I always had a lot of anxiety and started self medicating young. In my mid-20s I eventually came upon pro-hormones and regret it to this day. After the second cycle I just did not have the response and hardness in my erection that I did before. I have been “dealing with it” and using lots of Cialis and other things for a long time now.
I am 32 now. I have also taken injections before and was on Axiron for about 6mo both times. I didn’t notice a ton from the injections but they were spaced at 1 ever 2 weeks. On the Axiron after a few months I did notice gains in strength and libido but never got to quite where I would like it. Total T was 230ish about a year ago.
Over the past 7 months, I actually got to a point where I was feeling pretty good. I looked good, was working out, feeling good, enjoying life, I was able to perform “OK” but still the erections just weren’t what they should be for response/hardness. I don’t even know how the hell I fucked up this bad, but I got a hold of a bottle of HCGenerate, took it for a week, immediately started feeling more aggressive and for the first time in a long time had pretty good erections.
At the end of the week my libido and erections just completely nose-dived, no idea what happened. I stopped taking it immediately. Another week after that, I felt like my body was being completely attacked. Pains everywhere, aching, muscle spasms, bloating, gas, I was completely fucked up for like a week, urinating constantly, feeling like absolute hell.
This has been going on for some degree over the last few weeks, not quite as bad as the first week but I’m still getting aches/pains in muscles and joints and weird spasms. I immediately went to see a doc and got to a urologist. He measured my total T at 100 
How could this happen? I don’t have the greatest insurance right now, but he started me on Cyp at 100mg once a week. I just took my first shot, and I felt OK at first, but then I felt kind of “heavy”, and I felt like my ability for erections actually DROPPED again. C
an anyone please advise or give me direction? Should I continue on with this TRT and hope for the best since my T is so low at the moment?