Very busy weekend, and I’m very tired so I dodn’t log. Had not slept much on friday, but after work I gulped two big cups of coffee and went down to it
16/05 - Upper body
A1. Chin-ups 3 x 15
A2. Push-ups 3 x 25
B1. Rear delt flyes 3 x 15 with 5 kgs plates
B2. Lateral raises 3 x 12 with 10 kgs plates
C1. Reverse grip curls 1 x 8, 2 x 6 with 25, 30 kgs
C2. French press 1 x 20, 2 x 15 with 25, 30 kgs
D1. Hammer curls 2 x 8 per arm with 16 kgs
D2. Bodyweight triceps extensions 2 x max
Good thing it was an easy workout. But I’m actually really surprised by how “easy” the chins were despite the tiredness. Losing weight sure helps. Drank a bit on saturday, but kept a tight diet. I resisted, while my friends were eating homemade burgers right under my nose. Gonna be a bit more serious now (less alcohol) but seeing friends was a nice mental relief. If I’m serious I shouldn’t be too shabby this summer
I relaly feel I have lost legs though. The lack of heavy lifting + the fact that I’m holding lots of fat there. And they are going to slim down even more as I diet down. Ugh I’m all glutes and hammies, I have no quads. My hammies are still sore from the last sessions but my quads, nada… I really need a leg press/hacksquat
Thank you, but you can see I still have fat on my lower abs, love handles and hips. Maybe it’s the ex-fatass in me but I want to be really lean now. I have tried at least 3 times bulking, it was always great for strength, not so much for muscle, and I’m tired of having to lose 8kgs+ each time
Oh boy. I was really tired, had sprinted in a while, and these destroyed me. Pro tip: bring a bottle of water next time…
That day I was really pissed at work, I can’t stand it anymore. Then spend the most horrible night yet where I dreamt of my ex and woke up all night long. Woke up tired as fuck again. And the job is so boring, my mind is in a constant stream of consciousness, and considering my actual mood + the fact that I don’t like the job I broke down, and went crying in the toilets like a little girl. First time it happens. I’m really weary. I slept this afternoon, first time in a month that I can actually nap. But I am still tired as fuck. So no workout tonight, I think I’ll just do cardio and eat a pizza.
Felt way better today. Probably the crying helped as well. I’m sure I’m still gonna have good and bad days. I tried to be as positive as I could today and it helped as well. Really satisfied with the session despite having a very long day, so much time without eating, and training really hungry and tired
20/05 - Upper body
A1. Military press 3 x 6 with 65 kgs
A2. Chin-ups 3 x 6 with 15 kgs
B1. Floor press 3 x 12 with 70 kgs
B2. Bent-over rows 3 x 12 with 70 kgs
C1. Barbell facepulls 1 x 15, 2 x 12 with 30, 35 kgs
C2. Lateral raises 3 x 12 with 10 bumper plates
D1. Barbell curls 2 x 8 with 40 kgs
D2. Skullcrushers 2 x 8 with 40 kgs
Yeah I’m happy with the pressing and the chin-ups. Losing weight sure helped there. The overhead presses were way more stable and less primal, brute force. This is begining to be a nice weight, getting me closer to my goal of an 80 kgs press.Really happy with the curls as well because I’m really not a fan of the straight bar. On the skullcrushers I lowered the bar just behind my head to stretch the tris as much as I could. Really was harder
Some pics from today. Funny how being stricter you can almost see a daily difference. Feeling leaner while weighing the same (around 82.8 this morning) so I guess I must have traded a few hundred grams of fat for water and glycogen. Certainly better than last wednesday when I drank alcohol and took drugs… I know better sure but I guess I needed it.
With a better lighting here and flexing, I look nice. With a great lightning like in the clothe store I look really good. And with the pump… well we all wish we had the pump forever. Confident I’ll look really nice in 40 days. But I think i’m not great at taking pics, I always look better, lightning is better in the mirror than in the pics
Really hard to be motivated and focused today. We all have days, right. But, satisfied with the performance. And I look better everyday.
21/05 - Lower body
A. Overhead squat 3 x 6 with 60 kgs
B. Staggered-stance RDL 2 x 8 per leg with 70 kgs
C. Lunges 3 x 6 per leg with 70 kgs
D. Good mornings 2 x 8 with 70 kgs
Increased the weight or reps. OVH squats is definitely not the best for my legs, but I feel my shoulder stability is way more of a weak point right now. I could have do probably 3-4 more reps no problem on lugnes and RDL but I didn’t feel like it today. That’s okay. I’ll work harder next time, plus tomorrow I have to squeeze 2 sessions because I did not train on tuesday. Feeling really sore and cranky from the sprints and yesterday’s session. Physique is really good, I feel my love handles melting. Once they’re gone I’ll stay at maintenance for 2 weeks, then see if I want to dive lower (probably not)
Really hard to stay focused once again. Took probably longer rest periods than I should have. But nothing much to say here, I was really tired and it was just pump work
Starting to have a good deal of veins popping. Still want to lose a few more kgs and destroy the love handles, and have more abs definition. But God damn I look like I have zero legs and this is really frustrating. This weekend was a bit festive let’s say. Gonna be strict again tomorrow.
Didn’t train yesterday. Feeling really miserable these last two days, and not much sleep. But I had a good session so that’s a bit motivating
26/05 - Upper body
A1. Military press 5, 5, 5 with 68 kgs PR
A2. Weighted pull-ups 3 x 8 with 15 kgs PR
B1. Floor press 2 x 15 with 70 kgs
B2. Barbells rows 2 x 15 with 70 kgs
C1. Lateral raises 3 x 12 with 10 kgs plates
C2. Face-pulls 3 x 12 with 40 kgs
D1. Curls 2 x 8 with 40 kgs
D2 Skullcrushers 2 x 9 with 40 kgs
So I decided to go bananas on the OHP and hit PR. Very surprised, but pleased. Best I ever did was 70 kgs x 3 in a o-lift program and weighing 6kgs more so I think that is my best performance. 2 nd set felt way better, I didn’t warmed-up enough. Decided to go for a 6th reps on the last set. So very pelased. I had more pressing power for sure, I need more shoulder stability and abs. Very pleased with the pull ups as well. Then I was very tired so I cut a bit of volume. But this is motivating.
This is certainly not the day where I feel the saddest, or the most pain, but I feel so much blasé. Like, hopeless. So the tests have been reported to september because of the virus. Soo 3+ more months here at this shitty job being uncertain of the future. This is killing me, I feel like I haven’t moved in my life in over a year, and don’t know where I’m headed. What will I do if I’m not accepted for the studies? I already failed 1 entrance exam for the police, and I don’t want to have my eggs in the same basket once again. But I really don’t know what I could do. I’m just… heartbroken. I’m not excited by anything or enjoying anything. Like I’m not looking forward to anything. I’m trying to hold on. But I don’t really know where I’m going. At least training is going well despite everything, and the fact that I hate training at home. I just have to keep faith, that last year, I go better and happier again, so this time again
A year isn’t that long in the grand scheme of things man. You know where you’re going and you know what action you need to take to get there. Those 2 things are the things that settle my mind, personally, when I start to get frustrated with progress.
Yeah, I know, plus I saved some money so that’s not nothing.
But I’m frustrated. I’m 30. Always worked stuff that I didn’t like. Failed my studies, or did not used my degrees, failed my relationships, failed my exam entrance, job opportunities or whatever. My best friend said that it’s just that I have been unlucky too many times in a row and that I just need a win to relaunch the machine. I know that the stuff I live is nothing compared to many people. But over years, it just weighs. With my shitty job, not a roof of mine, and no one in my life, I don’t feel like a man, like I can provide, or be independant. I just feel I have accomplished nothing, and that I fail everything. And the heartbreak really puts my head down.
Anyway I know you’re right. I need to set clear goals and chase them. If I can have the dedication to train for years I could do this. Thank you.
You have friends, you’ve managed to get a good physique and I’ll bet that if you look closer you’ve accomplished a lot of things.
This is bad, but it might just come down to the job, I can see you really really don’t like it.
Can you find something else? that would be a win,
getting your own place is trickier,
and finding someone to love and live with is hard. Sometimes the harder one try to find a loved one the harder it gets.
Try this one: every morning make your bed (if you don’t do it) many people do not do it. Then you’ve accomplished the first task of the day and the rest gets easier.
Then write down one good thing that you’ll do throughout the day. When you get home make sure to check it out.
It’s about getting back into a positive mindset.
Just watched that overhead squat btw damn that looke cool, the way your deltoids worked hard to stabilise everything. Awesome.
Not to cherry pick your recent posts, but…you don’t have love handles, my man. You are pretty ripped. I can slice of a bit of my love handles and ship them to you if you really want to know what they look like.
Yeah I think I put too much pressure on myself, and am too negative. I talk a lot to friend, and am reading stuff about personal development etc. I try to “force” myself to do things, because usually then it feels good, rather than doing nothing.
I plan to go back to studies this september. I’ll stomach the job for a few more months because quitting in this crisis is not really safe and every money I can save will be helpful.
Ahah I guess you’re right. It’s just really hard going back to being single after so much time always having someone in my life, and that i’m just not over her. In my life I never actually really tried. All the girls but one I dated made the first move, and it usually was unexpected, and when I was never trying at all. A stupid part of me just is afraid “I’ll never get a girl like her again”. Well in a sense this is good, because it didn’t work with her. But I know what I mean by that (sharing my passions, incredibly beautiful and hot, caring, sweet, funny, stable job and ambition…)
Anyway, thank you for the kind words. It really helps. And I hope you’ll get through what you’re living as well.
@Cyrrex I have a little bit of them ahah. My mother said that I have still 2-3 kilos to lose so… I just feel worse than I am because of my loose skin and the way my body handles fat. But I’m not really sweating over it right now. I enjoyed a great barbecue yesterday, and perhaps too much alcohol. Losing these last kilos won’t be really hard.
Just to echo @Cyrrex you’re looking damn good, don’t lose any more. You’re not going on stage or anything. Just keep the weight as it is, and the lose skin will adapt.
Be positive man
@Cyrrex just want to be really ripped this time, a true 10% will suffice. Lose skin is from when I lost at elast 70 lbs of fat 5 years ago. It won’t go away sure but I still have a little bit of fat to lose I think
Mate, I believe this will fall on deaf ears but on the off-chance that it doesn’t: you are absolutely lean and I believe what you are mistaking for love handles is some loose skin. That won’t go away by continuing your deficit. Adding ten kilos worth of muscle on your frame will make presumably make it less noticeable for you in the future.
If you are going to continue on your deficit I humbly suggest that you define some rules that you must follow on when to break the deficit.
Here are some suggestions:
When my waist measures X
When I weigh X
If my arm/thigh/… measurement decreases by X
When I’ve lost 0.5lbs/wk for N weeks
Because if you hold out for when you to be content with what the mirror is telling you that day might not come.
If I could go back in time to when @mortdk told me enough was enough and maybe, if I was still unhappy with my fatness switch to the MATADOR approach I’d been far better off.
I have actually been leaner in the past since the weight loss, and I believe I still have a little bit. I’m really really far from contest shape. That is not my goal.
Of course I want to add some muscle. 10 kgs… yeah who wouldn’t? But it is reallyyyyy long. i have been at this for quite some time now. meanwhile, losing 2 kgs is very easy. Last year I unlocked gains by switching to a bodybuilder approach instead of a generalist/athletic, despite not bulking at all. By all mean I plan to, and when I can I’ll do Colossus by meadows and then some other pure muscle programs.
