What do you mean?
I mean that in the most literal way it can be taken
Well I am knocking them down
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Well this is another one you can knock down then 
Alright I will try. I just find remembering things kind of strenuous. It’s not natural for my mind. But I’ll put the note on my fridge and see if I remember to read it
What strategies do you employ to remember to brush your teeth?
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I know where you are going with this and yet it still made me chuckle.
I’m very happy to see this. I hope it continues for you. Just keep moving forward.
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Good for you!
As someone who has lived with anxiety my entire adult life, this statement is extremely relatable. While I don’t have the same triggers as you, I know the “snowball” extremely well. I encourage you to continue to face it willingly and progressively over time. Anxiety is insidious, and you may think you’ve mastered it because you’ve squashed it in a particular segment of your life, but then you’ll realize it just went somewhere else. You’ll have massive breakthroughs, large setbacks, but mostly a long and slow grind.
Above all, what will free you is to truly understand that it’s not a problem to rid yourself of, but a friend who’s looking out for you, even if he’s a total schmuck sometimes. When you can sit with the schmuck and say “well, that’s here now, but I will carry on anyway”. And when I say free, I don’t mean it’ll disappear, though it WILL shrink drastically. The magic is in no longer giving a flying fuck about whether it’ll be there, and doing what you want to do anyway.
It’s really cool to see a log that also contains honesty and vulnerability regarding the mental side of things. Keep going, physically and mentally!
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3/28/2026
Calories: 2600
Sleep Night Before: 7 hours
Mood: Pretty good
Energy Level: 4.5/10. I got really tired for some reason and took a nap.
Hunger Level: 7/10. I was particularly hungry today. I accidentally went over my desired calories by about 200. It’s ok I’m just going to ignore it instead of trying to reduce cals tomorrow.
Workout: Lower and cardio. Light day. I changed from doing just 1 set of RDLs to 3. For some reason the 3rd RDL set was the easiest.
Steps: 10000
Thought Process: I made sure to think “make the method the goal” today. I did some thinking about that last night and it makes more sense to me now. When I make the end result the goal, it leads to impatience and insecurity of my methods. If I make the method the goal, it stops me from overthinking “should I do this today or should I do that today if I feel this way” etc. It makes it way simpler, reduces even more anxiety and will make it easier to be consistent.
There was almost no anxiety around lifting today, and I didn’t hate being there. I actually was sleepy and pretty hungry for some reason but I still went because I wanted to do it. Usually in this scenario I would probably have just said screw it and skipped due to me being anxious about performing but I didn’t this time. It helped that today was a light day and only a few exercises. If it was a day I wanted to PR and was a longer workout then it might have been different.
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3/29/2026
Calories: 2900. I was at 2400 until like 11:30 and I got really hungry so I ate a bunch of almonds
Sleep Night Before: 7 hours
Mood: Ok I guess. Just another weekend day where I spend 80% of the day on my computer and then try to get all my chores done before bed time. I don’t feel good about that I feel pretty bad about it
Energy Level: 5/10.
Hunger Level: 6/10. Not really hungry per se, but I just felt like eating. I’ve been feeling like that the past couple of days.
Workout: Nothing. I talked myself out of doing today’s cardio because I just did cardio yesterday due to pushing friday’s session to saturday (yesterday). I should have done it though. I kind of wanted to run today during golden hour but I was just hypnotized by my computer.
Steps: 7800. I didn’t do anything until like 4pm and I just ran out of time to get 10000 steps. I could have done it, but I’ve just been hypnotized by my computer lately. Not really doing anything, just going back and forth between youtube, twitch and reddit. I need to get back into my actual hobbies and stop mindlessly using the internet.
Thought Process: Nothing really related to working out today. But I have been playing with using my new found mindset on different things in my life, like getting a new job. I want to get a higher paying job so I can buy a house but I get stressed thinking about the new job’s responsibilities. But I was thinking to myself “it’s all in my head” and “you’re probably already good enough” and it made the idea of getting a new job more approachable.
Doing this log and getting input from you all has made me realize I really cause a lot of my stress with my thoughts in a lot of different situations. Learning how to adapt my thoughts so I can work out without anxiety is also teaching me how to adapt my thoughts to any situation.
I also am going to make an appointment with my GP to get tested for ADHD. I’ve been thinking I have it for years but paradoxically having ADHD makes it hard to actually make the appointment. I think if I do have ADHD and end up taking medication then it will probably improve my ability to relax, stick to stuff, remember stuff and just live a better life. For example, me being stuck on the computer when I actually want to be doing cardio or doing chores. I could have done all my chores and done cardio in like 2 hours but the way my brain works I always push things off to the last minute and then the urgency makes me do it.
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Thanks for the response!
Yeah the anxiety is like catching smoke with your bare hands. You think you catch it, but it just changes shape and moves somewhere else.
One thing with me is my anxiety level changes randomly. Sometimes I can think of the craziest stuff and not be affected whatsoever. It’s like my brain is like “what? Of course that’s not real”. But most of the time I have a base level of anxiety.
I think it has to be something with my stomach. I know that when I’m in a deficit, my OCD gets worse and so does my anxiety/ruminating thoughts. That’s one way I know I’m in a deficit. If I start doing more OCD stuff like washing a potato over and over or touching my door lock to make sure it’s locked (even though it clearly visibly is), I’m in a deficit.
I hope you get better with your anxiety!
I started eating one to two cans of tuna fish every day (inexpensive protein) when I was 20 years old. I am currently 77 years old. At work my nickname was Tunaman. I suppose I have consumed more than the MDR of mercury for quite a few years.
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I feel like this was a rite of passage every youngster had to go through. I did the same in the 90s and early 2000s
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If you’ve never had an office come together and veto your lunch choices due to odor, you aren’t a real bro.
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I once reheated fish in the microwave and heard about it
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While running “Building the Monolith”, I had to eat a dozen eggs at home because work kept complaining about the sulfur smell that came with all the hardboiled eggs.
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This beautifully brings it all back to the topic of making the method the goal. You didn’t switch to protein powder and olive oil to hit the macros. You were supposed to eat a dozen eggs, so you did.
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Inconvenient. Not that you could tell by me, my first piano teacher was a world class pianist. (No joke) One day I had downed a few boiled eggs for lunch. Later that afternoon while sitting on a piano bench next to a pianist who has played the Royal Albert Hall, a famous venue in Edinburgh, live radio broadcasts in Australia, I crop dusted the poor son of a gun. A boiled egg delight. It was not appreciated.
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The medication can help with day to day performance. It helps suppress appetite (certain kinds), as an adult my father mocked me one day for taking the ADHD meds. I looked at him and told him if I had the meds as a teen, like the doctor suggested (instead of the Gaffer wanting to punch the ADHD out of me) I would have gone to Yale. That shut him up. Make the appointment if you feel you need to. I did notice I had a real tendency to tunnel vision when I took the med(s). Which could be good, getting work done, but if my first act of the day was to start reading articles about trout fishing, it was darned hard to let go. Good luck!
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