Can’t get out of this mental funk, should be happy and bouncing around the place, instead feel like someone tied a kettlebell around my neck. Need to just figure out why I’m not ecstatic and then change my perspective.
Prowler pushes (really had to force myself)…
Set 1:
Lower level - 30kg plates
Chest level - 40kg plates
Set 2 - 5:
Lower level - 40kg plates (much easier to push than a couple of weeks ago)
Chest level - 50kg plates
–enough rest to recover
TRX single arm row (3 paused concentrics)
1x6
1x3 (fuck it)
KB press (bell up)
2x8 - 6kg (left wrist is getting better holding on to the bell)
Felt better after the 3rd set of prowlers, then crap again. I’m going for a short back massage.
Ok well I did manage to do some nice easy cycling over the weekend, in between being stressed, tired, not knowing what to do and not having any motivation to do anything. And I know it doesn’t mean that much, but up about 1.5 kilos too. Erratic eating and sleeping. I really had to get myself mentally pumped up to drag myself to the gym today. And my back is bugging me.
One more week of deadlifting in between doing the big move. Then finding a place to live, and then will go visit my mother for a month. Luckily there’s a nice little gym I found where she is. But having trouble finding a good enough gym where we’ll most likely be living. Since we’re moving to a smaller place, I’m not to have any exercise equipment (although might sneak in a kettlebell) BUT the places we are looking at will have a small gym onsite. Doesn’t look like any real weights there but I can work on other stuff until I find a good enough gym. And we might get lucky and have a jacuzzi onsite as well.
Anyhoo all new and exciting things to come and none of this is really realistically stressful, especially compared the shit I had to go through earlier this year with certain family and my father passing away. But I’m finding it harder to cope than it should be, when I should be happy. I don’t know, enough babbling.
Sumo dls…
1x10 - 60kg
1x8 - 65kg
1x4 - 75kg
Work set
3 x 5 - 70 kg (3 paused eccentrics)
(no knurling on the bar where I needed it, but managed to keep the hook grip tight enough, not sure why the eccentrics seem to work grip more than the concentrics)
1 P Clean H + 4 Push presses
3 sets - 32.5kg
(right side is slower than left bah)
Solid work in here. Good for you sticking with it when you aren’t mentally into it. I’ve always found with the exception of major injuries not lifting makes things worse than lifting so stick with it!
[quote]DBasler wrote:
Solid work in here. Good for you sticking with it when you aren’t mentally into it. I’ve always found with the exception of major injuries not lifting makes things worse than lifting so stick with it![/quote]
Ha yes, in other words just fucking lift!!!
But thanks for the encouragement, I need all that I can get. I felt a bit better today, although I did accidentally put instant coffee in my soup at lunch time.
3 rounds Prowler…
Lower level - 40kg plates
Chest level - 50kg plates
–very little rest, like 15 secs ea round as someone wanted the prowler too for some torture.
4 rounds supersets…
KB swings
10 - 20kg
KB press (bell up)
8 ea - 6kg
–again no rest
Ok so things were so so, this took 45 minutes for some reason. And some how tweaked the right side of my ribs, only just moving the bar to the floor. And could not feel my right glute at all during the lock out portion.
Sumo dls…
Warm upz
1x10 - 60kg (meh my grip was slipping already)
1x8 - 65kg
1x4 - 75kg
1x2 - 90kg (nearly glued to the floor)
Work set
3 x 5 - 70 kg (3 paused eccentrics)
(stupid grip last set)
So bright side, I guess, lots of rehabby stuff I can fix when I won’t have access to weights.
Who doesn’t hate pushing the prowler? I’ve been known to lay on the ground for several minutes after finishing my pushes. How far are going each round?
Hmm unsure of distance. Didn’t want to know really because it’s not that far and I can’t change the distance on the awkward long haired astroturf in the gymanyway. But I think it’s about 20 strides one way, or 40 strides in one round. I’m only guessing as I don’t have nhlftr’s ninja counting skills while tough enough doing work.
On a side note.One thing that I know “intellectually”, is that the affect of gravity from weights on the bar do not change rules when lifting day to day. So really it’s not that I’m warring with the weights, but more of a “ok body/mind let’s see what your made of today” which actually sounds scarier. And with not feeling like I’m recovering, I just have to think, “ok body lets just do at least something to make us proud and at least a tiny inch closer to goals”, with the understanding and respect of all my little cells in my tiny universe deserve to have met with resilience of mind but with compassion as well. I think I’m still going to be nervous on most days though just before lifting, but that’s also really another issue.
Speaking of which to really limit my anxiety in life in general, I really need to have routines, which of course with some new but exciting life changes, I have not had in a few weeks. It’ll all work out of course, but even when in the beginning of this year things were not in a good place but lucky my deadlift was comforting and going up, I felt like I could rely on it.
Ooof, no more food from my own kitchen, have been eating out and having other people feed me so I’ve been very carb loaded. And won’t have my own space for awhile. And was coming down with a cold but I’ve been fighting it, just a bit dizzy but could also be the meds as well.
Hope you get over the cold quickly.[/quote]
From what I hear, it’s kind of like having a wife ;-/ I’m sure I’ll miss it.[/quote]
The prowler that is, not the cold.[/quote]
My Ex was more like the cold, lol
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Did she make you dizzy? I’m certainly not feeling the best and too dizzy for the gym today, guess I won’t be able to say goodbye to the prowler. I’m hoping to make it for one last DL session tomorrow.
Friday. Poxy cold but went in for my last workout. Felt strong but heart was racy and couldn’t catch my breath. Normally would not like to spread my germs but it’s going to be at least a couple of weeks before I deadlift again. Certainly no capacity to push prowler one last time.