[quote]EmilyQ wrote:
[quote]Chushin wrote:
[quote]spar4tee wrote:
Unless he carries pics of picks around.[/quote]
My best friend used to jog through the city streets barefoot and carrying a big sledgehammer. [/quote]
Was it Varq?
I don’t think I’m going to be able to manage this dating thing. I miss my ex-boyfriend. I think he’s ruined me for ever making out with anyone else, much less sex.
Which sucks, because he’s not an option.[/quote]
alpha widow
[quote]orion wrote:
[quote]EmilyQ wrote:
[quote]Chushin wrote:
[quote]spar4tee wrote:
Unless he carries pics of picks around.[/quote]
My best friend used to jog through the city streets barefoot and carrying a big sledgehammer. [/quote]
Was it Varq?
I don’t think I’m going to be able to manage this dating thing. I miss my ex-boyfriend. I think he’s ruined me for ever making out with anyone else, much less sex.
Which sucks, because he’s not an option.[/quote]
alpha widow[/quote]
I though you decided he wasn’t even a real alpha. I’m a paper alpha widow? Harsh.
[quote]EmilyQ wrote:
[quote]orion wrote:
[quote]EmilyQ wrote:
[quote]Chushin wrote:
[quote]spar4tee wrote:
Unless he carries pics of picks around.[/quote]
My best friend used to jog through the city streets barefoot and carrying a big sledgehammer. [/quote]
Was it Varq?
I don’t think I’m going to be able to manage this dating thing. I miss my ex-boyfriend. I think he’s ruined me for ever making out with anyone else, much less sex.
Which sucks, because he’s not an option.[/quote]
alpha widow[/quote]
I though you decided he wasn’t even a real alpha. I’m a paper alpha widow? Harsh.
[/quote]
Well…
No, it kind of sounds shitty, there is no way around it…
[quote]spar4tee wrote:
[quote]EmilyQ wrote:
[quote]Chushin wrote:
[quote]spar4tee wrote:
Unless he carries pics of picks around.[/quote]
My best friend used to jog through the city streets barefoot and carrying a big sledgehammer. [/quote]
Was it Varq?
I don’t think I’m going to be able to manage this dating thing. I miss my ex-boyfriend. I think he’s ruined me for ever making out with anyone else, much less sex.
Which sucks, because he’s not an option.[/quote]
Rueened.[/quote]
Damn. Sounds like he threw her down and smote her ruin upon the mountainside.
Btw how do you ruin making out? Like how can anyone really be that bad at it?
[quote]csulli wrote:
[quote]spar4tee wrote:
[quote]EmilyQ wrote:
[quote]Chushin wrote:
[quote]spar4tee wrote:
Unless he carries pics of picks around.[/quote]
My best friend used to jog through the city streets barefoot and carrying a big sledgehammer. [/quote]
Was it Varq?
I don’t think I’m going to be able to manage this dating thing. I miss my ex-boyfriend. I think he’s ruined me for ever making out with anyone else, much less sex.
Which sucks, because he’s not an option.[/quote]
Rueened.[/quote]
Damn. Sounds like he threw her down and smote her ruin upon the mountainside.
Btw how do you ruin making out? Like how can anyone really be that bad at it?[/quote]
He was good at it, not bad at it. It’s weird and different without him.
I just miss him.
Wait, you mean new guy? Eh, he’s fine. I guess? I don’t know.
I’m done with men.
[quote]EmilyQ wrote:
I’m done with men.[/quote]
I’m not sure how serious the conversation is recently. I can’t read it seriously.
[quote]EmilyQ wrote:
I’m done with men.[/quote]
So you going to go play for the other team and double your wardrobe?
[quote]EmilyQ wrote:
I’m done with men.[/quote]
I think I just heard a squeal of joy all the way from Maine.
[quote]Derek542 wrote:
[quote]EmilyQ wrote:
I’m done with men.[/quote]
So you going to go play for the other team and double your wardrobe? [/quote]
Wait, double my wardrobe?? Do new clothes come with it??
Speaking of which, I’ve switched my pic to Levi’s and Dr. Martens because I’m going to be a LOT more lesbian from now on.
[quote]Chushin wrote:
[quote]EmilyQ wrote:
[quote]Chushin wrote:
[quote]spar4tee wrote:
Unless he carries pics of picks around.[/quote]
My best friend used to jog through the city streets barefoot and carrying a big sledgehammer. [/quote]
Was it Varq?
I don’t think I’m going to be able to manage this dating thing. I miss my ex-boyfriend. I think he’s ruined me for ever making out with anyone else, much less sex.
Which sucks, because he’s not an option.[/quote]
No, it wasn’t Varq. The guy’s an adolescent suicide specialist now in one of the best programs on the East Coast.
You miss your ex?
I thought the new guy was “all that.”
Are we talking feelings here, or technical skill? [/quote]
He is a good guy, and we haven’t gotten far enough for technical skill to be an issue. It’s more just that as things heat up I’m thinking - wait, this isn’t the guy I love doing this with.
I’m sure I could go back if I wanted. I even had the thought that maybe Saturday morning I could set off on the 12 hour drive to spend the night, and then drive back on Sunday. (He’s returned to his home state.) I know he would say yes, come, but I think he’d get mad at me all over again when I had to break back up afterward because his stupid, fucked up choices make him an unhealthy long term prospect for me.
I’m actively resisting the pull, because I can’t go back. But I loved being with him when there wasn’t needless drama.
[quote]EmilyQ wrote:
Speaking of which, I’ve switched my pic to Levi’s and Dr. Martens because I’m going to be a LOT more lesbian from now on.[/quote]
I am a huge fan of understatement.
[quote]Varqanir wrote:
[quote]EmilyQ wrote:
I’m done with men.[/quote]
I think I just heard a squeal of joy all the way from Maine. [/quote]
Pfft TB doesn’t squeal that easy.
Btw Em, we need to see the other side to know if they look lesbian enough.
(Yeah I know, you hate it when it goes THERE and I went there, blah blah blah… sorry)
[quote]EmilyQ wrote:
I don’t think I’m going to be able to manage this dating thing. I miss my ex-boyfriend. I think he’s ruined me for ever making out with anyone else, much less sex.
Which sucks, because he’s not an option…
…He is a good guy, and we haven’t gotten far enough for technical skill to be an issue. It’s more just that as things heat up I’m thinking - wait, this isn’t the guy I love doing this with.
I’m sure I could go back if I wanted. I even had the thought that maybe Saturday morning I could set off on the 12 hour drive to spend the night, and then drive back on Sunday. (He’s returned to his home state.) I know he would say yes, come, but I think he’d get mad at me all over again when I had to break back up afterward because his stupid, fucked up choices make him an unhealthy long term prospect for me.
I’m actively resisting the pull, because I can’t go back. But I loved being with him when there wasn’t needless drama.[/quote]
It’s perfectly normal to have feelings of regret and longing after a break-up, that’s what makes them so difficult. And you don’t get to choose when they pop up, but they do act as a signal. The mind can process the end of a relationship a lot faster than the heart can.
I think that until you can work through all the feelings associated with your last failed relationship, they’re going to continue to manifest themselves at the beginning of this new one.
Honestly, it doesn’t sound like you want to close the door on the old one (and why would you, he sounds like a good guy who you loved). If he were to find a job tomorrow and get his shit together it sounds as if you two could make a go of it again. That’s hard to let go of.
[quote]EmilyQ wrote:
I’m done with men.[/quote]
Me too.