Why so? What value does that add to the conversation?
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Hard disagree! I feel like you’re maybe looking for someone who will just agree with you on your already forged opinions. A good therapist will understand what lifting means to you if you tell it to him/her. There’s zero need for that person to also engage in lifting.
You’re really limiting your options if you chose your therapist by his or hers powerlifting total.
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My therapist is a tank. Not sure what his total is but his traps are about the size of my arms. I doubt he has personal experience with starving himself while trying to eek out additional performance from his body. He’s good though, so he certainly gets that disorderly behavior is disorderly.
Wouldn’t fault him though if he thought I was “dumb”
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Maybe, but not necessarily. I honestly want to verbally open up about my exercise/body image struggles or accomplishments to someone who won’t simply dismiss them. You guys have been invaluable but it’s not the same. For example, yesterday I couldn’t stand it anymore so I ranted to my dad about how frustrated I was that I can’t train in an actual gym. He brushed me off. Same when I told him about my squat pr (pre quarantine).
Now that’s someone I can get behind 
I am breaking my silence for now, in hopes I won’t regret it, to say this.
This is my perspective as a parent: your parents are watching their daughter kill themself (in the literal sense of that word) with exercise and diet. They are terrified. They don’t want to support that at all: they want that daughter to instead gain the necessary bodyweight to get their hormones back on track. Brushing it off is a much better option than what they want to really do about it.
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Week 11: day4
Pistols: 1x15/side-25lbs, 4x(15/side-11lbs+10jump squats-11lbs+16 leg drops)-90sec rests
2x(22alt Cossack squats-25lbs+15 1leg glute bridge/ side)-90sec rest
- crappiest and mist painful workout in a long time- worse than my jet lagged deadlifting because at least that time I was too tired to feel pain, @alex_uk idk how you do it
my legs did not feel too bad- pistols smooth, but I felt like every move was conditioning, cut it short but will try to make it up later - on the flip side, I’m starting to think I’ve been severely selling myself short
I felt like that yesterday and I actually stopped timing from my set at 120 - sometimes you can push through other times you can’t.
I know what you mean about selling yourself short, I’m not sure how easy it would be for me to go back to something significantly less intense now - I know I can handle the intensity and it doesn’t have any impact (at least short term) on performance, so I really should keep pushing.
Massive caveats - particularly for you though, I train 4 days a week and that’s it literally nothing outside that, my step count would likely be about 2-3k per day and I eat 3.5k cals on average. If I tried doing without adequate rest and nutrition it would 100% destroy me.
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yeah, It’s three hours later and I’m cold and trip every couple of steps.
at least I’m not tired and am not tempted to eat a stick of butter anymore, so that’s a plus
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Just a quick note here, in the hopes this adds to pwns point.
When my boy was 6 months old, he nearly died from malnutrition (for a variety of reasons, which I won’t go into). For me, it was one of the darkest moments of my life to watch my boy slowly dying and there being nothing i could do to stop it. I could not put into words how soul crushing an experience that was.
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Oh no! is he fine now?
I imagine this is what my parents feel like, but I cannot come close to understanding what that feels like as I am not, and do not plan on becoming, a parent.
Please at least listen to what people like @dagill2 and @T3hPwnisher are saying. Nobody expects you to respond directly, because that can be tough, and I think on some level that is the core of the challenge you are facing…simply admitting it and owning it. But I think these guys have the right of it.
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Absolutely beautiful and healthy 4 year old, yes, thank you. It was a medical complication from being born 12 weeks premature that took about a year to solve, but thankfully we’ve been very lucky he’s been able to pull through with no long term problems.
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Please get help
It’s not a plus. Your body is literally telling you that it needs fat and you ignored it.
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Well… I ended up polishing off a gook hunk of the marinated beef shank I’d been saving for dinner along with half a watermelon
…if there was ever an awkward typo that autocorrect overlooked…
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LOL
yeah, I meant chunk, but I guess hunk would describe the lump I cut off too, probably a good 6-8oz
LOL. When I found out the origin of “zipperhead”, I laughed.
Anna, you missed it, “gook” is a racist term for Koreans.
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I was gonna say, the awkwardness was about the first word, the second word just complimented it very well.
Edit: also Vietnamese, I think
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My new Netflix sickness is South Korean TV shows. Muy caliente females, surprisingly good acting.
Also, lots of hunky males too, no homo.
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