[quote]egnatiosj wrote:
Cortes wrote:
Actually not too bad an idea, bicep_craze, and I have a variation on that theme, after a few words.
First, though, eg, I’m certain that the “reward,” to you, is great, and possibly approaches the reward of reaching your career goals. I happen to be lucky enough to live in a country where I don’t have to worry about the legality, but I do intend to come back to America one day, and I am already asking myself the same kinds of questions you are.
Most of “our thing” is, I think, tied up in personal image. Now, there are, actually, ways in which you can successfully redefine your personal image, and believe it or not, it is not all that hard to revolutionize the way you view yourself. However, this image and lifestyle in which we partake is so wrapped up in everything we do, in the way we are viewed by others, in our health, everything that any choice to cross back over to the other side will necessarily entail a “different” you. I don’t know if that is the choice you want to make.
It is certainly a very personal decision, and one you will only be able to reach on your own, but perhaps the ideas that follow in this thread can help. I know I would have a lot of trouble reaching this decision, so I can fully understand your quandary.
Now, should you choose to continue to engage in this lifestyle, what I would suggest is this: Find someone you trust fully and completely. A man, not a woman (no offense, women, but men tend to have a certain loyalty toward other men that women just do not have outside of some good marriages).
A suggested above, strike a deal with him, for example, you ship all of your powders to him, and he transfers to you, either through domestic mail or, preferably, personal delivery. In return, you will brew up all of the powders into AAS and give him, say, half (or whatever he is willing to agree to), for taking on the risk of receiving overseas mail at his address.
This will reduce risk to yourself to almost nothing, so long as you and your friend know how to keep your mouths shut and you don’t start getting greedy and going beyond personal use for the two of you.
Now, as far as moving in with your girlfriend. This is going to sound harsh, but if she is not completely on board with this, then you might either want to NOT move in with her, or reevaluate your situation. I am very blessed to have a wife that completely accepts my mad scientist lifestyle, and I do not know how on earth I could possibly pull off this lifestyle if I had to hide it from her.
Also, “girlfriends” are often transient, ephemeral things, and I have heard more than one story of a spiteful woman destroying a man’s life and carreer just as a final fuck you on the way out the door.
This could turn into a pretty interesting thread. I wish you the best of luck in reaching your decision.
Cortes, I want to really thank you for the detailed response. My girlfriend is actually completely okay with everything that I do health wise- Its the legality portion of it that she disagrees. She, and I to a certain extent, thinks that even though the law is ridiculous and irrational, its not going to change, so it doesn’t really matter.
Her point is more of; “looking big inst worth losing all that we want together”. I understand her point of view, but I know she doesn’t get how much weight lifting means to me, or what it essentially has done for my life.
Now, should you choose to continue to engage in this lifestyle, what I would suggest is this: Find someone you trust fully and completely. A man, not a woman (no offense, women, but men tend to have a certain loyalty toward other men that women just do not have outside of some good marriages).
A suggested above, strike a deal with him, for example, you ship all of your powders to him, and he transfers to you, either through domestic mail or, preferably, personal delivery. In return, you will brew up all of the powders into AAS and give him, say, half (or whatever he is willing to agree to), for taking on the risk of receiving overseas mail at his address.
This will reduce risk to yourself to almost nothing, so long as you and your friend know how to keep your mouths shut and you don’t start getting greedy and going beyond personal use for the two of you.
My problem is that I don’t know anyone who would even remotely consider this. I don’t know any one who actually consistently works out, let alone be willing to risk some thing like this. I guess I could try and join a local gym, and meet some one there?
Most of “our thing” is, I think, tied up in personal image. Now, there are, actually, ways in which you can successfully redefine your personal image, and believe it or not, it is not all that hard to revolutionize the way you view yourself.
However, this image and lifestyle in which we partake is so wrapped up in everything we do, in the way we are viewed by others, in our health, everything that any choice to cross back over to the other side will necessarily entail a “different” you.
I don’t know if that is the choice you want to make. It is certainly a very personal decision, and one you will only be able to reach on your own, but perhaps the ideas that follow in this thread can help. I know I would have a lot of trouble reaching this decision, so I can fully understand your quandary.
I think part of the difficulty in this for me, is that weight lifting is really all that I do outside of school. My academics are basically my life, and the weights have been my outlet for years.
My peers are all spoiled little brats who think that their parents spending 40K+ a year on tuition guarantees them a degree. They have no desire to learn the material, just to get the grades and run (and mind you these are all HEALTH majors).
I have been working out, dieting, researching legal supplements (and illegal ones) since about sixteen, and I don’t really know if I can change this image, but I suppose that is what I will have to do, if I decide it is “not worth it”.
Thanks again for your response
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You seem to have had a very similar lifestyle to mine most of the time. On another note, sometimes I come over as ‘harsh’, or sound like an asshole…or like a pro-steroid nut…I’m like that in real life so uh, excuse me if I asked you ‘why are you asking here’. My bad really.
Anyway, I think Cortes gave a very solid advise. But yes like you pointed above, if there is another gym close to you (except the school gym of course), then do consider making new ‘contacts’ with the ‘big’ guys in there.
Of course BBB would be the man for ya 
(no homo lol bear with me)
Just trying to help man.
Good luck.
