Demigod before 35 (Aldebaran)

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1963

So I’ve been thinking that I should still leave work in June no matter what. I was thinking about it this afternoon and then I played some video games with a friend and I was just calm, soothed. I wasn’t defeatist or salty and we won 6/7 games and I finished first 3 times, when I usually suck. But I just didn’t care some much for the game and took it standing back, just for fun.

Anyway so I thought about this from my nocturnal walk.

I can always manage to find an excuse to stay at this job, like I have in the past. If I fail this I’ll quit. Gnagna. But I don’t because I don’t fail or something.

I could always find excuses because it’s easy to stay there. It’s convenient, it’s comforting. I know everyone, I know the job, I don’t have to think, to risk anything.

But the truth is that’s it’s been making me unhappy for a good 2 years. Maybe not as much as our good @simo74 ? But I know it can have its toll on our psyche. But we’re often too much caught in life, our routine, the paychecks and all to realize, to stand back and reflect on our life.

The difference is that I don’t have a family. So I have to take care of myself first. And for those who’ve been reading here, I’ve been complaining about it way too much when it’s a sports forum. Truth is, 90% of the time when I complain IRL it’s because of this or a bad mood caused by it.

So yeah it’s time I stopped confining myself to the easy thing and keep flying and trying to be a functional adult being.

I know it’s such a “first-world” problem, and that some people would love to have a job in this pandemic, but it’s just making me miserable, and right now I only earn half the minimum wage.

I have bad memories here, and this job, although it’s certainly more “honourable” to work there than being a leech on the unemployment benefits, in my mind it is linked to how I used to perceived myself as a failure. Unable to do things.

What can happen anyway?

• She might not want to fire me and I could just stop showing up to work and depending on how she’d try or not to mess with me I could have some very tough financial months ahead, but I won’t die for sure. I don’t know anybody who left this job to become homeless

• I could get fired and then have benefits, and I’ll have freedom to work on my projects or find some moonlighting job or just a summer job, strong with 3 years as a mid-position in this tough work

• I could quit if she doesn’t want to fire me, and then feeling better and free mentally, move my ass and find some job until I get the benefits to start my business. I’ll have no choice anyway so no more excuses!

So I think even if I get graduated late, I’ll still go and talk with her sunday and leave finally

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1964

Good post mate and very sensible of you to think about it and lay it out. As people we often forget that from a work perspective we are a product and only we are responsible for marketing that product as well as developing the product into what we want it to be for the future.
Recognising that what you are doing now is having a negative impact on your life overall is the first step. The next step is to make a plan, what do I want to become and what are the steps to get there. Then just take the first step on your new journey to a better you.
That sounds easy but in truth looking at oneself and really deciding what you want isnt easy especially if what you want is very different from today. Making a plan is a little easier and taking everything first step just takes courage.

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1965

Good thinking.
FWIW I say leave the job, believe in yourself to find a better way than the sinkhole of this job.

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1966

Don’t fall for the sunk cost fallacy. From what I understand, your job is making you miserable and holding you back.

you seem more than capable of supporting yourself without this job and as you’ve pointed out, you’re responsible for no one but yourself… so, I’d say: Take Care of YOURSELF!!!

:hugs:

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1967

Exactly! Thank you for the support guys!

So I had the news today, we’ll have 300 hours so months of internship to do when gyms open. So it’s a bit of a bummer, because we already spent 2 months “doing nothing” and waiting, and we’ll probably wait 1-3 months before they open the gym (and the government most likely won’t tell us until like a few days beforehand)

And yes, adios summer :joy: so yeah I think leaving this job is still the good thing to do, even if well now I’ll have a full-time job already (unpaid though…) so it will leave me less flexibility if I have to find something. And yeah creating an event for the iunternship, the extra work and scholar work I’ll need to do, ugh if I add my 25 hours at Maccyes it’ll be very tough

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1968

24/4 - Colossus - Leg 2

Lying Leg Curl

Leg Press

Nordic Ham Curl

DB RDL

Standing Calf Raises

Jesus the 2 x 20 on the leg press were tough as balls. I never had a propor leg press before, and my strength is progressing over time on this exercise. I’m sure that this and the hack squat will yield to new leg cash in the bank of gains :grin:

Was using 4 plates and it was super, super tough. Second set I only managed 18 and I did took some pauses with the leg extended, just horrible!

The RDL drop set with 50, 40 and 30 kgs was crippling as well, I literally fell on the ground afterwards

Then you add poor diet, lots of alcohol and bad sleep yesterday + standing for 9 hours today and my legs are sore AF

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1969

Simply watching that cripples me. I would probably have DOMS from that for at least a week.

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1970

My hammies really are sore indeed… But the leg press felt worse honestly even though the sets were way faster

This is the first set, RPE 10

The second one, well you can only trust my word about how impossibly hard it was I didn’t managed 20 despite my best effort :joy:

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1971

I rarely get quad DOMS anywhere near as bad as the hamstring soreness from only a couple sets of RDLs, but then again I’ve never seriously used a leg press/hack squat/etc. That too looks painful to say the least.

I wonder if you also film and photograph your friends suffering in the gym, or do you have your own paparazzi?

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1972

Yeah it’s also hard for me to get good quad DOMS, but I attribute it a lot to a good and brutal use of machines. But quad DOMS feel so good!

Wel all film each other ahah I really like taking pics of my mates spending time on the floor rolling in pain and holding their legs, I did a little montage a few days ago

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1973

26/04 - Colossus - Pull 1

Smith-Machine Rows

Machine Pullovers

One-Arm Barbell Rows

Close-Grip Pulldowns

Straight Leg Sit-ups

Reverse Grip EZ bar Curls

DB Preacher Curls

An easy day this time! Good because I was still quite tired from the weekend. Saturday the cheat… I barely ate but I drank maybe 2 bottles of champagne, and some other bad stuff. I was trashed

But it was an amazing afternoon and I don’t regret it at all! Got some tan and sunburn as well lol. yesterday I worked 10 hours and I was really tired, I ate McDonald’s twice + 3 meals… Today 84,3 kgs.

Monday is pic day:

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Unflexed, I look a bit small? But we can see I have veins all over. I’m actually very lean

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So yeah, a bad weekend doesn’t destroy everything, phew!

I still have that little lower back fat, but honestly I feel good, what i’m doing is working, I won’t stress over the weight loss and just keep doing like this. I’m actually drinking a beer right now. Not too much pressure!

At the party i was dressed as Rambo because I was noticed 3 days beforehand and had no costume (the theme was USA) so I asked a friend and he lend me stuff and I went as such.

One girl said that I looked like Schwarzenegger and handsome

Another that I was just “showing off”

So yeah I talked with her. If I had the average Joe’s body, nobody would have made a comment about my costume and my physique.

When i was fat, people called me a fatso, now a show off ahahah.

People want to prevent me from enjoying my body and feeling good, and I am, you know, quite insecure!

But I don’t care honestly, I feel good in my skin right now, I feel healthy, I look good, and I’ll show and enjoy my body however I want, especially when it’s 35°C in the sun!

Feeling a little bit guilty about this beer though but that’s okay since I’m supposed to run soon, I will burn it off

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1974

Oh here we go

You chiseled bitch. Just stop. You’re making us all feel worthless with that Adonis soaked frame :joy:

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1975

Full stop here. Humans don’t want other humans to experience joy, because it is a reminder that they are joyless.

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1976

You sir are a philosopher.

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1977

Looking ferocious! Good work!

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1978

Pwn with the usual wisdom. It’s like you said yesterday about how’s life too short for being modest. Life’s too short for too many things!

Yeah I think this posing was a realization moment about what I’ve done and I should stop stressing and enjoy life a bit more and all.

1979

Very measured and mature mate.

Financially I halved my salary when I joined the academy.
But I knew it was my dream and that while shitloads of steps backwards initially that eventually I would not only be in front, but doing what I was created for.

We get so pigeon holed into financial security, which is obviously both important and scary, but don’t let it limit you from pursuing your goals.

If you’re meant to do something, if it’s part of the fibre of your being, you will make it happen.

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1980

Looking insane mate

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1981

Looking and sounding like a demigod. Achilles, presumably. Great job, good attitude shift too.

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1982

It’s worth noting that the reason people want to prevent you from enjoying your body and assume you’re showing off is that they themselves are insecure.

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