But also I’m certain it’s not entirely true, hahahha.
Anxious people can be annoying…
I know that and it’s ok. It’s like being around someone who seems like they’ve had wayyy too much caffeine all the time. And not only that, but they also apologize for acting that way, then want reassurance that they’re not being annoying and then go on to apologize for even asking if they were being annoying in the first place, LOL.
Oh, won’t I be a hoot for all my new coworkers at 2 in the morning .
I’m relieved I’m not depressed anymore, but I’m definitely still anxious all the time. I can certainly be an acquired taste until you get to know me.
Howdy Jen, 'tis always nice when you pop in! As for annoying people here, I argue that no, you don’t. Your log’s readers are voluntary - we choose to read what you write. If someone finds you annoying, it’s reasonable to assume he/she will stop reading. Therefore, those who continue reading your log are not annoyed by you #logicalreasoning#come-at-me-bro/sis
This is actually helpful for me to read. My son is anxious, and I don’t know how to get him to stop thinking I’m irritated with him all the time. It’s actually kind of helpful to read that that certainly isn’t unique to him, and probably also has little to do with me. So you’ve already made an impact today!
There is an important place in the world for such sensitive folk, we just gotta be strong enough to make it there!
I hope you tell him there was a grown ass adult woman who was too scared to post within the comfort of her own log because she didn’t want to bother others, haha. He is not alone : )
I will now! I have nothing but sympathy, but I can’t really empathize - I just don’t feel stress like he does/ you do. I feel like that creates a little bit of a communication barrier where he thinks I’m mad at him for being stressed or I’m apathetic to others’ feelings (the latter may be closer to the truth), but really I’m just like a spectator in a sport I don’t understand - like watching a cricket game!
After adding many Mike-isms I noticed progress on my shoulders, biceps, and legs. But my back remained *gasp * the same…
I decided to watch some more of his videos and add in some different things to see if they work better for me.
1st
Bent over row with an overhand grip. Very bent over and full stretch with no body momentum. He super sets touching the bar to chest with tummy.
75lbs x 8 to chest 10 to tummy
75lbs x 10 to chest 8 to tummy
85lbs x 10 to tummy
I like this, but I’ll bring my versa grips next time.
This exercise is SAFE from elimination.
2nd
One arm D handle lat pull down. Held at the bottom and controlled to full stretch at the top
27.5lbs x 18 per arm
35lbs x 10 per arm
Last reps to failure were very unpleasant. This was the best new addition.
Straight arm pull down. Full stretch and slow reps here as well
30lbs x 20 narrow grip
25lbs x 20 wide
25lbs x 30 wide
Hammer strength plate row
45lbs x 15 per arm
45lbs x 15 per arm
This was a nice change from db row
Seated row cable
70lbs x 11 wide handle super set immediately into narrow handle 70lbs x 9
Rope bicep curl
20lbs x 15
15lbs x 20
Ez bar curl narrow grip
35lbs x 11
35lbs x 12
Good.
I was thinking my routine would be something like
For my 4 days off workout daily
1st and 2nd day shift rest
1st night shift workout
2nd night shift rest
HR also told me i can use the police gym anytime i want, so I’ll have to see what I can do from there if i can add any break time sessions or if I’ll just hike around the river valley.
Good finishing at 5am over your night shift too as you’ll ideally be able to get home into bed while it’s still dark which is massive!
Some things I found have helped me A LOT with night shift and sleep patterns is
Stay up until at least midnight the day before your first shift so I sleep later naturally.
Train in the afternoon, within a few hours of starting my shift (I usually train in the mornings so this kind of tricks my body that in starting my day)
No caffeine after 12am. Hot chocolate or decaffeinated is all good.
I take a cold ass shower when I get home and then straight into bed while I’m still cold, helps me drift off straight away.
Eye mask and dark as possible room, white noise helps too.
Coming off night shift I only sleep a couple hours when I first get home, 3-4 so I don’t feel sleep deprivation drunk. Then I do a really hard workout to gas myself and I’ll usually fall asleep by about 10/11pm and set no alarm for the next morning.
I read in a few articles that eating during night shift can slow your metabolism. Do you eat full meals during your shift?
I wasn’t planning on it. I was going to keep my real meals to daytime hours and just have protein powder and whatnot during the night. I feel like I wouldn’t even be much in the mood to eat then anyway, but I want to keep my brain functioning well.
As a side note- I feel so happy that people are being nice to me, lol.
In the literal sense of the chemicals being secreted through my body because it’s really nice to not feel like a joke, which is how I’ve felt for a really long time.
It will be nice to log during a new non-joke chapter of my life. : - )
So I still eat my meals as close to the times as I normally would, like I’ll come home in the morning, eat fruit and oats, then shower and sleep, awake at around 4, eat my lunch late then go train, then try and eat dinner around 8 or 9ish.
I still take snacks but I try to keep them as ‘clean’ as possible, like fruit and a protein shake
Ok, too many thoughts (TMT), so here we go.
First off - amazing/soul destroying leg workout today
SSB squats with pause
105lbs x 13
105lbs x 13
Front foot elevated ssb split squats
*best split squat variation I’ve tried. Feels awful though, in a very good way. I tried to slow down the movement this week and hold it a tad in the stretched position, but i kept forgetting, lol. The unpleasantness took over my mind…
75lbs x 12 per leg
75lbs x 12 per leg
Elevated hip thrusts *paused and controlled descent
175lbs x 9
110lbs x 15 + 15 BW sumo squats directly after
Deficit stiff leg deadlifts with controlled descent
120lbs x 9
110lbs x 11
I progressed from banded pull-ups to weighted and did them obsessively. It was exciting until the excitement was drowned out by the blood curdling screams of the pain coming from my elbows.
I stopped doing them entirely and i think maybe that’s why (?). I am going to add banded pull-ups with a controlled descent regularly into my routine and see if that helps.
Well, helps my brain, lol. I have no idea if it’s even worse, hahah.
Anyway,
An old co-worker from the city found me on Instagram and it’s been great catching up. I dunno, something about having the odd bud already on your office chat list somehow makes the first few weeks feel less daunting.
It’s chicken thigh/favorite pj/favorite show night!!!
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