Fear…
I fear having an injury that causes me to be what appears to be vegetative. I can hear the people around me making decisions regarding my life and I want to let them know that I am still there but I can’t move or speak.
One particularly scary dream i had involved a girl. She knew she was only a dream, and asked me not to wake up, cause it would kill her.
I also used to have extremely violent dreams as a child. In them i rarely feared closet monsters or anything, but i would always end up stabbing people or gauging eyes, it would always be justified, but I would also understand how sad and grotesque my actions were
[quote]lnname wrote:
One particularly scary dream i had involved a girl. She knew she was only a dream, and asked me not to wake up, cause it would kill her.
I also used to have extremely violent dreams as a child. In them i rarely feared closet monsters or anything, but i would always end up stabbing people or gauging eyes, it would always be justified, but I would also understand how sad and grotesque my actions were[/quote]
Now that is some interesting shit. Especially the first part. “She knew she was only a dream, and asked me not to wake up, cause it would kill her.” That’s some shit man. Do you experience lucid dreams at all?
I fear I’ll die before I find a woman I love who will actually love me back. To die sick and alone, crushed by old age, with no one to look after you seems to be the worst fate of all to me. I try not to think about it too much, so God knows why I spent time posting this.
How big the Ocean is and being dragged down to the bottom.
everything
my ultimate fear, aside from something happening to my daughter, is being that thin scrawny kid in high school that got picked on and made fun of. I once made a promise myself, i would never allow myself to ever become weak and scrawny again. not ever.
[quote]captaincalvert wrote:
I fear I’ll die before I find a woman I love who will actually love me back. To die sick and alone, crushed by old age, with no one to look after you seems to be the worst fate of all to me. I try not to think about it too much, so God knows why I spent time posting this.[/quote]
That was a sad one. I wish you luck, as yeah, once you find a good partner, you realize how you need them.
I think I once heard a relationship described (was it in a movie or book, I don’t remember) as us finding someone to be a witness to our lives. If you’re alone, you feel like the days may not matter because only you remember them, but with a partner, you have someone who knows you and remembers times past with you.
So I hope you find a witness for your life.
I’m not sure what movie it was from…if anyone knows, I’d like to know, I just hope it wasn’t something embarrassing for me to have admitted to watching.
[quote]Deorum wrote:
[quote]lnname wrote:
One particularly scary dream i had involved a girl. She knew she was only a dream, and asked me not to wake up, cause it would kill her.
I also used to have extremely violent dreams as a child. In them i rarely feared closet monsters or anything, but i would always end up stabbing people or gauging eyes, it would always be justified, but I would also understand how sad and grotesque my actions were[/quote]
Now that is some interesting shit. Especially the first part. “She knew she was only a dream, and asked me not to wake up, cause it would kill her.” That’s some shit man. Do you experience lucid dreams at all?
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Yeah, i go in and out of lucid dreaming, I think i may have been under a lot of stress at the time. In the dream with the girl, I suggested that we could use the fact that dreamtime doesn’t pass like real time, so we could let an arbitrarily large period of time pass before i awoke. Then i realised that i had no idea how to control the relation between dreamtime and real time, that i couldn’t do it. Knowing that i would fail and kill her was enough to wake me up in a cold sweat.
[quote]lnname wrote:
[quote]Deorum wrote:
[quote]lnname wrote:
One particularly scary dream i had involved a girl. She knew she was only a dream, and asked me not to wake up, cause it would kill her.
I also used to have extremely violent dreams as a child. In them i rarely feared closet monsters or anything, but i would always end up stabbing people or gauging eyes, it would always be justified, but I would also understand how sad and grotesque my actions were[/quote]
Now that is some interesting shit. Especially the first part. “She knew she was only a dream, and asked me not to wake up, cause it would kill her.” That’s some shit man. Do you experience lucid dreams at all?
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Yeah, i go in and out of lucid dreaming, I think i may have been under a lot of stress at the time. In the dream with the girl, I suggested that we could use the fact that dreamtime doesn’t pass like real time, so we could let an arbitrarily large period of time pass before i awoke. Then i realised that i had no idea how to control the relation between dreamtime and real time, that i couldn’t do it. Knowing that i would fail and kill her was enough to wake me up in a cold sweat.[/quote]
How bizarre. I used to have partially lucid dreams (fragments of the realisation I was dreaming) but on one particularly vivid occasion I realised I was dreaming and tried to set fire to a hedge along from my Gran’s house. I was annoyed it wasn’t lighting and then got a horrible feeling that something was after me on the other side of the hedge. I just had this instinctual feeling it was bestial and very pissed off that I was aware that I was dreaming. As if it knew I knew, and had been sent by the dream world to sort me out.
I woke up a bit alarmed as well but it’s fascinating how our minds work. In your lucid dream your mind tried to get you to stay and in mine it wanted me out, Freddy style almost.
[quote]lnname wrote:
[quote]Deorum wrote:
[quote]lnname wrote:
One particularly scary dream i had involved a girl. She knew she was only a dream, and asked me not to wake up, cause it would kill her.
I also used to have extremely violent dreams as a child. In them i rarely feared closet monsters or anything, but i would always end up stabbing people or gauging eyes, it would always be justified, but I would also understand how sad and grotesque my actions were[/quote]
Now that is some interesting shit. Especially the first part. “She knew she was only a dream, and asked me not to wake up, cause it would kill her.” That’s some shit man. Do you experience lucid dreams at all?
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Yeah, i go in and out of lucid dreaming, I think i may have been under a lot of stress at the time. In the dream with the girl, I suggested that we could use the fact that dreamtime doesn’t pass like real time, so we could let an arbitrarily large period of time pass before i awoke. Then i realised that i had no idea how to control the relation between dreamtime and real time, that i couldn’t do it. Knowing that i would fail and kill her was enough to wake me up in a cold sweat.[/quote]
Omg that shit is fucking fascinating man. I don’t know much about lucid dreaming but I think of them as having a very heightened awareness of your subconscious.
On a rare occasion as a child I would have dreams of death. Usually they would happen by fall from a large height(how else does a child envision dying I guess). I would be on a swing for instance and I would take off and soar something like thousands of feet into the air and for what seemed like an eternity I felt the strongest fear I can recall in my life, knowing I was going to die - and the feeling was fucking vivid. Then right before I died as no hope seemed to be left I would wake up in a cold sweat. Recently however I had a dream of this sort return. Only this time I was at the boardwalk(what else does a Jersey boy think about I guess) on a pier ride. The fact that it was going to break was foreshadowed as my girlfriend went on it before me and said something to that effect. I go on it and of course nostalgia of my childhood nightmare. I take off into the air and that same feeling that I have never gotten anywhere else in my life, sleeping or awake, hits me. Only this time I accepted that I was going to die… The feeling went away. I never woke up this time. I don’t know how the dream ended that was all I remembered. But I know the dream didn’t end there. I can see the meanings the dream has to my subconscious… which I guess would make it not so subconscious anymore lol.
I am afraid of old ladies walking near me when I am squatting heavy.
[quote]Deorum wrote:
[quote]lnname wrote:
[quote]Deorum wrote:
[quote]lnname wrote:
One particularly scary dream i had involved a girl. She knew she was only a dream, and asked me not to wake up, cause it would kill her.
I also used to have extremely violent dreams as a child. In them i rarely feared closet monsters or anything, but i would always end up stabbing people or gauging eyes, it would always be justified, but I would also understand how sad and grotesque my actions were[/quote]
Now that is some interesting shit. Especially the first part. “She knew she was only a dream, and asked me not to wake up, cause it would kill her.” That’s some shit man. Do you experience lucid dreams at all?
[/quote]
Yeah, i go in and out of lucid dreaming, I think i may have been under a lot of stress at the time. In the dream with the girl, I suggested that we could use the fact that dreamtime doesn’t pass like real time, so we could let an arbitrarily large period of time pass before i awoke. Then i realised that i had no idea how to control the relation between dreamtime and real time, that i couldn’t do it. Knowing that i would fail and kill her was enough to wake me up in a cold sweat.[/quote]
Omg that shit is fucking fascinating man. I don’t know much about lucid dreaming but I think of them as having a very heightened awareness of your subconscious.
On a rare occasion as a child I would have dreams of death. Usually they would happen by fall from a large height(how else does a child envision dying I guess). I would be on a swing for instance and I would take off and soar something like thousands of feet into the air and for what seemed like an eternity I felt the strongest fear I can recall in my life, knowing I was going to die - and the feeling was fucking vivid. Then right before I died as no hope seemed to be left I would wake up in a cold sweat. Recently however I had a dream of this sort return. Only this time I was at the boardwalk(what else does a Jersey boy think about I guess) on a pier ride. The fact that it was going to break was foreshadowed as my girlfriend went on it before me and said something to that effect. I go on it and of course nostalgia of my childhood nightmare. I take off into the air and that same feeling that I have never gotten anywhere else in my life, sleeping or awake, hits me. Only this time I accepted that I was going to die… The feeling went away. I never woke up this time. I don’t know how the dream ended that was all I remembered. But I know the dream didn’t end there. I can see the meanings the dream has to my subconscious… which I guess would make it not so subconscious anymore lol.[/quote]
thats awesome! MAybe it signifies coming to terms with something! I prefer Jungs annalysis of dreams to freuds, try and stay with this until the description of the shadow Dream Moods: Dream Theories: Carl Jung i think Jung would have a feild day with your dream!
on a completely different note, i also write music in my sleep, but most of it is crap. Sometimes I can only remember the feelings or ideas it conveys, and other times i can remember it note for note, or even play it on piano or guitar when i awake (playing it is often how i realise it sucks)
actually crazy ass dreams deserve their own thread!
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