At the end of 2019 I ran a 3 month deca cycle. I felt fine throughout, but 4 weeks after cessation I woke up with anhedonia (I can’t feel positive emotions like happiness, excitement, joy) and total loss of sexual drive.
I also suffer from derealization disorder (I feel like I’m in a dream and detached from my body).
My cognition on a scale of 1-10 would be a 3.
I have fatigue which seems persistent each day. At 12pm I get chronic fatigue for 30 minutes, then from 7pm-11pm I’m very tired but force myself to stay awake. Then after 11pm I’m quite awake.
I can get erections no problem.
Does anyone else suffer this? I am scared and I feel alone.