a good catch and he’s lucky to have me.

He’s just really dreamy (internally; externally he’s regular). It still messes with my head. And then I get all weird and have awkward talks that make me cringe as soon I’m done having them. I spend my days telling people to be honest and to say what they’re thinking and feeling. But maybe that’s stupid advice. I can’t tell.

Mostly I’m feeling happy and lucky, though, so maybe it does work.

[quote]EmilyQ wrote:

[quote]orion wrote:

[quote]EmilyQ wrote:

Though there seemed to be very little damage done, my “hamster” was active later in the week, so it must have stirred some insecurity. (Orion, I HATE that “hamster” thing, and I hate you for implanting the term in my head!)

[/quote]

Just made you a little bit more self aware, you mental health professional you…[/quote]

What?? No you didn’t. You think I didn’t recognize when I was feeling or acting nutty before? I just didn’t have a miserable term attaching itself to those feelings before. Also, you yourself have said that I’m misusing it. Still, there it is, in my head.

P.S. I did not enjoy that video. Poor hamster![/quote]

You are missing the point that the hamster does it to himself.

If he was not hamstering like a maniac, he would not fly off the wheel.

[quote]EmilyQ wrote:
So, here’s my nuttiness: Last Wednesday I fell asleep with my head on Hockey’s shoulder, as always. It was a work night for me and he’d been watching TV in bed. At some point he woke me moving around - maybe a dream, maybe feeling romantic, maybe feeling claustrophobic, I don’t know because I wasn’t awake enough to tell. I asked him to turn off the TV and fell back asleep. A couple of hours later he woke me again when he kicked out (not at me, though). I had to go to the bathroom and also find the remote control, because the stupid tv was still on. By the time I did that I was wide awake. At some point I decided that his movement had definitely been caused by claustrophobia and I reflected back to the 4th of July, when we and our smelly cooler went to a party. I’m physically affectionate, probably exceptionally so, so as always I committed what I think were very mild PDAs at the party. Maybe hand holding or leaning against, that sort of thing.

So in the middle of the night I started thinking that he’d moved away a couple of times during the party. Not dramatically, more unconsciously, and he’s done it before when we were with his family. At the time I’d asked, does it bother you when I touch you around your family? He said no, but maybe it wasn’t always appropriate. I can’t imagine I would do it at a bad time, and it’s not like I’m sticking my hand down his pants, but okay since I can’t seem to tell when that is maybe I shouldn’t do it at all. He said “NO, don’t NOT do it! Touch me any time you want!” So okay.

But then in the middle of the night I was back to assessing it, and then continued to do so during my run in the morning, which was long and aggressive. I decided that I’m like a giant annoying golden retriever, all bounding joy and affection, or maybe like a clinging octopus. I decided two things: one was that I would no longer initiate physical touch because it seems so unbalanced and also because really, who needs someone draped across them when they sleep and straddling them in the morning to talk about dinner and sitting so close to watch television that they have to occasionally apologize for having accidentally sat ON him? I also decided that we should wait to do expensive renovations on the house, because I’d rather be alone than be a giant golden retriever/octopus of unwanted affection and so don’t want to waste money we won’t get back out of the house when we break up.

I told him all but the very last piece as I was leaving for work (“so I’m not going to be grabbing at you anymore”). I worked a half day, then we had plans three hours away that afternoon. When I got home it was to big hugs and kisses. We had a really good talk in the car, and a lot more him-initiated touching.

So that’s all good. I’m still so crazy about him, and also still so afraid that something will go wrong or that he’ll change his mind, even though I believe intellectually that I’m a good catch and he’s lucky to have me.

He’s just really dreamy (internally; externally he’s regular). It still messes with my head. And then I get all weird and have awkward talks that make me cringe as soon I’m done having them. I spend my days telling people to be honest and to say what they’re thinking and feeling. But maybe that’s stupid advice. I can’t tell.

Mostly I’m feeling happy and lucky, though, so maybe it does work.[/quote]

Wut !?!

You grab his ass in public and shove you tongue down his throat.

He will be like “whaaaaat ?” and you will be like, “I could not help it!!!” and do the lip bite.

Woman who cannot keep her hands of her man is da sexay, he will so get used to it…

Spoil him rotten.

The lip bite:

How To's With Molly: The Lip Bite - YouTube

[quote]orion wrote:

[quote]EmilyQ wrote:
So, here’s my nuttiness: Last Wednesday I fell asleep with my head on Hockey’s shoulder, as always. It was a work night for me and he’d been watching TV in bed. At some point he woke me moving around - maybe a dream, maybe feeling romantic, maybe feeling claustrophobic, I don’t know because I wasn’t awake enough to tell. I asked him to turn off the TV and fell back asleep. A couple of hours later he woke me again when he kicked out (not at me, though). I had to go to the bathroom and also find the remote control, because the stupid tv was still on. By the time I did that I was wide awake. At some point I decided that his movement had definitely been caused by claustrophobia and I reflected back to the 4th of July, when we and our smelly cooler went to a party. I’m physically affectionate, probably exceptionally so, so as always I committed what I think were very mild PDAs at the party. Maybe hand holding or leaning against, that sort of thing.

So in the middle of the night I started thinking that he’d moved away a couple of times during the party. Not dramatically, more unconsciously, and he’s done it before when we were with his family. At the time I’d asked, does it bother you when I touch you around your family? He said no, but maybe it wasn’t always appropriate. I can’t imagine I would do it at a bad time, and it’s not like I’m sticking my hand down his pants, but okay since I can’t seem to tell when that is maybe I shouldn’t do it at all. He said “NO, don’t NOT do it! Touch me any time you want!” So okay.

But then in the middle of the night I was back to assessing it, and then continued to do so during my run in the morning, which was long and aggressive. I decided that I’m like a giant annoying golden retriever, all bounding joy and affection, or maybe like a clinging octopus. I decided two things: one was that I would no longer initiate physical touch because it seems so unbalanced and also because really, who needs someone draped across them when they sleep and straddling them in the morning to talk about dinner and sitting so close to watch television that they have to occasionally apologize for having accidentally sat ON him? I also decided that we should wait to do expensive renovations on the house, because I’d rather be alone than be a giant golden retriever/octopus of unwanted affection and so don’t want to waste money we won’t get back out of the house when we break up.

I told him all but the very last piece as I was leaving for work (“so I’m not going to be grabbing at you anymore”). I worked a half day, then we had plans three hours away that afternoon. When I got home it was to big hugs and kisses. We had a really good talk in the car, and a lot more him-initiated touching.

So that’s all good. I’m still so crazy about him, and also still so afraid that something will go wrong or that he’ll change his mind, even though I believe intellectually that I’m a good catch and he’s lucky to have me.

He’s just really dreamy (internally; externally he’s regular). It still messes with my head. And then I get all weird and have awkward talks that make me cringe as soon I’m done having them. I spend my days telling people to be honest and to say what they’re thinking and feeling. But maybe that’s stupid advice. I can’t tell.

Mostly I’m feeling happy and lucky, though, so maybe it does work.[/quote]

Wut !?!

You grab his ass in public and shove you tongue down his throat.

He will be like “whaaaaat ?” and you will be like, “I could not help it!!!” and do the lip bite.

Woman who cannot keep her hands of her man is da sexay, he will so get used to it…

Spoil him rotten.

The lip bite:

How To's With Molly: The Lip Bite - YouTube

[/quote]

Haha, I think you may be mistaking my life for a night at the hookup bar. I’m not sticking anything down his anything or grabbing things that oughtn’t be grabbed in public. I do those things privately. In public my biggest PDA would be a fairly chaste kiss.

However, his response both times it’s come up has been NOOOOO, KEEP DOING IT so it all seems to be fine.

He’s almost always the one who initiates actual sex, unless my kissing his shoulder or whatever as we’re waking up is the first move in that direction. Hard to say. Which I suppose it should be, right? Ideal is when no one is sure who started it.

[quote]EmilyQ wrote:

[quote]orion wrote:

[quote]EmilyQ wrote:
So, here’s my nuttiness: Last Wednesday I fell asleep with my head on Hockey’s shoulder, as always. It was a work night for me and he’d been watching TV in bed. At some point he woke me moving around - maybe a dream, maybe feeling romantic, maybe feeling claustrophobic, I don’t know because I wasn’t awake enough to tell. I asked him to turn off the TV and fell back asleep. A couple of hours later he woke me again when he kicked out (not at me, though). I had to go to the bathroom and also find the remote control, because the stupid tv was still on. By the time I did that I was wide awake. At some point I decided that his movement had definitely been caused by claustrophobia and I reflected back to the 4th of July, when we and our smelly cooler went to a party. I’m physically affectionate, probably exceptionally so, so as always I committed what I think were very mild PDAs at the party. Maybe hand holding or leaning against, that sort of thing.

So in the middle of the night I started thinking that he’d moved away a couple of times during the party. Not dramatically, more unconsciously, and he’s done it before when we were with his family. At the time I’d asked, does it bother you when I touch you around your family? He said no, but maybe it wasn’t always appropriate. I can’t imagine I would do it at a bad time, and it’s not like I’m sticking my hand down his pants, but okay since I can’t seem to tell when that is maybe I shouldn’t do it at all. He said “NO, don’t NOT do it! Touch me any time you want!” So okay.

But then in the middle of the night I was back to assessing it, and then continued to do so during my run in the morning, which was long and aggressive. I decided that I’m like a giant annoying golden retriever, all bounding joy and affection, or maybe like a clinging octopus. I decided two things: one was that I would no longer initiate physical touch because it seems so unbalanced and also because really, who needs someone draped across them when they sleep and straddling them in the morning to talk about dinner and sitting so close to watch television that they have to occasionally apologize for having accidentally sat ON him? I also decided that we should wait to do expensive renovations on the house, because I’d rather be alone than be a giant golden retriever/octopus of unwanted affection and so don’t want to waste money we won’t get back out of the house when we break up.

I told him all but the very last piece as I was leaving for work (“so I’m not going to be grabbing at you anymore”). I worked a half day, then we had plans three hours away that afternoon. When I got home it was to big hugs and kisses. We had a really good talk in the car, and a lot more him-initiated touching.

So that’s all good. I’m still so crazy about him, and also still so afraid that something will go wrong or that he’ll change his mind, even though I believe intellectually that I’m a good catch and he’s lucky to have me.

He’s just really dreamy (internally; externally he’s regular). It still messes with my head. And then I get all weird and have awkward talks that make me cringe as soon I’m done having them. I spend my days telling people to be honest and to say what they’re thinking and feeling. But maybe that’s stupid advice. I can’t tell.

Mostly I’m feeling happy and lucky, though, so maybe it does work.[/quote]

Wut !?!

You grab his ass in public and shove you tongue down his throat.

He will be like “whaaaaat ?” and you will be like, “I could not help it!!!” and do the lip bite.

Woman who cannot keep her hands of her man is da sexay, he will so get used to it…

Spoil him rotten.

The lip bite:

How To's With Molly: The Lip Bite - YouTube

[/quote]

Haha, I think you may be mistaking my life for a night at the hookup bar. I’m not sticking anything down his anything or grabbing things that oughtn’t be grabbed in public. I do those things privately. In public my biggest PDA would be a fairly chaste kiss.

However, his response both times it’s come up has been NOOOOO, KEEP DOING IT so it all seems to be fine.

He’s almost always the one who initiates actual sex, unless my kissing his shoulder or whatever as we’re waking up is the first move in that direction. Hard to say. Which I suppose it should be, right? Ideal is when no one is sure who started it.

[/quote]

Do you like feeling desired?

Do you like it when he has to have you RIGHT NOW !!!

You know how often men feel like that if they always have to initiate because women are afraid of rejection?

Not often, just saying.

Plus, now that I am firmly in his corner because he convinced me of his alfalfaness, I want his life to be less trips to see your relatives theather performances and more spontaneous BJs.

It is not all about you E.

[quote]orion wrote:

[quote]EmilyQ wrote:

[quote]orion wrote:

Wut !?!

You grab his ass in public and shove you tongue down his throat.

He will be like “whaaaaat ?” and you will be like, “I could not help it!!!” and do the lip bite.

Woman who cannot keep her hands of her man is da sexay, he will so get used to it…

Spoil him rotten.

The lip bite:

[/quote]

Haha, I think you may be mistaking my life for a night at the hookup bar. I’m not sticking anything down his anything or grabbing things that oughtn’t be grabbed in public. I do those things privately. In public my biggest PDA would be a fairly chaste kiss.

However, his response both times it’s come up has been NOOOOO, KEEP DOING IT so it all seems to be fine.

He’s almost always the one who initiates actual sex, unless my kissing his shoulder or whatever as we’re waking up is the first move in that direction. Hard to say. Which I suppose it should be, right? Ideal is when no one is sure who started it.

[/quote]

Do you like feeling desired?

Do you like it when he has to have you RIGHT NOW !!!

You know how often men feel like that if they always have to initiate because women are afraid of rejection?

Not often, just saying.

Plus, now that I am firmly in his corner because he convinced me of his alfalfaness, I want his life to be less trips to see your relatives theather performances and more spontaneous BJs.

It is not all about you E.[/quote]

I do feel desired! Also, if we’re sitting catty-corner to each other when we’re having drinks out I’m the one all scooted forward with my knees on either side of his leg and at least one hand on him, so hopefully so does he.

AND, guess whose ENTIRE EXTENDED FAMILY including siblings and nieces and nephews we’re going on vacation with next week for the whole week? Not mine*!

*Full disclosure: some of mine will be there, too, because it’s all getting blended. Still. Not my circus.

Oh wait, I see what you’re saying now. I think he knows how much I desire him. And I do initiate sometimes, just not usually. I’m pretty sure he feels very wanted in every way. Because I’m like a golden retriever of joyous affection physically, and I’m very verbal additionally, so if I’m thinking “damn is he sexy when he’s on a ladder nailing up siding,” I’m almost certainly saying it, too.

[quote]EmilyQ wrote:
Oh wait, I see what you’re saying now. I think he knows how much I desire him. And I do initiate sometimes, just not usually. I’m pretty sure he feels very wanted in every way. Because I’m like a golden retriever of joyous affection physically, and I’m very verbal additionally, so if I’m thinking “damn is he sexy when he’s on a ladder nailing up siding,” I’m almost certainly saying it, too.[/quote]

Grab his ass damnit !!!

Men are not subtle creatures, grab it, squeeze it, fondle it, if necessary, bite it.

JA !!!

If, IF, it all goes wrong, he will forgive you.

Garantueed.

[quote]orion wrote:

[quote]EmilyQ wrote:
Oh wait, I see what you’re saying now. I think he knows how much I desire him. And I do initiate sometimes, just not usually. I’m pretty sure he feels very wanted in every way. Because I’m like a golden retriever of joyous affection physically, and I’m very verbal additionally, so if I’m thinking “damn is he sexy when he’s on a ladder nailing up siding,” I’m almost certainly saying it, too.[/quote]

Grab his ass damnit !!!

Men are not subtle creatures, grab it, squeeze it, fondle it, if necessary, bite it.

JA !!!

If, IF, it all goes wrong, he will forgive you.

Garantueed.[/quote]

I do grab his ass, for god’s sake. Just not at family gatherings or parties hosted by the head of social work at our local hospital and her super-smart lobbyist girlfriend.

I touch his ass often and enthusiastically, but in private.

[quote]EmilyQ wrote:

[quote]orion wrote:

[quote]EmilyQ wrote:
Oh wait, I see what you’re saying now. I think he knows how much I desire him. And I do initiate sometimes, just not usually. I’m pretty sure he feels very wanted in every way. Because I’m like a golden retriever of joyous affection physically, and I’m very verbal additionally, so if I’m thinking “damn is he sexy when he’s on a ladder nailing up siding,” I’m almost certainly saying it, too.[/quote]

Grab his ass damnit !!!

Men are not subtle creatures, grab it, squeeze it, fondle it, if necessary, bite it.

JA !!!

If, IF, it all goes wrong, he will forgive you.

Garantueed.[/quote]

I do grab his ass, for god’s sake. Just not at family gatherings or parties hosted by the head of social work at our local hospital and her super-smart lobbyist girlfriend.

I touch his ass often and enthusiastically, but in private. [/quote]

But then you are still in control!

The idea is that you are not!

[quote]orion wrote:

[quote]EmilyQ wrote:

[quote]orion wrote:

[quote]EmilyQ wrote:
Oh wait, I see what you’re saying now. I think he knows how much I desire him. And I do initiate sometimes, just not usually. I’m pretty sure he feels very wanted in every way. Because I’m like a golden retriever of joyous affection physically, and I’m very verbal additionally, so if I’m thinking “damn is he sexy when he’s on a ladder nailing up siding,” I’m almost certainly saying it, too.[/quote]

Grab his ass damnit !!!

Men are not subtle creatures, grab it, squeeze it, fondle it, if necessary, bite it.

JA !!!

If, IF, it all goes wrong, he will forgive you.

Garantueed.[/quote]

I do grab his ass, for god’s sake. Just not at family gatherings or parties hosted by the head of social work at our local hospital and her super-smart lobbyist girlfriend.

I touch his ass often and enthusiastically, but in private. [/quote]

But then you are still in control!

The idea is that you are not![/quote]

Huh?

Wait, Emily has a more of a delay than I do !?!

She is more badass than me !?!

[quote]EmilyQ wrote:

[quote]orion wrote:

[quote]EmilyQ wrote:

[quote]orion wrote:

[quote]EmilyQ wrote:
Oh wait, I see what you’re saying now. I think he knows how much I desire him. And I do initiate sometimes, just not usually. I’m pretty sure he feels very wanted in every way. Because I’m like a golden retriever of joyous affection physically, and I’m very verbal additionally, so if I’m thinking “damn is he sexy when he’s on a ladder nailing up siding,” I’m almost certainly saying it, too.[/quote]

Grab his ass damnit !!!

Men are not subtle creatures, grab it, squeeze it, fondle it, if necessary, bite it.

JA !!!

If, IF, it all goes wrong, he will forgive you.

Garantueed.[/quote]

I do grab his ass, for god’s sake. Just not at family gatherings or parties hosted by the head of social work at our local hospital and her super-smart lobbyist girlfriend.

I touch his ass often and enthusiastically, but in private. [/quote]

But then you are still in control!

The idea is that you are not![/quote]

Huh? [/quote]
The idea is that you are overwhelmed by his virile masculinity and that you cannot help it!!!

You are carried away, no longer in control, carried away,ya dig?