Floating stools point towards high fat content in the stools. It’s not necessarily bad for a healthy person to have them occasionaly, but it may be of concern for you. The reason Why Phsyiolojik wanted you to get some taurine was that it helps with bile production. Bile is the chemical in our body that helps you absorb fat from what you eat. If you can’t absorb fat, your stools will be fatty and greasy.
Are you working with a psychiatrist now? Has he or she prescribed you meds?
This. Avoid major decisions when your judgement is clouded.
That’s why I said I was a little hesitant to suggest it. But think about it this way. 2 weeks to a month of a “set back” won’t really matter in the bigger picture of getting stronger if it means being healthier — and being able to train healthy for longer periods of time, stringing continuous good sessions together, does it? Anyway, if you feel healthy now, then it’s probably not that needed. You might want to consider it next time if you have a really bad flare up; hopefully none anymore though.
Consider carefully if you really need them, depending on the severity of your symptoms. Don’t be too excited and hop on them at the slightest chance you get. Personally, I’d rather not touch psych meds. Too many possible side effects (emphasis on possible – not everything you read on google is bound to happen, some people don’t experience side effects at all). It really differs from person to person even if they’re the same meds, same dose, same brand. But if your symptoms are so bad that taking them will allow you to regain normal baseline function, then that’s points for taking them. Another important argument for taking them is if you have suicidal ideations that are really bad that you can’t trust yourself to not hurt yourself. The choice to start them should be decided by BOTH YOU and YOUR PHYSICIAN. It’s really a matter of risk vs reward thing.
Edit: Me saying I’d rather not touch them is with the context that I found a way to cope…or that mine wasn’t as bad as I thought it was back then.
I really don’t wanna become the next big-name school shooter. So, I’d have to weigh carefully if psych meds are worth it. But, to be honest I’m too scared of the process of suicide; so I probably couldn’t physically bring myself to do it even though sometimes I desire to. My coping mechanisms are toxic but that isn’t to say they don’t do what they’re intended to do
This is why you need to talk it out with others that can help, even if they help just by listening. It’s never a good idea to bottle them up wether you have the courage to physically do it or not. It will eat away at you slowly even if you don’t do it. You probably know this already, but suicide is never the correct answer to anything.
The light at the end of the tunnel may seem dim, heck it may even feel like it’s not there, but you have to understand that those are just current emotions clouding your judgement. You have to find a solid reason to believe that life is worth living – so that on bad days, despite how bad you are feeling or how dark it seems, you know for a fact that you were clear headed when you made a rational, concrete decision that life is worth living. Whatever reason that may be, it’s worth chasing and exploring. Trust me, it will get you through.
What are your coping mechanisms and why do you think they are toxic?
Well, my #1 coping mechanism is to just shut down completely and work so I don’t have to focus on my emotions/feelings/inner thoughts/insecurities. If I have time to smoke or do something to distract myself, I’ll do that. But yeah; my #1 coping method is to distract myself. I don’t like thinking about the fact that in 3 months my girl is gonna be away at college; surrounded by 18-19 year old guys looking to get their dicks wet (mind you, they’ll all have cars and money from mommy and daddy). Meanwhile, I can’t even get out of gthe house more than once a week for a few hours to see her. I don’t like thinking about how pressured I am to get a 1550+ SAT if I wanna get out of my crazy, soul-draining family situation. Shit like that gets me down in the dumps, because I know there’s always a possibility that I’ll fail. Miserably.
i think you pay too much attention to the thoughts that go through your head. i don’t mean this to insult you, i think it’s like that fore everyone at some point. just let them pass through. just as you might let this message pass through. otherwise your mind will become like a cluttered home of a hoarder.
i wouldn’t be too sure about that. i know a lot about ruined reality. however, just unsolicited pouring of my 2 cents of wisdom over you, if it doesn’t work for you just disregard it.
Thanks, friend. I know that was coming from a place of concern. I’ve tried getting through these thoughts by myself for years, but they just dominate my headspace like nothing I’ve ever seen. It’s scary, and because I don’t trust myself to not act on those thoughts and make some irrevocable, stupid decisions; I’m getting help.
On a more positive note, the appointment went well. It gave me some perspective as to where I’m at in terms of getting out of my messed up situation. She commended the “internal strength” she thinks I have for living through what I’ve been living through (when in reality I perceive myself to be a procrastinating, selfish, self-loathing asshole 99.999999% of the time). Maybe she sees something in me that I can’t see. I’ll trust her judgment on this one.
She also talked to me about making little changes in how I perceive things and react to certain triggering situations; which I figured was a given. All in all, good session. I feel comfortable with her, and she’s a good listener.
Well, I did about as well as I could possibly expect to after using heavy-duty laxatives for the past 3 days. I figured it’d be a good way to ensure I could give it my all during my session; but I think I just ended up dehydrated and unable to give it my all regardless. Sleep and food intake have all been extraordinarily sparse this week and I got the pleasure of going into this workout sore.
Lighter weights FLEW, and I was honestly sure I had 340 x 12. I messed up my setup with 340 and my straps kept getting caught on my sweats; and it showed. I also pulled from a dead-stop on rep 4 because I let the bar descend too quickly; and I couldn’t recover the set. It’s fine. It was a great baseline PR, and to be honest if I didn’t pull 320 x 14 last week 340 x 9 would have been a PR. BW is also down a few pounds from forgetting to eat and shitting myself for 3 days straight, lol.
Deadlift
135 x 2 x 5
185, 225, 260, 300 x 3 — these FLEW
340 x 9 — decent
300, 260 x 3 (done conventional, beltless)
relearn how to conventional DL…felt alien. Looked alright, though. There’s an evident weakness in my lower back.
don’t use straps. I don’t need them, and to be honest my technique is very hit or miss when I use them. Grip has never been an issue for me, and I’d rather be able to see where I’m grabbing the bar and set up accordingly.
Cool. At least I have a plan. Gonna be working with Clint Darden this summer, once again. I’ll probably experiment with conjugate. I’m too stupid to run it myself.
This is legit why I deadlift in swim trunks. They’re smoother material, and the bar slides up and down them. I ran into this issue with sweats and gym shorts. Also why I don’t wear my knee sleeves on my worksets. Less about the straps snagging and more the knurling, but still.
I’ll have to make sure I wear a pair of eye/nose goggles and arm floaties as well. Should help with bicep activiation (sort of like a bicep belt), and the goggles will ensure that I’m taking in the most air possible by mouth. It’s foolproof!
Do you believe that holding your original brace allows you to squeeze out more reps than you otherwise would be able to? I’ve tried it with lighter weights and around rep 10 I blacked out.
I do. For one, it means less time spent rebracing, and on a set of touch and go, every second ticking is strength leaving. My initial brace is going to be my strongest one as well, as it’s set under the most ideal condition, which means better chance of more reps.
Blacking out sounds about right.
I’m not joking about the swim trunks either (just to make sure it wasn’t perceived as a comedy throw-away). Those black and white camo shorts are some swim trunks I got from Kohl’s. Bought 3 of them. Great for deads.
I do own swim trunks that look like shorts. I’ll have to cut the mesh insides out and use them for deadlifts. Thanks for the tip. Do you have any tips for making sure you set your straps in the same spot every time? Sometimes I have trouble doing that; as opposed to taking a mixed grip. I could also take a hook grip, but I don’t enjoy pain that much. Straps throw me off because I can’t see where my grip is in relation to both my other hand and my position on the bar.