Thank you for the thoughtful response. I hadn’t thought of emphasizing the friendship angle, and you’re right that if i do - it will help me leave because they’ll want to do right by me more than doing right by the department.
Nepotism pays
The people you work with are far more valuable than the people you work for.
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Wasn’t feeling it at all today. Dont know why.
Legs (Ham & Glute Focus)
Monday, Jul 21, 2025 at 12:37pm
Leg Press (Machine)
Set 1: 585 lbs x 15
Set 2: 495 lbs x 15
Lying Leg Curl (Machine)
Set 1: 115 lbs x 15
Set 2: 120 lbs x 15
Deadlift (Smith Machine)
Set 1: 225 lbs x 15
@hevyapp
Almost threw up, so i guess i know why i wasn’t feeling it. Stopped early.
Check in to follow.
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Push (Chest Focus)
Wednesday, Jul 23, 2025 at 11:15am
Chest Press (Machine)
Set 1: 225 lbs x 15 [Failure]
Set 2: 225 lbs x 8 [Failure]
Cable Fly Crossovers
Set 1: 60 lbs x 15
Set 2: 60 lbs x 12 [Failure]
Viking Press
Set 1: 45 lbs x 21 [Failure]
Set 2: 45 lbs x 18 [Failure]
Face Pull
Set 1: 160 lbs x 15
Set 2: 160 lbs x 12 [Failure]
Triceps Pushdown
Set 1: 65 lbs x 15
Set 2: 57.5 lbs x 15 [Failure]
Leg Raise Parallel Bars
Set 1: 20 reps
Set 2: 18 reps
Lateral Raise (Dumbbell)
Set 1: 0 lbs x 0
Set 2: 0 lbs x 0
Triceps Extension (Cable)
Set 1: 0 lbs x 0
Set 2: 0 lbs x 0 [Failure]
Lying Leg Curl (Machine)
Set 1: 0 lbs x 0
Set 2: 0 lbs x 0
@hevyapp
Still feeling really out of it. Gotta kick whatever this thing is.
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How many days has this been going on? Surely this cannot persist another 12 weeks.
It just seems too soon into the diet for that to be the cause.
Any fever at all? Or anything specific other than feeling bad?
One suggestion is a strength metric that you track every time you do that body part exercise. Make notes of everything. But, IMO, it needs to be in the 8 rep range.
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a little less than a week now. i can tell im on the tail end of it… just some stomach bug that hit the whole house. no fever or anything, just odd digestion with an increased willingness to vomit.
If everyone got it at the same time it might be caused from a tainted food source.
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Non-training update:
If you’ve been following my log(s) you’ll know I’ve been stopping my porn use and struggling with that for some time.
I’d been about 3 months ‘clean’ until a few days ago and a combination of low discipline, boredom, and emotional factors had me decide to use it again. Honestly I felt like shit afterwards, but that’s the cycle.
Posting about it helps me resolve the shame aspect of that cycle.
Training-related part of this update:
I’m starting up cold plunges again to increase discipline. Right now I’m plunging right after my am cardio, starting at 2.5 mins.
Did my first one this morning.
Back on the wagon.
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ADHD is associated with low dopamine. If you haven’t read Carol Lembke’s book Dopamine Nation, you might find it helpful. I have found a dopamine fast to be helpful with impulse control.
L-Tyrosine is a precursor to dopamine. Bromelian allegedly helps as well. I have found L-Theanine with caffeine beneficial.
ADHD with Jenna Free is a good podcast.
I have also done some “shadow work” as described by Carl Jung that helps quiet my inner critic.
I don’t mean to present myself as an expert, or to be condescending - merely interested in sharing my experiences.
I appreciate you sharing.
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I’ll look into these, thank you
Pull (Thickness)
Thursday, Jul 24, 2025 at 10:41am
Dumbbell Row
Set 1: 95 lbs x 15
Set 2: 95 lbs x 15 [Failure]
Leg Raise Parallel Bars
Set 1: 20 reps
Set 2: 20 reps
Shrug (Smith Machine)
Set 1: 225 lbs x 20
Set 2: 225 lbs x 20 [Failure]
Rope Cable Curl
Set 1: 57.5 lbs x 15 [Failure]
Set 2: 50 lbs x 14 [Failure]
T Bar Row
Set 1: 135 lbs x 12 [Failure]
Preacher Curl (Barbell)
“Reverse Grip”
Set 1: 45 lbs x 15
Set 2: 45 lbs x 14 [Failure]
@hevyapp
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That is one genetic concern that you have sufficiently checked the box.
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Monster calves. Nice work
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Yup, know that feeling, if only knowing that you feel like that would stop you in the moment, but alas it doesn’t. The overriding drive feels borderline compulsive to me, it is clearly a dopamine thing in my life, in fact I noticed that nicotine use (lozenges) exacerbated the thoughts/compulsion. I’d been shot of it for I think around 9 months when I hit a rough patch sleep and stress wise (dopamine drops, dopamine seeking behaviour rises), add in the nicotine (which I’d also been off for a fair while as well) increased dopamine but sharp drop off below baseline and even greater seeking! Vicious cycle.
Back on the wagon but still tired and still using nicotine occasionally.
I found being 100% honest with my wife helped, literally down to what I was watching, an element of knowing that I’m going to have to do that helps give me pause.
Identifying the precursors helps me as well, understanding those and then avoiding them.
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so smooooth
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3mins cold plunge
Weekly schedule is off so I’ll post check in tomorrow.
Push (Delt Focus)
Monday, Jul 28, 2025 at 11:07am
Viking Press
Set 1: 45 lbs x 25
Set 2: 45 lbs x 22 [Failure]
Lateral Raise (Dumbbell)
Set 1: 25 lbs x 15
Set 2: 25 lbs x 16 [Failure]
Chest Fly (Machine)
Set 1: 145 lbs x 15
Set 2: 145 lbs x 15
Set 3: 130 lbs x 13 [Failure]
Triceps Pushdown
Set 1: 87.5 lbs x 15
Set 2: 80 lbs x 15 [Failure]
Deadlift (Smith Machine)
Set 1: 135 lbs x 15
Leg Raise Parallel Bars
Set 1: 20 reps
Set 2: 20 reps
Triceps Extension (Cable)
Set 1: 50 lbs x 15
@hevyapp
Feeling flat and tired, but discipline doesn’t care how I feel.
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Still on the reta?
Yes, still dosing at 2mg/wk split dose
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Yup. Im taki g a total of 1.5 split to ttwice a week. Really helps, losing 1 to 11/2 lbs a week. Havent lost a bit of strength
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