Regarding the fires? I’m safe from all that. Worst its gonna get for me is being all smoky.
Those arent clouds
*the “AI generated content” tag is there because i cropped out a building that would tell people a little too much about where i work.
Thanks for checking in on me.
Good to hear. I’ve seen the aftermath of those further north. Charred trees, as far as the eye could see.
Well i got one interview on the books and another one pending.
2025 is looking like it’s gonna be one hell of a year 
Some extremes (highs and lows) in this thread just since we clicked over into 2025… good on that interest rate btw (we’re 6% ish here in Oz).
Glad you’re ok and out of the fire devastation.
Daddy Day
Thursday, Jan 09, 2025 at 2:20pm
Shoulder Press (Dumbbell)
“Ahrens
3110”
Set 1: 50 lbs x 16 [Failure]
Set 2: 50 lbs x 9 [Failure]
Set 3: 50 lbs x 6 [Failure]
Face Pull
“3010”
Set 1: 55 lbs x 16 [Failure]
Set 2: 55 lbs x 14 [Failure]
Set 3: 55 lbs x 9 [Failure]
Lateral Raise (Cable)
“Pulley set just below waist, partial ROM
3110”
Set 1: 25 lbs x 11 [Failure]
Set 2: 25 lbs x 10 [Failure]
Set 3: 25 lbs x 9 [Failure]
@hevyapp
+15mins MISS
Yesterday the scale said 214.0.
Today it said 210.0.
I’m just a fuckin water balloon lol
I cant seem to locate my Give A Fuck button and its getting irritating tbh. I’ve been doing some introspection on this and i think i know why, but i need to explore it a bit more before putting pen to paper.
I have been horribly inconsistent with my anabolics for the last month, so theres a good chance that weighs into it.
Push
Tuesday, Jan 14, 2025 at 2:11pm
Incline Chest Press (Machine)
“Wide Grip, Partial ROM
3010”
Set 1: 225 lbs x 16 [Failure]
Set 2: 225 lbs x 7 [Failure]
Set 3: 135 lbs x 9 [Failure]
Shoulder Press (Machine Plates)
“Wide Grip, Partial ROM
3010”
Set 1: 225 lbs x 14 [Failure]
Set 2: 225 lbs x 8 [Failure]
Set 3: 135 lbs x 13 [Failure]
Lateral Raise (Cable)
“Pulley set just below waist, Partial ROM
3010”
Set 1: 25 lbs x 14 [Failure]
Set 2: 25 lbs x 11 [Failure]
Set 3: 25 lbs x 9 [Failure]
Triceps Rope Pushdown
Set 1: 100 lbs x 14 [Failure]
Set 2: 100 lbs x 7 [Failure]
Set 3: 60 lbs x 9 [Failure]
Hip Thrust (Barbell)
Set 1: 455 lbs x 6
@hevyapp
I have a lot more in the tank for hip thrust, but I’m noticing my heart rate is sky high during this. Like 165-170bpm on a 315x5 warmup. So i know why i passed out last time, but idk why my heart rate is so high. Will have to keep an eye on it.
Train tomorrow, interview Thursday. Doing interview prep today and tomorrow.
Don’t get into your head about it. You’ve been calorie restrictive for a quite a while now.
Live a little bit and when your feelin it slam the door and hit it again!!!
Good luck man!!
I crushed that interview.
Anderson 300k offer coming right up!
Damn y’all. I really have to get my shit together.
I think I’ve got it figured out, at least partially. I might write on it later.
Pull
Thursday, Jan 23, 2025 at 1:43pm
Iso-Lateral Low Row
“Underhand, Iso
3010”
Set 1: 405 lbs x 14 [Failure]
Set 2: 315 lbs x 9 [Failure]
Bicep Curl (Cable)
“2x Drop Set, High Rep”
Set 1: 100 lbs x 26 [Failure]
Set 2: 80 lbs x 8 [Failure]
Shrug (Dumbbell)
“Hunched
Muscle Round
*both fails were grip fails”
Set 1: 100 lbs x 6
Set 2: 100 lbs x 6
Set 3: 100 lbs x 6
Set 4: 100 lbs x 4 [Failure]
Set 5: 100 lbs x 6
Set 6: 100 lbs x 2 [Failure]
Lat Pulldown (Cable)
“Top set, Backdown Set
2110”
Set 1: 150 lbs x 15 [Failure]
Set 2: 120 lbs x 11 [Failure]
Chest Supported Reverse Fly (Dumbbell)
Pinwheel Curl (Dumbbell)
Lying Leg Curl (Machine)
@hevyapp
+30mins LISS
Getting back on the horse for tracking macros and all that.
That really 9 days between training or just so unlogged sessions?
Thats a full 9 days of shitbaggery.
A few days of that were excuseable, considering the things i had going on. Most were days i could have trained, and chose not to.
As to the “why”…
Id made so much of my identity revolve around making more money, getting laid like tile, looking great naked, being able to live my life for me… that once i achieved these things - i didnt (and dont, not entirely) know what to do with it.
I was so caught up in achieving a baseline of things i felt i was lacking in, that it became my whole personality… the guy who endlessly pursues that which he’s lacking in.
But i had no fuckin idea what to do once i wasn’t lacking basic needs. So i floundered aimlessly.
In short, i wrapped up so much of my identity in being the guy that slays dragons, that once i slayed the dragon - i didnt know what to do anymore.
Like a dog that chases the squirrel but doesn’t know what to do with it once he catches it.
For years I’ve been ducking the question “what do i want out of life” and I’m still working on figuring that out.
I have a lot more to write on this, but I’m still organizing my thoughts. I would like to write it up today, though.
Thank you for asking. I need the accountability right now.
or maybe you just need to pause and breathe. As someone who is a little older than you, all I can say is you may never truly work this stuff out. I still don’t know exactly what I want or truly where I am going most of the time. I tend to just find another squirrel.
I’m buying if you’re selling, lol.
I’ve been paused for almost 2 months and I’m backtracking. I believe the best solution for this is for me to orient to a higher purpose.
I need to define what that higher purpose is, though.
Or breed, have little squirrels then live vicariously thru them! 
If I recall correctly, Andrew already has kids though. That’s a common myth that needs to die; that all a man needs is a family and he should be happy and fulfilled. A lot of messed up parents and kids out there because of that one.
Andrew, I’m around your age and in the same boat as you. Spent most of my 20’s and early 30’s working on my money, body, and mind until people who knew me before could barely recognize me.
Same problem as you now though; what the heck do I do with it all? I could keep building my bank account but I’m not a super materialistic person. And I could travel the world living some kind of epicurean, hedonistic lifestyle but that isn’t me either. Men need some kind of greater purpose in life.
There’s a quote I like from Ted Turner - “Be sure to set your goals so high that you can’t possibly accomplish them in one lifetime. That way you’ll always have something ahead of you. I made the mistake of setting my goals too low, and now I’m having a hard time coming up with new ones.” I’m not sure I agree 100% but it’s interesting to think about.
At the same time, I like the Aerosmith lyric “Life’s a journey, not a destination”.
Rambling at this point but I think what I’m trying to say is that it’s typical for men to get a little restless and always be on the lookout for the next mountain to climb.
EDIT: one last thing I wanted to say - I think the day you stop looking for mountains to climb is the day you really “die”. For some this happens at 89 and for some at 29. You see this with all the dudes just coasting by on a life of fantasy football, IPAs and Call of Duty.
I may catch shit for this, but living just for my daughter and family isn’t enough for me.
Don’t get me wrong, our children are our legacy, but I’m living my life for me, while also raising my daughter to be the best version of herself she can be.
For a lot of people, just living through their children is enough. For me, it isn’t.
You figured out your purpose yet?
I have some literature I’ve been reading through that’s been helping me out, but its all stuff to direct me towards defining my purpose for myself. Figured you may find these of use, if you haven’t found an answer yet.
That’s really good that you’ve got to the point of recognising this, an identity wrapped up in stuff or achievement will only ever leave you feeling empty. There’s a fascinating quote from Madonna:
‘My drive in life comes from a fear of being mediocre. That is always pushing me. I push past one spell of it and discover myself as a special human being but then I feel I am still mediocre and uninteresting unless I do something else. Because even though I have become somebody, I still have to prove that I am somebody. My struggle has never ended and I guess it never will.’
I have my own thoughts on this:
And what I believe to the only satisfactory purpose for all of mankind, presumably you’ll know it if you’ve spent much time in my journal so I won’t go in to detail here in case it’s an unwelcome topic.
Well I’m terms of accountability on this site, looks like you’ve trained a grand total of 5 times so far this year, time to get to back to it, discipline, not motivation, just force yourself to get to the gym, lie to yourself and tell yourself that if you drive there and don’t feel it after the first set you can leave, then Hotel California that training!
