MT - hadn’t dove in 6 months, so starting out at 90 feet with current was not smart. Def try the nitrox.
LilP - don’t let my write up freak you out. Diving is like driving - all a matter of conditions and experience.
G, MFM, Blaze - thanks!
Cbear- I don’t believe this would have turned out half as well if my buddy would have been anyone else. He was a badass (and I say this in awe) russian Master Diver. Cool and calm as chilled vodka. When we finally got out of the water I turned to him and said, “You saved my ass down there, thank you”. He just kinda hunched his shoulders as if it was no biggy. Well it was a biggy for me.
Edgy - stop coming in here just to steal my beer.
Nadia - courage? I see most of it as stupidity and mistakes and survival. Had I shot to the surface from the panic I would have been sent to the emergency.
Cal - you are spot on. Finding that there is an “edge” to the world is some pretty scarey shit!
Joe- I agree all though I’m done diving for this summer. Plan is to get my drysuit certification in spring and my rescue diver next summer. Hopefully the rescue diver classes will make me feel more confident in the water by increasing my capacities of coping in case of emergency.
Patch - It’s how I deal with trauma and mistakes in life. I can do every mistake once. Learn from it. Don’t repeat. Especially not life threatning stuff.
MIM - I honetly think it was panic attack and narking. As for how I feel now, good question. When I wrote up my adventures for you guys this past Monday, the full realization that I came very close to not holding my husband again, or seeing my cookie-face grow up finally dawned on me and I had a breakdown. The emotional shock/numbness wore of and I had a minor case of PTSD. Angry and crying. Angry at myself for being dependant on the group organizers and just following along like a good little sheep. I should have tuned in to my instincs a little more and sat the dive out. But the incident happened in a time when I was well surrounded so I shall take it as a learning experience for the future. Since Monday my nerves have been pretty shot. And my inner courage wolf is hiding in a cave somewhere. But I’m starting to feel better. A little like my own “stronger” self again. I have my 2 weeks vacation starting this weekend and the Hubbie and I are going hiking in the woods last week of August. That should feed my soul and sooth the nerves.
Greg - brother borrowed my little camera that I would have brought on these types of expeditions. I’ll try to have one with me next time.
nlmain, yeah we both learned on our last trips that part of training is also knowing when to not dive or when to just calmly go up. When you’re down there it can’t be always about overcoming or struggling with ourselves, there will always be other dives. Its a risky enough sport, and everyone has had those types of dives before.
Famous quote “Anyone who says they have never been afraid while diving hasn’t been diving or is a bad liar.”
And this is a good site with some diving jokes to help lighten the mood (when you are ready), although you’ve probably seen them before.
MT - read through the jokes. I seriously laughed out loud - thank you
4 shoots turned into 2 (thank GOD!) I could tell I am starting to be burned out by work and the diving. I’m doing that last minute struggle to get stuff done before my vacation.
Greenies - I’ll let you know when it comes out. Not sure what the price will be but all funds should go to the TEAM leukimia society. Would you be taking the dude or girly one??
Kimba - thanks
my biceps and calves are sore as hell from the move yesterday. Today is house work and cleaning my car before the roadtrip tomorrow. There will be some lifting in here next week. I hope the 2 week break won’t translate to losses in the gym.
Woo hoo!! Mr. P - me likey! Beautiful shots Mainy.
And I did read all about your diving. Incredible! I seriously would’ve died down there! Like, passed out and then drifted off to the bottom of the sea. Kudos to you for keeping yourself together - the experience you just gained will be invaluable to you!
Helping a friend move is a great way to kick off the vacay! Good karma is always good
You won’t loose any strength, ma chere. As I’ve just learned, muscle memory is an incredible thing. I haven’t benched in over a year and benched the first time the other day for 5x85 (and not even using leg drive) - lol! this is chump change for you, but not too shabby for lil ol’ me. Anyways, just goes to show, time off from the gym doth not translate to weakened lifts.
