Thanks @Koestrizer, got me blushing! Since it’s not rhetorical, the short answer is something like, running on low sleep, heavy caffeine and a strong desire to do those things, (honestly all of those things are a joy to me, even if they’re hard in the moment).
(And yes the assumptions are correct - full time primary job alongside fire service and yup church does take time; I preach and on the leadership team).
I used to be less engaged/busy but I always felt I had more to give, faith wise and life wise but weirdly enough it’s an episode of House that lit a fire under me, I had had the belief for several years but was busy being comfortable, this line struck me and brought about changes (gradually, but the line has stuck with me and helps me keep focused):
“Dying people lie too. Wish they’d worked less, been nicer, opened orphanages for kittens. If you really want to do something, you do it. You don’t save it for a sound bite.”
We’re all going to die and this life is a gift, I don’t want to have wasted mine on selfish/lazy/comfortable living (definitely still a long way to go here!).
Also massive props to my supportive wife and family, couldn’t do it with them!
Not sure if that’s what you wanted for an answer, but if not, then: caffeine and not watching much TV!

