I do believe in God.
I was raised Catholic and candidly unimpressed. The Catholic Church in my area (New Mexico) is basically pagan, replacing Aztec gods with Saints and Ixchel (female deity, Mayan) with Mary. Slight bows to local nativist religion (Apache) in my particular Diocese. And South American politics of communism and racial grievances trump any theology. Lots of antisemitism.
Anyway, it made me sick, despite growing up as an alter boy whose mother frequently said things along the lines of “the white man was allowed to conquer us because we were pagan and needed Christianity. They were its imperfect apostles.”
Anyway, I was a vaguely Catholic guy until I met my wife, who is firmly Jewish, and whom I love. As I have related before, I underwent a full-fledged, year long, conversion process and got married. It hasn’t particularly stuck (the conversion part), and I’ve ended up a believer in God (er, G-d), but not particularly Jewish, although I did spend a full day with my in-laws in El Paso yesterday at their synagogue.
More like a generic believer in a God (I’ve always had that), but more specifically a believer that the God of the Bible.
I’ve seen God in action in big things and small. Some really big things in war.
I’ve had some really specific answered prayers that were highly unlikely, but they were the right thing to be praying about and not selfish prayers to a sky genie.
As for why I believe the God of the Bible is The God, it’s because everybody hates the Jews, which I know is a stupid reason. It’s also not the only reason, but it’s a big reason.
The hatred is completely irrational. I didn’t really know Jewish people until I met some guys in the Army that were fantastic people. And, of course, my wife and in-laws. So I’ve tended to like the Jewish people I’ve met. Certainly never saw a reason for the hate.
And I am candidly amazed by them. We have this tribe of completely insignificant people from a complete shithole of an area influence the world more than any other group of people – just like God promised them – “a light unto the nations”. Science, literature, modern thought – they are WAY over represented, for no rational explanation.
There’s literally a whole host of promises made and kept about their punishment and survival in the Bible.
And the effect this insignficant group has had is amazing. Just for example, I was in PA looking at foundries (buying pipe) and my group took a day trip to Philly. We saw the not-dangerous sites, including the Liberty Bell. Inscribed on the bell is “Proclaim LIBERTY Throughout all the Land unto all the Inhabitants Thereof”. That’s Leviticus, BTW.
That’s a Big Idea for 1500 BC bronze age people. Had a Big Effect 200 years ago.
Anyway, you have this ragtag group of sheep herders that most everyone hates, but no one can seem to wipe out (despite best efforts of Egyptians, Babylonians, Greeks, Romans, Europeans (several times), and now Arabs and various nuts), who go on to have outside influence on the entire world, and it’s (in general) a quite good influence.
I just don’t see that kind of irrational hatred and kind of impossible good effect as being possible without the help of God having picked them out as a demonstration of power. They’re just people.