You can’t take CBD? I haven’t had your experiences but CBD is not supposed to affect you like that…it’s not a high. It shouldn’t affect your mind, thoughts, or behavior like that. Really, you shouldn’t “freak out” from it. It doesn’t have the psychoactive properties you’d get from smoking regular MJ.
How’d you take it? Smoke it, edible, topical (cream, lotion, etc.)…? I’ve used a few different products and have only noticed physical effects (pain reliever).
And yeah, LSD is different than marijuana. Not saying you should take it, but there are a decent amount of studies showing it can help with some mental health disorders. Even heard it can be used to help with alcoholism. Apparently, from what they’ve seen, it’s not addictive (this is debatable). People don’t seem to “need” it, just take it because they enjoy it, and even if taken consistently for a long time, upon stopping, no withdrawal symptoms are shown.
I once found an awesome website giving some great pics of what exactly being on acid feels/looks like. You won’t see little magical creatures crawling around on rainbows or whatever. It’s less cartoon-ish than that.
Anyway, am not encouraging you to try LSD or various CBD products, but as far as drugs go, marijuana (CBD only or otherwise) and hallucinogens such as LSD or shrooms would be the best ones to try. Coke, pills, and harder drugs will do the opposite and make you more depressed. Doubt you were thinking of those anyway.
In more legal terms, I myself have found great success with an antidepressant. A 10mg fluoxetine dose a day for the past several months has worked wonders. Pretty sure this is like the lowest dose I could possibly be taking. I may bump it up to 15-20mg soon.
I started a thread about it a while ago:
Check that out if you want. Some users were very helpful.
Anyway, I was pretty adverse to taking any meds. Lots of family members and friends struggle with addiction, so I was opposed to the idea of medicating for a problem I thought would just go away, or that I could treat myself. Well, several years went by and nothing really got better. Never was suicidal, but I lost a lot of motivation - to work out, eat healthy, make attempts at friends, try hard in school, etc. Really just stopped caring and trying at anything that would make me feel better, which obviously resulted in me not feeling good about myself. Long story short, I got depressed and that just made it all the harder to actually try to do good, even if I knew it would help me.
Still don’t know “why” I felt that way. Hormone imbalance? That’s my go to answer but I really don’t know much about this stuff. I had a bit of a crazy childhood and dealt with some trauma - I’m sure that played a role. A family history of depression and drug addiction on both sides of my family may make me more prone to that stuff. I’m Native American - they seem to get the worst of every health issue you can name.
Doesn’t really matter why I felt that way, just that I did. It’s better now though. The medication really helped. I started sleeping much better, and was a LOT less irritable. If I run out for even a day or two and forget to refill my prescription (which, by the way, is $4 a month at Walmart’s pharmacy. Can’t beat that.) I notice I’m getting more irritable. I’m feeling better though. More positive. Better about myself. Working 3 jobs and feeling productive. Starting college in the fall. Still got a lot of drama and crazy shit in my life but I’m working through it. Life’s good.
A healthy diet (this is where I fail), exercise, surrounding yourself with positive people, having REAL friends, a support group, possibly getting stronger in your faith if you’re a religious person, maybe some medication, therapy…that’s what I’d do to get through it.
I haven’t done much therapy but I probably should. Besides getting some medication to help you get through it, learning how to cope with stuff (loss of loved ones, moving on from an unhealthy relationship) and changing your thinking patterns will be awesome tools for the rest of your life.
@flappinit - any advice for this guy? I think everyone’s covered the main one - talk to a professional. But you seem good with this stuff. By the way, wanted to thank you for that thread I started a while back. I keep meaning to starting a log, and mentioning it there, but the advice I got from you, and the encouragement to do something about my isssues really helped. Doing a lot better.