[quote]Zeppelin0731 wrote:
Im gonna sound nuts, and probably get called a troll, but Ill be honest. Sorry in advance for the length of this post.
It was tonight. I thought about my ex and the last time I ever saw her son. She broke up with me a while back, I went through a real hard time for a while. I started drinking a lot and ended up trying to kill myself. I got locked up in a psychiatric hospital for a week and almost dropped out of college (physicians assistant accelerated masters program/pre med).
I love that little guy. Youve never seen a more adorable 2 year old. Blonde hair, blue eyes. Loved blues clues and to play with matchbox cars with me. I hope that maybe theres a way that I can be in his life some day, even though I dont think it will be possible. You know, I never understood why my dad always wanted to play catch with me when I was little, until I met this kid. Its weird, but I get it now. It was never about baseball, it was that he wanted to just spend time with me.
I tried to get rid of all the things my ex gave me because I couldnt stand to look at it every day, but I just didnt have it in me to get rid of this one picture of them. I keep it with me. Its of her holding him at a baseball game I missed while I was away at college. Sometimes when its late at night and I miss them, I look at it and I cant help but wonder if he remembers me at all.
[quote]LiquidMercury wrote:
I get more emotional about movies and will choke up during those yet have a hard time having tears for real life events.[/quote]
Oh this reminds me, I had to keep leaving the room watching that fucking Kuchico movie (or whatever the fuck it was called). I guess I was embarrassed about that. I didn’t want my wife and older son seeing me sobbing and shit during the movie.[/quote]
I can understand doing that for your son…but your wife should know you by now.
[quote]TwoACRscout wrote:
Funny that my first post on this forum would be here. Iv been lurking a while though, seems like a good group.
For a little background, i was shot up in iraq back in 04, was hit in the hand and lost index finger and all associated bones (knuckle etc) up to the wrist, they salvaged my middle and ring finger but they are pretty messed up. Lost some good friends over there
and my best friend blew his head off when we got back. I cried like a little girl when that happened, like snot running sobbing lol.
I dont know if its bad to say here or not but oh well. When i returned from over there i came back with mental
problems galore. Ptsd and major depression are the big ones. But like another poster said, ill get choked up now over a damn
commercial but when it comes to real life i cant even react. Just kind of numb.
And so…lol the last time i cried was a few months ago. My GF was essentially telling me that i seem like a shell. I cried out of
frustration because its true, and while i dont like it, its not something that is going to change. The numbness will probably be the end of this relationship just like sooo many others. Sorry for the long post.
Its ok for a man to cry, the real problems begin when he cant[/quote]
Dude, you need not apologize for crying, after all you’ve been through and what you lost in the name of fighting for our country! Shit, if anyone deserves free-flowing tears, it’s you.
[quote]LiquidMercury wrote:
I get more emotional about movies and will choke up during those yet have a hard time having tears for real life events.[/quote]
Oh this reminds me, I had to keep leaving the room watching that fucking Kuchico movie (or whatever the fuck it was called). I guess I was embarrassed about that. I didn’t want my wife and older son seeing me sobbing and shit during the movie.[/quote]
I can understand doing that for your son…but your wife should know you by now.
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True. But imagine that some wives look to their husbands for strength.
In my case, my wife doesn’t know how to react if she sees me tear up. She wants me to be her rock, no matter what.
[quote]LiquidMercury wrote:
I get more emotional about movies and will choke up during those yet have a hard time having tears for real life events.[/quote]
Oh this reminds me, I had to keep leaving the room watching that fucking Kuchico movie (or whatever the fuck it was called). I guess I was embarrassed about that. I didn’t want my wife and older son seeing me sobbing and shit during the movie.[/quote]
I can understand doing that for your son…but your wife should know you by now.
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True. But imagine that some wives look to their husbands for strength.
In my case, my wife doesn’t know how to react if she sees me tear up. She wants me to be her rock, no matter what.
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Well, I am a rock…and they still know heart felt movies will fuck me up bad.
I guess the pretending just rubs me the wrong way.
I wouldn’t want to be married to someone I have to be fake around. Men cry sometimes.
It’s the ones who cry ALL THE TIME you have to worry about.
[quote]LiquidMercury wrote:
I get more emotional about movies and will choke up during those yet have a hard time having tears for real life events.[/quote]
Oh this reminds me, I had to keep leaving the room watching that fucking Kuchico movie (or whatever the fuck it was called). I guess I was embarrassed about that. I didn’t want my wife and older son seeing me sobbing and shit during the movie.[/quote]
I can understand doing that for your son…but your wife should know you by now.
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True. But imagine that some wives look to their husbands for strength.
In my case, my wife doesn’t know how to react if she sees me tear up. She wants me to be her rock, no matter what.
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Well, I am a rock…and they still know heart felt movies will fuck me up bad.
I guess the pretending just rubs me the wrong way.
I wouldn’t want to be married to someone I have to be fake around. Men cry sometimes.
It’s the ones who cry ALL THE TIME you have to worry about.[/quote]
Oh, I see what you mean… hiding it from her? I don’t hide it. If I cry at a scene in a movie, I’ll just sit there next to her with tears down my cheeks.
[quote]LiquidMercury wrote:
I get more emotional about movies and will choke up during those yet have a hard time having tears for real life events.[/quote]
Oh this reminds me, I had to keep leaving the room watching that fucking Kuchico movie (or whatever the fuck it was called). I guess I was embarrassed about that. I didn’t want my wife and older son seeing me sobbing and shit during the movie.[/quote]
I can understand doing that for your son…but your wife should know you by now.
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True. But imagine that some wives look to their husbands for strength.
In my case, my wife doesn’t know how to react if she sees me tear up. She wants me to be her rock, no matter what.
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Well, I am a rock…and they still know heart felt movies will fuck me up bad.
I guess the pretending just rubs me the wrong way.
I wouldn’t want to be married to someone I have to be fake around. Men cry sometimes.
It’s the ones who cry ALL THE TIME you have to worry about.[/quote]
Are you concluding I’m pretentious with my wife based on an off handed post? No, I’m not fake with my wife. She’s seen me cry plenty of times over the 19 years and 3 children together. And If I really put some thought into why I was leaving the room during that movie it was more because I couldn’t take it then being embarrassed.
I think the reason movies (and even some commercials) can tear you up is because the story is encapsulated into something easily ‘digestible’.
A real life event takes longer to wrap your head around. Maybe, that’s what I think.
[quote]LiquidMercury wrote:
I get more emotional about movies and will choke up during those yet have a hard time having tears for real life events.[/quote]
Oh this reminds me, I had to keep leaving the room watching that fucking Kuchico movie (or whatever the fuck it was called). I guess I was embarrassed about that. I didn’t want my wife and older son seeing me sobbing and shit during the movie.[/quote]
I can understand doing that for your son…but your wife should know you by now.
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True. But imagine that some wives look to their husbands for strength.
In my case, my wife doesn’t know how to react if she sees me tear up. She wants me to be her rock, no matter what.
[/quote]
Well, I am a rock…and they still know heart felt movies will fuck me up bad.
I guess the pretending just rubs me the wrong way.
I wouldn’t want to be married to someone I have to be fake around. Men cry sometimes.
It’s the ones who cry ALL THE TIME you have to worry about.[/quote]
QFT
In the Lion King when Simba’s dad gets betrayed by Uncle Scar, and then gets thrown into a stampede and then gets trampled to death. Rage at the betrayal turns to sorrow when Simba realizes his father is dead and crawls up next to the body.
I think the movie hit me hard because it reminded me of the day in my youth when I realized my own father was not invincible.
[quote]pgtips wrote:
I have to say, being at the young age I’m at now, the things I’ve cried about seem so petty to what some of you guys have been through…
On the topic of tearing up at movies and shit, For me its the perfectly selected music at the right timing that gets me. Its always music that gets my emotions going.
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Like this?
CS[/quote]
Yea bits like that, but not that in particular, cause I didn’t watch Lost.
Everyone is different, as mentioned, it’s about being genuine.
Story: On my way to football practice my senior year in HS I was unable to avoid a squirrel crossing the road and killed it. It upset me and I was crying a bit in the locker room as I was changing. Several of the boys came over to ask what was up and as I was explaining one of tham proceeded to make fun of me (duh). So I broke his nose.
[quote]pgtips wrote:
I have to say, being at the young age I’m at now, the things I’ve cried about seem so petty to what some of you guys have been through…
On the topic of tearing up at movies and shit, For me its the perfectly selected music at the right timing that gets me. Its always music that gets my emotions going.
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Like this?
CS[/quote]
I’m sorry to be a jerk but I think they used that slow piano music (and went slow motion) in the end of Lost to make it seem deep and moving. To cover up that they were basically not going to have a narrative end and that the last season was basically a dream.
[quote]BlueCollarTr8n wrote:
Everyone is different, as mentioned, it’s about being genuine.
Story: On my way to football practice my senior year in HS I was unable to avoid a squirrel crossing the road and killed it. It upset me and I was crying a bit in the locker room as I was changing. Several of the boys came over to ask what was up and as I was explaining one of tham proceeded to make fun of me (duh). So I broke his nose.
Emotions are complicated. [/quote]
You did the right thing…both times.
EDIT: I mean for feeling sad about hitting the wee squirrel and then hitting the guy. Not for hitting said squirrel.
For me it was a few months ago when I realised I’m close to being 22 now and the best time of my life is over (17-20) and I’m never getting it back and will probably never feel close to as happy as I did back then.
[quote]BlueCollarTr8n wrote:
Everyone is different, as mentioned, it’s about being genuine.
Story: On my way to football practice my senior year in HS I was unable to avoid a squirrel crossing the road and killed it. It upset me and I was crying a bit in the locker room as I was changing. Several of the boys came over to ask what was up and as I was explaining one of tham proceeded to make fun of me (duh). So I broke his nose.
Emotions are complicated. [/quote]
You did the right thing…both times.
EDIT: I mean for feeling sad about hitting the wee squirrel and then hitting the guy. Not for hitting said squirrel.[/quote]
Of course had he panicked and swerved or slammed the breaks he may have caused an accident, so it’s usually better to kill the animal then risk hitting someone else or driving off the road.
