Monday 2021-08-30
A. Front Squat (ss: ab-wheel)
Ramped to a 2 repper at 80
Notes: have to use straps on the bar because elbows and fingers are arse
B. RDL
3-4 sets of 8-10 at 80 — can’t really remember the sets or reps (logging the day after)
Notes: some pain during and after but less pain the day after than the day before
C. Hip-thrust
Same as above
D. GHR
3 “amrap” sets
Notes: Because of my mental state I find that I just cannot push as hard as I used to and this has been true for quite some time in the gym now. I often “fake myself out” or lose focus.
Trying to get back to training in a way that propels me forward and allows me to progress. In the past I used to find my stride after the first or second exercise but now I just feel sick and want to vomit and not in the good “I pushed myself hard” way but more “body putting brakes on me” way.
Haven’t logged in ages. At first my gym consistency took a benign decrease, from a 4-day upper/lower (lift-oriented) “split” to three whole-body workouts which would eventually get supplanted by a zero-day “split” (ha!) which at times was for benign reasons such as travelling but at other times has just been because I couldn’t find a meaningful way to interact with any iron without making something in my body react with pain or lead to imbalances down the line. There’s very little back work I can do without making the elbow more inflamed. Just holding a loaded bar without straps is adequate to hurt all over my forearm. And straight-arm pulldowns too (haven’t tried pull-overs yet)
I don’t think I’ve done a fantastic effort of maintaing the habit of purposeful training but I never became completely inactive at least. There was a time when I felt that the only thing I could resign to was ab-work, so I did, but in doing so I spent some time rolling up into a tuck-up which promptly burst a cyst on my tailbone (awaiting surgical removal).
During this year I’ve “healed” and “re-injured” my hamstring, my finger, and my elbows more time than I care to count. I fall in and out of being consistent with rehab. Philosophically, it’d pain me to in earnest suggest that I am motivated to fix these issues because arguably then they’d be fixed while at the same time I try to remain lenient with myself as I’ve had to re-live some past trauma, experience some new ones, have dealt (and continue to deal with) night terrors, and then there is the undereating that occasionally accompanies all this.
Climbing has been intermittent depending on what state my various overuse injuries are in. Some weeks 0 sessions. Other weeks 2-3.
Anyway, I’m back. Sometimes interacting with this community becomes unhealthy for me as I sometimes play a lite-version of the comparison game internally and diet and physique stuff can really send me for a spin. Not to mention, self-control with not obsessively reading everything but I want to give it one more go as I associate a lot of positive things with this place too.
I’d like to use my log to maybe get a little bit of guidance sometimes. I know clavicles are a forum meme, but I’m not joking (seriously) when I’ve discovered that mine are different lengths and there is a four centimeter disrepency. There was a time where I was capable of evaluating whether or not that is a meaningful difference with regards to barbell pressing but I don’t even have the energy to start removing that brain-rust. Anyone care to weigh in on if that is a meaningful difference? For reference, the side with the longer clavicle has given me consistent problems for the last four years so I imagine yes but there might be other things that are wrong there so it’s not immediately obvious if I should interpret that as “causation”.