Strong Squat and Deadlift, Weak Bench?

[SOUL_FIGHTER]

@naturallyhard

Age 29,People are telling me I won’t see any gains my first cycle? Test prop kickstart for 4 weeks 35 mg Ed=250 mg ew,with test e 250 mg twice a week total 750 mg a week for 4 weeks. then drop the prop and just inject e twice a week for 500 mg?
Someone told my myostatin will be to high which will stall my gains? I am already sucidal if I see no gains I will definitely kill myself! Please help.
Week 1-4 750 mg of test combined
Week 4-8 test e 500 mg
I know I am cursed but is my cycle screwed? Should I just save myself the troubles and jump in front of a car?

Ayo mods, what can we do here?