Thanks again, every comment helps.
It gives me that little bit of motivation that keeps me going to the gym the next time and the time after that.
My rest periods depend on the lift. For something like rows, only about a minute. For bench, around two - three. For squats, three - five. etc.,
This Week’s Weight Records: 117.5 lb - 118.2 lb
Time: 4 PM
Last week’s: 118.0 lb - 118.0 lb
I may or may not have lost weight- and if I did, it’s not by much, so it’s safe to say I’m currently eating around maintenance then. It is clear that I didn’t gain weight though, so the eating’s going to take a jump, I’ll do everything I can to increase it.
Rows: 45 lb
3x8
Not only did I completely feel it for once, but I also strained to finish it. I don’t think I’ll be able to advance past 50 lb, but I’m honestly impressed I can pick up the damn dumbbell.
Bench Press: 85 lb
3x8
That last rep was one of the hardest things I’ve ever done. There’s something about realizing you’re on rep 7 and struggled to get it to the top, and knowing that if you can just get in that one, last, final rep you can justify moving up to the 95 lb weights that’s incredible. Bringing down a weight you’re positive you can’t lift, straining hard enough that you practically forget your arms exist and your face is red and the only thing in the world is that bar, and then realizing a second later that you made the lift in the ridiculous adrenaline rush and you did what you didn’t think you could do.
There’s something about that that’s just fucking beautiful.
I love this fucking sport.
Squats: 135 lb
3x8
Usually when doing squats, I’ll find that my shoulders get so sweaty that I’m afraid the bar will slip off and hit the ground, and that’s how I know I did a good job. This usually happens at the end of my third set, it’s kind of like my “fuck yeah” indicator.
This happened to me halfway through my first set.
I’m surprised I did it. I’m finding I squat better when I’m not in front of a mirror, I tend to worry about my form less and focus more on the lift than analyzing every damn thing I do. I also found that my first rep or two is “bad.” This could be a problem with my warm ups- I may need to advance past the bar for squats like deadlifts (and probably bench presses too) and so the first rep or so becomes my unofficial warm up. Unlike benching, there isn’t the same burning sensation (not the burn as in “I did 100 sit ups” burn, but the “holy shit I can feel all of my muscle fibers in my arms and they are disintegrating” burn) and numbness combination to tell me I’m going to fail- my legs tend to be a lot number and then burn only at the bottom of the lift.
My lower back, right above my left glute has been bothering me since I went deadlifting, and it kind of spiked up during those one or two warm up reps, but then it stopped. I’m a little worried, but it’s probable I just borked my form a bit on Saturday, and it is getting better- but it’s something I’ll keep tabs on. I might need to stretch or warm up more.
tldr; My lifts are all better and I feel like a fucking unicorn king today. I am slightly thinner, but I can deal with a mass to power conversion.