If this doesn’t work out, then…
…perhaps there’s an opportunity waiting for you.
I still hope to someday see you post about having octuplets!
My wife works at the poorest high school in town (by demographic). She sees a lot of heartbreaking stuff. I’m not ready for it yet, but I can see us fostering or adopting once our kids grow up.
Oh definitely, like I say it was something we had discussed and expressed our feeling towards doing way before we had it confirmed my balls don’t work! Lol.
No worries about that at all, otherwise my log would just be full of average training and me moaning about it!
Those are completely legit feeling and hopefully you and your wife aren’t beating yourselves up for feeling that way. Fertility issues are a painful and unpredictable thing with many ups and downs and whilst you have been blessed with one child that doesn’t mean you don’t feel loss for not yet being able to have another.
Hopefully this year works out and you go on to adopt or foster as well!
Morning weight 212.5 (after a cup of coffee - was on shout early before I had a chance to weigh in, but 300ml of coffee can’t weigh that much so I’m counting it as a positive).
300ml of water weighs 300g! 
Thanks Sammy, puts me nearer 211.75 then.
Week 6 day 1: The end is nigh!
Conditioning: screw that - I’ll pick it back up after this program.
Chins: 10 X 10 (e10mo10m - catchy!) Did these before hand with a specific intent of not annihilating myself so that I could survive squats. Finished these then about an hour later:
Gs1
KB swings: 24kg X 3 X 10 sets
Squats: 60, 80, 100, 125, 145kg X 5, 160kg 5 X 5 (some sort of disgusting volume pb)
Ab rolls: 5 x 5
Gs2
Press: 40, 50, 55, 62.5kg X 5, 50kg X 12
Dips: 25 X 4 sets (rest paused)
Y raises: 25 X 4 sets (rest paused)
I inadvertently followed @T3hPwnisher advice for selecting weights for BtM. I genuinely had quite a lot of trepidation about those squats, every single set I felt nervous, they sucked, but I survived. I have squatted more weight and for more reps (160 X 8 and 165 X 5) but just knowing that I had 5 sets was daunting. Pretty confident I “grew” into that volume over the course of this program.
Ridiculously glad that last Monday is done, feel like I’ve finished the program mentally now, even though I’ve got two hard sessions to go, knowing I’ve conquered the worst makes me feel better about what’s left to come!
Anyone else get friction burns from squatting?
This happens pretty much everytime (giant sets are to blame for making me sweaty - they’re turning into permanently marked up/scarred areas, not bothered but just curious if this is frequent among others?)
I have psoriasis on my back where the bar rests.
HIGH BAR FOR THE WIN!!!
(Or maybe because I don’t squat enough 
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Both my clavicles (the protruding part over the chest) are permanently enlarged (right a little more), as if there is a layer of tissue around them, from repeatedly dropping the bar on them. I have heard it frequently happens to the neck of weightlifters as well from btn jerks.
Weirded the doc out. It didn’t help when I explained that it’s likely from dropping heavy weights on it over time.
Didn’t know you could give yourself psoriasis thought it was just autoimmune!
@anna_5588 - high bar sucks! I used to be high bar then I failed a couple of times at weights I thought I should have, stability was main issue, widened stance and went low bar, now I only fail cos I’m too weak!
@Koestrizer that sounds weird, I didn’t notice it on the photo you posted recently (not that I was looking that closely), but good work on being strong enough over head to change your clavicles!
Yeah you would have to look really really close but once you do notice, you can’t unsee. I don’t pay a mind to it. Seems to do it’s job irregardless. From what I know so far, bones change through mechanical stress.
Interesting stuff, I knew they could increase density but didn’t realise they could have visible changes! Definitely good work getting strong enough for that!
I got it really bad from doing the Yoke. Looks pain full dude.
Was quite painful for the first few times it’s definitely scarred up now (when it’s not red it looks like scarred tissue from a burn, it’s weird) it doesn’t really hurt anymore, the body is awesome at adapting!
Morning weigh in 213.5 - eating massive amounts of cheese and cream in the evenings, apparently helps weight gain (no claims that any of this is muscle!).
I used to get that from MMS. No idea what it looked like because I tried to keep it hidden from the missus.
Don’t hide the war wounds! I have some epic stretch marks on my inner thighs, they’re grooves and you can feel them if you run your fingers over them, occasionally I’ll try and get the Mrs to move her hand there without noticing just to freak her out, she hates them.
It’s weird that no one ever talks about these things when talking to newbies about starting, yea you’ll get big and strong and look awesome…but actually you’ll permanently disfigure your skin (and maybe even your bones!) You’ll bleed, and sweat profusely for a good few hours of your week, every week, week in week out until years turn into decades, you’ll end up developing a weird relationship with food and think about food like you never had to before and if you’re really dedicated you’ll probably look good naked for all of 6 weeks of the year - but to get to that point you’ll have to spend years growing muscle, then you’ll have to torture yourself psychologically by losing the weight you’ve spent years putting on, you’ll feel skinny and fat at the same time and feel deprived the whole time. If you’re not fully dedicated to looking good naked for those 6 weeks you’ll likely look slightly bigger than average in clothes, if you do look good naked you’ll look decidedly average in clothes (unless you wear tank tops…then people will judge you) You’ll spend thousands of £/$ over decades and never be satisfied with how strong you are or how you look… so you want to start lifting?
You’re quite the salesman, I think you’ve found your calling.
I have to hide anything that my missus might think is hurting me, or she gets pretty funny about it. She doesn’t understand the idea you might do uncomfortable things in order to improve yourself.
