Hi there, I am a 28 y/o M who made the unfortunate decision to start TRT 2.5 years ago after feeling down/low energy and having sexual issues for a while. I have been on low doses around 125 mg and have come off twice during this time period (I never seem to enjoy TRT as much as others and always have some issue from it, whether it be hematocrit, low iron, etc.) . Recently I found that I have had a major vitamin D deficiency this entire time and upping my vitamin D intake has seen most of the original problems that I had go away completely. However, now I have been on TRT for several years and I am worried I may not make a full recovery.
Last time I came off (1 year ago, after 1 year on) I recovered to around 650 TT with upper range Free T (clear of all serms) but was put back on before my doctor sent me this information (pissed) because I still didn’t feel right (aka didn’t give my system time to adjust).
After a lot of thought and deciding I’d like to be independent of external test if possible (especially with the FDA now dipping their hands into the TRT realm with the compounded hcg ban) , I ran 750 iu HCG EOD for three weeks before stopping everything. I have now been off of everything and have been taking clomid 50mg for around 2 weeks.
I am worried because while running HCG, my balls inflated to their original size for around a week but then subsequently shrank back down for the last two weeks of hcg. They have not come back since, even on the Clomid, and remain grape-size and dense. What kind of timeline can I expect for the balls to come back, if they do at all? I feel relatively decent but the ball size thing is kind of a visual that I have not recovered and it gets me down. Do they grow back when/if my sperm count/fertility returns? Or are they permanently shrunk? I plan on giving this a good 6 month attempt if I can tolerate it, should I know within this amount of time?