PT is a good idea IMO, especially if it diverts future damage.
My insurance doesn’t fully cover PT. I supposedly owe thousands of dollars in medical bills at the moment. But yeah, I’m still considering it. I actually had a lateral pelvic tilt when I was in college, but it went away for a while for some reason. 
11/22
Pure Bodybuilding W4D1
Walked 1.5 miles at 10% incline in 25:50
Pull-ups 8,7,6
Low incline DB bench 60x9,7,8
SA DB row 55x3x8
Super ROM lateral raise 12x14,13,12
DB suitcase carry 55x2.5 sets, 50x1 set
Walked 0.7 miles at 11.6% incline in 12:53
I had to improvise today’s lifting session again because Cable Guy inevitably spent an eternity on the cable machine. But it’s okay because I think I’ll keep up the suitcase carries given my recent lateral pelvic tilt issues. At least my back feels noticeably better today. Interestingly, I haven’t been super interested in food yesterday or today. Could be a different hormonal thing, maybe it’s the levo.
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11/23
Trudged 4 miles at 10.5% incline in 66:33
Postponing lifting until tomorow. Even though it’s been only a weekend of taking the levo, I swear I already look leaner…
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11/24
Pure Bodybuilding W4D2
Walked 1 mile at 7.6% incline in 15:34
Seated leg curl 80x3x9
Cable adductor 10x15,16,16
Front squat 110x4, 95x6, 85x8
Leg extension 60x9,9,10
DB BSS 30x13,12,12
Then, after I finished what is pretty close to the final version of my dissertation:
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Huge congratulations on the dissertation! Is your defense scheduled?
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Thanks! And yes, it’s in about two weeks 
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You’ll do great! And then you celebrate the holiday and the new year with it all done. 
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They kinda have to pass me because I have already exceeded the average time for degree completion (only slightly) 
I think it will be all right though. No one on my committee is out to get me, and my department doesn’t really fail people anyway. Still, I want to actually give a decent defense and not get the degree just because I showed up.
I do not exaggerate when I say that I do absolutely nothing for the holidays, but I am certainly looking forward to rotting for the second half of December. The PhD will be one of the consolations after this year that tried to kill me 
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11/25
Pure Bodybuilding W4D3
Walked 0.6 miles at 9.7% incline in 10:06
Pull-ups 8,7,7
DB OHP 50x8,7,6, 40x7, 30x6
Cable row 80x11,10,10
Cable y-raise 17,18,16
Rear delt cable 3x mechanical dropsets
Walked/ran 1.2 miles at 8.7% incline in 16:09
I slept in late and had to race through this. Also swapped the assistance since the cable machine was Very Available today.
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11/26
Ran 11.75 km in 1:07:35
This run felt Amazing despite heading out at 3:30 PM after another long and grueling day of remote work, operating on only a 100-calorie energy gel. I swapped my mattress topper last night with a new one, and I woke up with huge relief. A lot of the back tightness is gone.
Besides that, I think the levo is really doing something positive to me. Like, I have energy. Sure, I’ve been on the up more or less since my surgery and the bladder fiasco, and I’m still trying to address my B12 levels, but this has flipped a switch. Not sure the last time I’ve felt like this. I don’t even think it’s the right dose for me because I still feel like my “old self” in many ways, and it hasn’t even been a week yet, but damn—this cannot be a placebo. Already I’m sleeping better, my HRV has increased, I’m not thinking about food all the time (as much as I claim to not be a foodie), I’m starting my day faster, I’ve lost a noticeable amount of water weight from my legs and abdomen (I should have taken measurements), and I’m honestly just in a better mood. All in a matter of days.
I don’t think it was just the endometriosis. I think I’ve been dragging myself every day more than I thought for who knows how long. From what I understand, this could very well be why I developed endo in the first place and why I need to supplement a fuck ton of iron and vitamin D just to feel alive.
It seems like I have some New and Exciting Revelation here every month, and it’s admittedly goofy. But despite how well I have seemingly cared for myself physically since I left my childhood home for college—eating right for my body after years of being glutened every day, staying active, and eventually starting to lift—I’m now seeing how much I’ve actually neglected myself in the past decade or so. I don’t like it. I’m still young (turning 29 soon) and have managed to do a lot of cool things in my twenties, yet I can’t help but be disappointed in myself. How on earth I’ve dragged myself to this point is beyond me.
Who knows what will be next, and maybe I shouldn’t draw conclusions too soon, but I’m excited to get my levels checked again next month and see if there’s a possibility I could feel even better than this.
I don’t remember the last time I had run that far, so I’ll probably be feeling it tomorrow.
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Dude. This is so loud to me. It’s amazing the abuse a young body can take without it being a problem, and equally amazing how quickly something can go from not a problem to huge fucking problem. The 20’s are a good time to beat the shit outta yourself to do cool things, but right around that 30th birthday you need to make big changes (about to turn 33 and am two years removed from trading in alcoholism and powerlifting for general health and athletic ability). Keep at it and keep learning. Having something like this where you can go back over what you’ve done and learned will be huge.
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I’m so glad you’re logging again and, more importantly, (still) sober! Cool that what I wrote resonated with you.
It’s interesting though because I don’t associate all these Things That Have Happened to Me with the physical process of aging. It was more of a you-let-this-much-time-pass-and-this-is-your-mentality kind of thing. I guess that could still be relatable though.
One of the wonky things is that I genuinely look and more or less feel like a 21-year-old still. In public I am often taken for a high-schooler. I think that’s actually the problem. I joke to others that I am 12 years old, but I actually identify with that to a large degree. Between that and always being on shaky or even nonexistent ground with caregivers in my life, it’s no wonder I never felt compelled to try to address anything physically that I only now let myself acknowledge as not quite right, let alone bother advocating for myself until I was writhing in pain and useless for too many days earlier this year.
It all sounds really melodramatic, I know.
Thanks for the words. I have to be better toward myself.
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11/27
Pure Bodybuilding W4D4
Walked 1.3 miles at 10.4% incline in 21:47
Pull-ups 10,9
Seated leg curl 80x3x9
Leg press 110x11,11,13
Paused deficit RDL 110x2x7
Paused goblet squat 40x10,9,9
Cable abductor 14x15,14,12
11/28
11/29
Pure Bodybuilding W5D1
Walked 1.7 miles at 10% incline in 27:49
Pull-ups 10,9,7
Low incline DB press 60x10,7,7
SA DB row 55x3x8
Extreme ROM DB lateral raise 12x15,14,10
Zottman curl 30x20,9,11
DB suitcase carry 55x3 sets
Rode 5.6 miles on the elliptical in 34:00
11/30
Walked/ran 5.5 miles at 9.2% incline in 85:36
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I never know whether I’m under-reacting or overreacting - I just have no sense of myself as needing things, and I have a weirdly absent memory for pain. Like, has this been going on for 2 weeks? 2 months? 2 years? It’s hard to remember a time when I wasn’t my own caregiver. And I’ve been robust, generally.
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This is how most “normies” feel - difficult for them to understand how it feels to feel unsafe in this world. It is not a shortcoming or a fault, it’s just how you’re wired.
I am sure you know this, just wanted to support other ND peeps.
HSP’s are wired different - take two kids, same home, same parent, one is fine, the other is a wreck. Different stories for the same experience.
You probably know that too.
12/1
Pure Bodybuilding W4D4
Walked 2 miles at 10.5% incline in 32:42
Seated leg curl 80x3x9
Cable adductor 10x17,17,14
Front squat 110x3, 90x6, 85x6
Leg extension 60x9,10,9
Walked 1 mile at 11.3% incline in 16:19
This was the last session for a bit. I’m not supposed to deload on this program yet, but I’m departing on a pretty meaningful trip in about an hour and will be pretty occupied with that as well as trying to assemble my thesis presentation over the next several days. Then my defense is next Wednesday. I’ll be staying at a hotel with a gym though and will use it to stay active at least.
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I hope all goes well!!!
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So excited for you!
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