Don’t forget, though, Dani and everyone then discussed how it’s impossible to hit all your “bests” at the same time. So we’ve just got to accept giving in one area to push another.
Day 9
Squat: 3x3-75kg w/3 sec pause at bottom
Press: 1x3,4,5-35kg
Rows: 3x4-55kg, Emom
Carries: 4x20m/arm overhead carry-14kg kb, 30 sec rests
Conditioning: 5x(5burpees+10lying leg raises+ 20kbs-14kg, 3x(20sec rower+10src rest)
- still not feeling the best but got it done, I like this format bc it gives me practice w/ the lifts and doesn’t make me too hungry
Day 10
Front squat: 20x3-60kg belt less every 2 min
Press: 3x3-35kg, 2x5-30kg
Btn press: 3x3-30kg, 2x5-25kg
Cardio: Fitness blender 26min cardio kickboxing
- I felt really strong so just kind of forgot to give up…… was going to skip cardio but figured I shouldn’t be lazy given what others are doing
don’t use this as a reason to do anything, ever. Leads to a lot of negative thought and emotion. I’ve got lots of experience with this one.
So… results from checkup are back
The good: Resting heart rate is 51, immune markers and red blood cell related values are normal, Blood pressure is 103/63, Creatanine is 84- high, but not astronomical so kidneys are not continuing to deteriorate
The bad: HbA1C is 5.5 and fasting blood glucose is 86mg/dl which are both higher than I’d like, LDL is a bit high, waist is 27in which means I’ve gained ~1.5 inches since April,
If kidney health is a concern for you, I would also recommend:
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Getting a Cytstain-C test done. You’ll get an eGFR value that’s not as subject to variation from things like hydration and overall muscle mass.
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Urinalysis to see if there’s any protein in urine as that’s a potential indicator of kidney issues.
Even if you have to pay out of pocket, neither of the above tests are all that expensive, but give a better picture of what’s going on.
negative
My last scan was also good
Day 11
Good morning: 3x3-50kg w/3sec eccentric and 3 sec pause at bottom
Rows: 2x5-50kg
RDL: 3x3-60kg w/ 5 sec eccentric and 5 sec concentric
Kbs: 1x100-14kg
- felt shite but got the work in
30 min weighted walk-12.5kg
- felt shitty and upper back majorly pissed so took it easy
Day 12
Squat: 1x6, 1x3 w/3sec pause at bottom, all w/ 80kg
Btn Press: 2x3, 1x4-30kg
Deadlift: 1x7-100kg, 1x1-110kg, 1x1-120kg
Carries: 5x40m, various holds and styles, w/ 14kg kbs, 30sec rest btw rounds
Conditioning: 5x(1min “easy”+1min intense)-incline walk, (to not be lazy) 6x(50sec battle rope, moderate intensity + 10 sec rest)
- another meh workout, squats smooth but that 120kg was way more than disappointing- felt like a max









, rest of it was okay I guess… feel lazy and don’t feel up to doing much about it, only two more days until I’m back in US, I’ll get it together, I promise!!!
A bit of a rant:
I’ve been struggling a lot recently with dissonance. A lot of very credible people say it is okay to not go full throttle on training and that there’s a “sweet spot” in which doing more brings very marginal benefits at best but almost everyone here seems to get results from doing…… a lot. I’m in a place rn where I don’t feel up to doing ANYTHING very hard whether training or academics, which has led to me wasting what could have been the perfect opportunity to really push it with either learning or training. The gym is less than 20 min away, has amazing equipment and I still only go once a day when I could have taken the time to get extra conditioning in, especially while in a surplus
I’m going to have a month before school starts again, but it just feels shitty that I could have done so much more with what I had ![]()
Just remembered. This is the last summer, in at least 5 years, where I had the opportunity to spend significant time on useless but interesting things, like learning Russian or work on cooking techniques. I wasted too much time watching random YouTube videos/TVShows
Do you recall how Dan said he can’t seem to make the squat work with this program?
In retrospect, it’s not the best programme since I can’t seem to push myself to take advantage of its flexibility. Instead of working on conditioning, I’m just doing less work. The only benefits so far are practice with squats and not feeling super hungry after workouts, but I’m still failing to stick to a deficit
For good reason.
But you know that ![]()
Hoping you find success with your approach! Always love your tenacity
I know you feel bad about this now but this will always be the case as your interests grow and your time and energy and focus doesn’t. And especially as those shrink. Best to make peace with it sooner than later.
Also, realizing that “wasting time on Youtube” doesn’t provide longer term satisfaction is a good sign too.
No need to be hard on yourself. Just observe and adjust.
Day 13
Front squat: 1x9-55kg
Btn press: 2x4,1x3-30kg
Tbar row: 3x3-55lbs on the bar
Conditioning: 100 devils press-10kg dbs, 20jumping jacks EMOM, 22min
- quick and brutal, definitely deconditioned but felt good
Haven’t posted pics in a while,
These are all flexed. I think I put on some mass but definitely a lot softer
You definitely have more muscle.
“Soft” is not what comes to mind with these pics. We are always our own worst judges.
Exactly this!
Indeed.
Only one who is soft is the old weirdo who called her fat.

