Feel better my man!
Freshens Met-Rx Protein Plus Shake…
They sell these on campus and on the nutritional RDA’s they only give the nutrient value of the protein powder itself. It appears to be a high protein, low carb tasty treat. Go to the freshens website and you’ll soon realize that this nice little treat has 75 grams of sugar and about 600 Calories. It’s a pretty good cover up. I didn’t really think it was going to be that bad, but should have known better when I saw them dump the better half of a container of ice cream and some chocolate syrup in there, let alone the taste.
I know the dietary/restaurant industry plays some dirty tricks, but 75 grams of sugar? that’s not even the large, which was what I had by the way. I know restaurants play dirty tricks, but sometimes I forget that I go to school in the U.S because it’s right across the river. This means that dietary guidelines have gone to shit 10 fold and that all ethics are officially out the window. It actually kind of made me mad. It’s advertised as low carb and “healthy” it’s pretty lucrative and a easy confusion for people who are relatively uneducated.
They have all there nutritional facts on a computer there and when you look it up it says 25 grams of protein and 3 grams of carbs. They then take the liberty of adding a tub of ice cream, chocolate syrup, what may or may not have anything to do with a banana and some hydrogenated icing sugar of peanut butter. First bite I knew it wasn’t for real. It essentially just tasted like really good ice cream. Bastards…
Anyways, I took the last 2 days off because I had to go to the hospital. I just rested completely, took a bunch of meds and slept a shit load. Training for hypertrophy, with all the muscle tissue breakdown going on I’d probably be wise to scale training back a bit. Maybe focus on some aerobic activity and light pre-hab in between training sessions. Todays training looked something like this
Rowing Warm Up
A1. Chest Press - 60x9x4 - 35x29x1 Weight, reps, sets…last set = absolute failure
A2. Wide Pull Up Machine - 100x9x4 - 120x44x1
B1. Cable Pulley Press - 30x16x3 - 15x49x1
B2. Cable Face Pulls - 20x16x3 - 15x49x1
C1. Preacher DB Curl - 15x11x4 - 10x65x1
C2. V Pushdowns - 75x11x4 - 50x71x1
Just increased all reps
To be fair, I’m not saying that your environment has no effect on you whatsoever. I’m merely stating that everything in life boils down to choice, and the power to choose lies within the individual. Certain situations may increase the difficulty of the choice, but the freedom to choose your actions â?? and your attitude â?? remains.
Good quote from a recent article that I really enjoyed.
Headed back to Washington next week for about a week for a bunch of tests. Something just feels off. Everything looks good on paper. but I feel like shit. Nothing worse than being young and having a bunch of know it all fucking moron doctors telling you not to worry everything’s fine. Obviously the fact that you feel like complete shit doesn’t mean anything to them, they’re doing just fine. I told them how people always say “you must feel like a million bucks to have survived all of that” little do they know I sometimes feel worse now and have a worse quality of life than when I was in the hospital with cancer.
I’ve been on fish oil hard lately and am going to see if my doctors will start giving me fish oil. At high doses it gets pretty pricey, but I think it’s important. Eicosanoids are used in the body for a number of homeostatic and regulatory mechanisms. In my case I’m particularly interested in the anti-inflammatory benefits. Omega 6 and Omega 3, in particular EPA and DHA are precursors to eicosanoids. Not many fatty acids get converted into them, probably because we don’t take in many O-3 and O-6 fatty acids. With Fish Oil supplementation I’m hoping to change this.
If I get it for free through my doc’s I’ll be on fish oil hard, at very high doses and hopefully find a dose that’s optimal, but not excessive. Not to mention these serve about 1000 other benefits from reduced free-radical formation to cell health. i think for health and longevity reasons they’re well worth the money. I also know that medicinal dweebs are big on glutamine, so I’ll see if they can hook me up with some of that too. Just for good measure when I meet with the endocrinologists I’lll see if he’ll start saucing me up as well.
This weekend I hope to ahead on a bunch of reading and homework considering I won’t be able to get much done next week, running around in Washington. It amazes me how bad people with the simplest jobs at any given place are always the one’s to screw things up.
I said it once and I’ll say it again 'If you don’t do your job and do it properly to the fullest of your ability, I will fucking find you" I’m tired of a fucking sea of mediocracy we call our planet. “If 1% of he 99.9% of people that are complete sacks of shit on a daily basis could just refrain from being complete sacks of shit for 1 day, the world would probably forever changed after that single day.” - what I tell people we’ll shaking my head.
Anyways, I’ve got to go shower and get some shit done. I encourage everyone to do 2 things today.
- Learn something or at the very least improve yourself in any way
- Help somebody with something or anything
“What you get by achieving your goals is to as important as what you become by achieving your goals.”
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If you read my post on that Met-Rx shake you’ll realize that people have the potential to misinterpret that lucrative advertisement worse than that time I misinterpreted you telling me “Waterbury OCCASIONALLY recommends pizza for breakfast”…3 months later I weigh 207…
[quote]theBird wrote:
Congrats on the exam results, but next time Im expecting 95%+.
Im not going to pretend I fully understand, or know the solution to your dilemma. Although I do think its going to take some time for you to find what works for you, and what doesnt. Just by talking to people, I have learnt that gymnastic moves can be hard on the body and the level of strength required takes years and years of practice. I would say start training for hypertrophy as you are, and then very slowly add in other components if your body allows. You may need to rest more than average aswell, maybe every second day have a rest day? Have you done much research on an ant-inflammatory diet?
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Yeah, I think I;m going to scale back on training, especially considering the muscle tissue breakdown that’ll be going on now. You start Bird Cage 2 yet? I’m not sure where to post, I PM’d you. As far as Anti Inflammatory diet…good idea. The allergens in food are definitely bugging me big time.
It’s hard because the texture and solidity of meat and protein are bothering me, but the allergens of softer carbs are bothering me as well. I’m going to ask about some different cleanses possible when I see my docs. Literally everything’s bothering my mouth. Different temperatures, acidities, textures, solidities…I’m not sure what to do.
Not feeling all that great. No training this week. Gone to National Cancer Institute. Post back later.
Hang in there, boss.
[quote]Zooguido wrote:
Hang in there, boss.[/quote]
Thanks Zooguido…sick wheels btw
Just letting everyone know that although I won’t be training this week and probably won’t have a lot of time on my hands in Washington that I’ll still be taking this week to be productive and benefit myself. This will probably mean just as much studying and school, but with my spare time a lot more relaxing, lounging, desirable reading, lounging and possibly some very, very crappy food. I’ll post back if anything inspirational, note worthy or something that I feel I should write about happens. Although I hate relaxing, feeling like shit and taking time off I know this is only for the good. I’ll take this time off now to come back stronger than ever next week. Count on it.
Hang in there man, enjoy the time off! Keep us posted.
For those of you who have been following, you may be well infromed of my knee issues and how they’ve been bothering me for quite sometime now. As a result of your body acting like a compensatory chain, only being as strong as it’s wealkest link I begab to have negging low back disorders. This eventually led to me coming home from school last friday and not leaving my bedroom until school time monday. I was literally and still am paralyzed. I cannot get up, sit up, support or move by myself in any way, shape or form. I had someone purchase ne crutches so that I could get from my bed to my car, to the airport to the National Cancer Instistute. They could not believe the shape I was in and ordered an MRI right away. I’m here thinking 'oh shit, I need back surgery or knee surgury and can"t train or go to school, amymore" meanwhile that would have been the least of my worries. Turns out all this pain in my back"s being caused by exponentially diving/multiplying blasts cells.
Cancer’s back…
It’s moving quick and treatments alreadu underway. Chemo day 5 tmr. Post back sometime soon. Cheers.
To look ahead and know you might not have control is unquestionably one of the most frustrating, challenging, yet motivatng things one could experience.
Juat bare with me here, shit’ll be back asap.
Hey EF5127,
My thoughts and prayers are with you.
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I’ll be thinking of you man, stay safe. Looking forward to you coming back stronger than ever!
[quote]phlegms wrote:
I’ll be thinking of you man, stay safe. Looking forward to you coming back stronger than ever! [/quote]
This.
Shit man, I go away for a while and don’t check on you, and everything hits the fan. Glad you managed to catch it though, and my best wishes go out for a speedy and strong recovery, so you can be back in the gym stronger than ever.
Good luck bro.
Buddy?
Havn’t had time to post since October 11th. Today’s October 21st. I got home from school on Monday, October 10th in an incredible amount of total body pain and exhanustion. I had to have my parents go by me a pair of crutches in order for me to hobble to my car where I went to the local emergenvy room in Windsor where I required high dose pain medication in order to be able to take my trip to Washington the next morning. literaly could not move, twist, roll, stand up, sit up, walk or do anything that wasn’t lying 100% perfectly still in my bed without any movemet at all. Right after I received multiple pain injections, I was placed in a wheelchair where I had to hold myself in a dip position slightly elevated because my body could not support its own weight sitting up. I got to my car and headed to the airport to fly to D.C. Upon arrival in D.C I was sent for a CT scan and bloodwork. The doctors had no idea this was the type of shape I was in. They said they had some bad news…The CT scan revealed what I thought was going to be the end of the world, like a herniated disk and no lifting. This was not the case. My CT “light up” as they would say meaning that blasts cells where back and their rapid divisiom was causing crowding within the bones and that’s what was causing the pain. Bloodwork showed low counts as well. They decided for a bone marrow biopsy the next day and that was even worse showing blasts over 20%, officially declaring the return of acute leukemia. I just finished my first round of chemo. My hairs falling out, my skins peeling, I’m sick and all my counts are falling rapidly. I’m going to require as many rounds of chemotherpy as possible until they can hopefully get me into remission. Once that’s acheived I will have to go through the entire stem cell transplant process again…and yes myeloablative. I have to say I’m extremely frustarted and dssapointed. It’s not the fight or the struggle of it. It just sucks. I know I’ll fight my brains out to make it through and know that I easily have the strength to, it’s just the fact that sometimes these things just don’t work for whatever reason. Whether your body doesn’t respond or whather the medication just doeesn’t do it’s job. To think about how long this has been going on, how many ways it’s affected me and so many people around me. All it is, is a nondisjunction in meta/ possibly anaphase in Meiosis 1 or 2. A.K.A an error in cell division. It’s unfair, stupid and pointless, but yet I have no choice but to just deal with it. October 10th I went to school, October 11th I had to withdrawl, drop everything going on in my life and start headed down the long road of stem cell transplantation after just finishing what seemed like the exact same road we just finished that felt like it was never going to end. I swear I just woke up from this horribble nightmare and now I have to re-live it? I had some furthur MRI imaging done on my back and have some major vetebral compression within my thoracic and lumbar verebrae, (T-12 and L-2 to be exact) also from the corticosteroids of the last transplant, but on the bright side they found out that the leukemia had not spread throughout my spine or into my barin. If this is what corticosteroids did to me after 1 transplant, I have no idea what they’ll do after this second one. Weird going from your prime comeback to an all time low with 3 days or so. Anyways my chemo rounds done, my counts are dropping exponentially, they’re going to come back up, we’ll repeat a bome marrow bioosy and then we’ll see where my blasts cslls are at and decide where to go from there. If you’re healthy and have a body capable of moving, jumping, runing, lifting, movement, playing sports, physicl activity. Please take it from me, GO OUT AND USE THE FUCKING THING! GO SNATCH, SPRINT, CLEAN, JUMP! Stuck in this hopital bed 1000 miles away from home not even being able to leave the bed to go to the washroom, using a bed pan, requiring someone to wipe my own ass, sceaming in pain at the top of my lungs as they do it, I realize everything I took or do take for granted. Don’t be like that. Just know that everyome who’s healthy has the chance to excel extraordinarily when it comes to physical capabilities. It kills me to see morbidly obese, senior age women functionally move better than me. I almost can’t grasp it. Anyways…Day by Day, sick and weak as fuck…try and post back as soon as I can…no telling when. Cheers.
“It doesn’t scare me to die, it just makes me fucking mad”
Still thinking of you buddy, rest up!
Sorry to hear about the bad news, man. You can do it again, though. Just keep your head up and stay positive like you did last time.
Thanks for bringing me back down to earth. I’m gonna go train and fuck shit up now.
[quote]phlegms wrote:
Still thinking of you buddy, rest up! [/quote]
Thanls man, I appriciate it. Means a lot more than you think.