Especially some carbs
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Week 2: Day 3
Tier 1 Deadlift: 1x3-60, 70, 80, 90, 105; 1x4, 3x2-110kg
Tier 2 Conventional Deadlift: 4x5-95kg superset w/4 pullups, 1x2- 95kg I just gave up here
Tier 3 Pullups: 2x5
Split squats: 3x10/side-50lb Db superset with 30sec hollow hold (done in the afternoon
Conditioning: 4x(10 burpees+alternating lunges in rest of minute
- hardest workout I’ve ever done, was dizzy for a lot of it and was hyperventilating even though my heart rate wasn’t that high, was suposed to do 5x5 but that just wasn’t going to happen, eventually felt better and got the split squats in
- with that said, @Cyrrex you were right about bracing. The deadlifts moved a lot better off the ground
I think I’m going to try and have a slice of bread before workouts. It’s keto bread though
Updates:
- my “no contact” policy with my friend has been going well. I find that I’m less distracted
- I found most of my middle school classmates. I’m doing better than all of the ones who disliked me
- my advisor has agreed to let me proceed and build the survey
- I’ve been trying to write a model for useless traditions or taboos. I found one today… written by the guy who I want to be my PhD advisor. This guy is seriously awesome and one of his former students is my advisor for another project. He’s apparently also a very good person and easy to work for/with. He’s also at UCSD, which has phenomenal weather. At this point, I don’t care if he worked in the Arctic, I want to work for/with him
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Some sunbutter on that slice of bread would go far. Maybe some avocado too.
UCSD is beautiful. It’s also HUGE. But it has a Rubios, which is the most important part.
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It’s definitely worth trying. The ‘text book’ issue if you’re not locking out is going too wide.
Warning: Rant ahead:
I’ve hit a new low in self esteem… I’m just not good enough…
- Academics- game theory still isn’t clicking. I’m probably going to get a B in this course. Practically speaking, this doesn’t really matter, but it stings that I might get a B in a not too difficult course when my friend is probably going to graduate with a 4.0 GPA doing 3 majors, all of which are more difficult than mine. He even got a 100 on the emerging markets exam. I got an 88 and I studied hard for it… I seem to have a low threshold for work. I’m barely doing any work but I still feel stressed
- Research- My friend is going to submit his paper for publication next month. My projects are stalled. More importantly, as interesting as they are, they’re dumb. A middle school student could do what I’m doing (surveys, plugging stuff into R…). The market design, modeling stuff he’s doing is just on a much higher level, one that I’m not on. The more I think about it, the more I regret giving up maths.
Also, I was at office hours with his advisor (the game theory prof) and the prof spoke so highly of him. I really doubt any of my advisors or profs would say the same of me. I should just be glad that I’m not competing with him for grad school admissions - gym- I hit a 2 plate squat, but I’m still weak AF… I need to squat near 3 plates and deadlift at least 400lbs to be really strong, My deadlift is still weak. I used to be able to deadlift more, at a lighter bodyweight. Even if I were elite, it doesn’t really matter in the grand scheme of things.
I’m mediocre at best at everything and I hate this. My comparative is time: I have less work than my peers so I can brute force stuff and APPEAR competent. My greatest talent seems to be looking impressive on paper. It seems like I do a lot, but in reality it’s that each one of the things I do is a lot easier than it sounds.
I want to accomplish something.
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Your perspective is terrible Anna
If it means anything, I’ve never even seen a female squat 2 plates in the gym. Let alone one who’s 100 lbs. Your strength isn’t mediocre, it’s at least in the 99th percentile.
Why do you consider yourself mediocre? If you don’t like your mediocrity what can you do right now to change it? What would it take for you to feel like you accomplished something?
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I don’t know anything about the schooling but this is just untrue, Anna. You are DEFINITELY strong.
Look on the bright side.
Ok I won’t go all “You are being too hard on yourself” lovey dovey like most people will but by no means am I going to be a prick or malicious.
This says it all. but
It does not matter what anyone else is doing, comparing yourself to anyone is a sure fire to feel bad. But about this friend? Does he have any hobbies that are non academia related?
Won’t going into a long post about your issues with health etc but the body which could deadlift more was a less compromised body than you have now. A lot of the issues with diet, over training, under recovery and hormones are cumulative as in they get worse over time.
Also when was the last time you took a routine/ program designed by a professional and followed it 100% ?
“You can only serve 1 master” is one of my favourite quotes. If you feel this way, the best way to excel at one thing ( start with 1 and once you are happy try excelling at other things) is to focus on only excelling on that. If you try and being great at everything you will be mediocre at everything
What about this:
Are you still doing that? Because I can imagine that’d be a problem.
I did “GZCL”[0][1] once. The version I did was most akin to the linear variety. The one I did had AMRAPs on T1 and again for T3 which was 3 sets of 15 with the final being AMRAP. If I hit 25+ on the final set I increased the weight.
If you have daily work that you prioritize a better option would be something that doesn’t have you AMRAPing once or twice per session, IMHO. I find that if I’m doing stuff outside the gym and intent on making progress there SVR II hit the sweat-spot with just one AMRAP set per 3 week cycle.
I’m digressing again. GZCL made me hungry.
Still have a few decades to go if you play your cards right.
Define too soon
Would be nice if you can get some protein too.
And/or have some intra-workout nutrition. Some HBCD and EAAs and you are doing way better than fasted.
[0]: There is more than one, which one are you doing?
[1]: Mine was slightly modified as I can’t bench pain-free and thus opted for more overhead work.
You have a LOT of people in your corner for that goal of getting stronger. If you are ever interested in using that resource, it will be very helpful.
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I have a small peer group and a lot of them are doing more than me. Extrapolate that out to everyone with comparable demographic situation to control for confounding (upper middle class, similar intelligence level) and chances are I’m mediocre.
Work hard in classes- doing that, work on research- doing that, study maths- doing that,
Short term: get a paper published by end of undergrad
Longer term: idk, shit changes. I guess tkk on be recognized in whatever field I’m in if academia and make more money than my parents if I’m in industry
Thank you
No. Except watching movies, but he doesn’t really have time to do that
I’m technically following a program right now, but it’s more of a “method” than a program.
Okay, there is a lot to unpack here and I have some perspective I think could help, but before I answer; are you looking for help/advice/perspective or are you just ranting?
BTW, i don’t think anyone here feels you are mediocre academically or athletically.
I’m doing the 5 day program
It only has amrap for tier 1
Yeah…
Depends on the food. For something like regular bread or oatmeal, 60min
The keto bread sat well. I could probably get away with butter
For something like chicken, 2-3 hours
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I think I understand where you are coming from on this one. I breezed through high school with minimal effort and graduated 9th out of a class of over 350 students. Getting my first B almost broke me my first semester in college. So I understand where you are coming from.
That being said, game theory is not a basic mathematics course. If I took 100 random people off the street, there is a good chance that at least 90 of them don’t have enough mathematics background to even begin to understand that kind of material.Your bubble is small and therefore skewed to a much higher median than the general populous (compared to which you are tremendously ahead of).
Re #2:
The comparison game is one everybody who plays loses (game theory does not apply). What he is doing doesn’t matter. What his professors think of him doesn’t matter. High achievers are most critical of themselves.
Why not study this in Grad school instead of econ or behavioral stuff? You have enough background in math courses a lot of master’s programs would let you in (especially if you knock the GRE math section out of the park). Even if you need a couple more courses, take an extra undergrad semester and knock them out. 4 extra months to pursue what you really want to study/work in now is worth it compared to 4 decades of a career.
Personally, I am pretty convinced to switch to mathematics for a Ph.D pursuit too.
Final thoughts:
The stress/pressure you are putting yourself under is tremendous. I have witnessed this kind of self imposed stress break people psychologically. I had to call the police for assistance when my good friend and fraternity brother had a mental breakdown and threatened suicide. He is incredibly intelligent and was studying materials engineering. It was heartbreaking to watch and be a part of (he got help and is doing much better). He quite literally broke his own brain. Another friend of mine decided to run off into the woods barefoot (in a suit) after cracking from pressure and pouring alcohol on the wound (it took 2 hours to find him in the middle of the night).
Stress seriously breaks people. Please give yourself some grace.
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Thank you. I bookmarked your post
My hs was a joke. All of my required classes are also, for the most part, extremely easy. The classes I complain so much about here are still easy in the scheme of CMU (I have friends double majoring in CS and engineering or chem also doing internships or research- They are too far out to even consider as a comparison)
I’m disappointed at myself for not being able to handle more. I joke a lot about how easy my life is to my friends, but tbh, I just feel inferior.
True. I need to find a way to not play the game… and write a model for that
Econ and Behavioural stuff is intrinsically interesting to me. I need more maths to be able to do Econ at the level I want. According to my game theory prof though, the amount of maths I need to be able to do what gneezy does is less than I expected (only probability theory left)
What I’m not satisfied with is what I’m doing now with my projects- run survey, plug data into R or Stata. I want to write models, take derivatives, solve some diff eqs.
My senior thesis will have formal modeling in it. That might mean spending all of winter and summer break studying, but it’s not like I had other plans anyways.